Lost in Love. ♥

Living with my best friend Sibel in London can be really funny. Especially when you're close to the boys of One Direction. I have known Niall now for more than 16 years and now here I am sharing a house with him in a private place in London city. Everything has it's ups and downs but finally everything's perfect and nothing other than just perfect.


24. Break up


Abi's P.O.V.

The past days were really awful. I kept on vomiting and got unconscious a few times.

I could tell Niall was extremely worried. And I also saw in his eyes he didn't believe me.

But I now he won't get the tought of me having cancer so everything is ok... for now..

I still can't believe it. I mean I have cancer.. and Maybe.. I wont make it..

I don't want to cry. Not right now. And I don't want anyone to know. Except for Sibel and Harry.

Harry has been really kind to me. He's such a lovely guy.

And apart from his whole 'bad-ass' impression to everyone he's just adorable.

I can tell after Niall I have a really good understanding to him. Eventhough I just think he could be my brother or something. I always wanted a big brother and Harry is just sweet.


Time past by and Niall and I stayed at home. The boys and Sibel came to visit us.

They wanted to look after me , see if I'm doing well. I could see the worried look in Sibel's and Harry's eyes. Sibel seemed a bit relieved because she was near Zayn. But Harry was always starring at me and it made me kind of uncomfortable. He also had been silence the past days.

Everyone sat in the lliving room while I started to make some tea. 

I felt better but not that good.

Suddenly I heared someone walk into the kitchen. 

Before I could turn around I could see a tall curly haired boy infront of me. I smiled at him.

'How are you doing , love?' Harry asked leaning against the counter.

'Quite good.. just the same collapsing and stuff..' I said turning back to the water which was now boiling.

'You know.. I'm really worried about you Abi.. Why don't you want to tell the boys? I think Niall is getting a bad impression of you because I can see it's clear to him you're hidding something.' he mumbled.

I turned around a bit surprised.


Harry's P.O.V.

'H-How do you know?' she stuttered.

'Well.. I heared him talking to Louis about you're collapsing a few days ago. He's really worried , love.. I think you should tell h-' she cutts me off.

'NO HARRY!' she yelled a bit louder letting a tear escape her eyes.

I walk over to her and pull her in for a hug.

'I don't want him to get upset..' she mumbled into my chest. I could tell she was crying.

'Abi.. do you trust me?' I ask as she suddenly looks up into my eyes.

'Yeah.. I do.. You're like my brother I always wanted.. I really trust you' she stated.

I smiled at her. 'Can I ask you something?' I said smiling down at her.

'Of course, what is it?' she said smiling back.

I let go of her.

'The past days.. since you're back from the hospital.. did you think even just a minute about Josh? Where he is and why he didn't call or visit you?' I asked her as I saw confusion in her face.


Abi's P.O.V.

Josh? Shit Josh! I just completely forget about him! How could I? I was way too busy with Niall and all the things that has happened , that I completely forgot about my Boyfriend!

'Shit Harry , you're right.. I-I just forgot about him! I-I think I need to call him.' I say searching for my phone.

Suddenly I feel a strong arm grab my wrist. I turn around to see Harry stopping me from getting my phone.

'Abi don't you get it? You don't love him! It's just like a crush but nothing more. If you would truely love him you wont just forget about him.' He was kind of angry and his words hurted me.

I stood there. Shocked of what he just said. I couldn't get anything out of my mouth. It's like I was mute.

But in a way he was true. You don't just forget your boyfriend. Especially in this kind of Situation. I was glad I had Niall around so I just forgot about him..

'Harry..' I mumble. I can't get anything out of my mouth. Is he right? Do I really don't have for Josh more than just a crush?

'Abi. Look. I can tell what's wrong with you. You thought you have found your 'big great love' but your wrong. You had your big love right beside you and you never noticed. He was just that close to you and you? You went searching for other guys. You never understood he was the right one for you.' he said a bit louder.

'H-Harry.. who are you talking a-about..?' I got nervous. Really nervous. 

I mean who's this 'special' guy Harry is talking about? He was right beside me? What the hell? What's going on right now?

'Yes Abi.. you know who I'm talking about. Don't tell me you don't have feelings for Niall. 

You love him. More than everything in this planet and everyone can see that. You're hiding youself from the thruth. But this time it wont work. You have to admit your feelings , love.' he stated resting his hands on each side of my shoulders looking down at me.

I was shocked.

What? Niall? I can't believe it. It's not like I have a crush on Niall or something.. but in a way.. I don't know he makes me feel great and he always makes me laugh.. SHIT ABI! Stop thinking like this! You have a boyfriend..even if he doesn't cares about you that much.. Maybe Harry's right. I mean every girl would die to have Niall as her boyfriend. But in a way I'm afraid. I know Niall wont feel the way I do for him.. I'm not even sure if I feel more than just friendship for him. God what should I do? I mean Niall's my best friend right?! 

I don't know what to say. So many thoughts run through my mind as I finally get the guts to get out of the kitchen. Leaving Harry and the boiled water just there. 

I run through the hall wiping away my tears directly upstairs. I could see everyone staring at me as I rush past them. Then I dissapear. I didn't even bother to look at them. They would see I have been crying.

I slam the door and lay down on my bed. Just letting each and every word sink into me what Harry had just said. 

Maybe he's right? Maybe I've always been searching for someone but the right one was just next to me. I can't believe this. I need to talk to Josh.


Niall's P.O.V.

'Oh really Niall? So what do you think about a couple of hours just chilling around watching some movies and spending some time with the lads?' Louis asked with a DvD in his hand.

Sibel cleared her throat. Looking a bit pissed at what Louis just said.

'Oh and of course with Sibel! I would never forget you , love' he said grinning at Sibel.

She rolled her eyes.

'Really Louis? But you just forgot me.. let me think.. a couple of Minutes ago?!' she asked a bit annoyed. Zayn, Liam and I couldn't help but laugh. 

'Sorry Sibel.. I was just that excited about spending some time with you guys that I forgot about you and Abi' Louis said in a sad tone.

'Oh like she was reading our minds. Look there she is' Liam said pointing to the door which leads to the kitchen.

I still laught and looked over to the door. But suddenly my smile faded.

She was crying. 

We stood there in shock and watched her running past us and getting upstairs. 

Seconds after Harry appeard with a confused expression.

What did he do to her?! She just became fine and now she's crying again.

Anger built in me as I found my way over to Harry and grabbing his collar.

I bump him against the wall and I could see surprise in his face.

'What the fuck did you do to her?' I hissed.

The boys rushed to my side trying to pull me off of Harry.

'I didn't do anything mate. Go and talk to her.. It will be worth it' he smiled.

I looked a bit confused. I let go of him and ran upstairs. I stopped infront of her room hearing her talk to someone on her phone. I didn't wanted to interrupt her. 

As I finally heard Abi yelling I decided to lean my head against the door and just listen what she was talking about.

'What is your problem? I mean you didn't even care how I was doing! What if I died? You still wouldn't know that because you fuckin don't care about your girlfriend , Josh!'  I heared her shout.

A little smile spread on my face. I know she would be sad after all this but in the other hand I'm happy. I stop thinking and decide to listen further.

'Over reacting? Josh you're such an ass I swear what's wrong with you? It's been about a week and you even didn't call me! I had to call you and know you're forcing me to come to yours? I don't get you! I thought you might have changed after everything what happened but your still the possessive one! I don't want to talk to you anymore! JUST- BYE!' I heard her yelling and seconds afetr there was silence.

Suddenly a thought hit my mind. Shit. She was pregnant. That's not good, is it?! I don't know what to do until I hear sobbing. I open the door sightly without knocking and walk in.

She's lying on her bed still crying. She didn't notice me.

I walk over to her and sit down besides her. Her eyes are covered with her hands and she's lying on her back.

Her cheeks flushed in a deep red and her face is full of tears.

I can't handle this.

I put my fingers slowly on her cheeks and wipe away the tears. Suddenly she begans to shrug and pulls her hand back down looking me deep into my eyes.

She gets up puts her arms around my neck and hugs me tightly. I feel tears hitting my neck as I just sit there and hold her in my arms letting her cry.

I know in what bad situation she is right know. But I'm sure she'll get ride of it. 

Josh and her wont make a good family. I mean since everything what happened it was just matter of time for both going different ways.

'Shhh.. it's ok' I say stroking her hair a bit.

'Niall.. I'm so sorry..' she sobbed.

'No, don't be sorry for something like this.. it's not your fault' I tried to comfort her.

'No Niall, I shouldn't have let me in to this kind of trouble! I don't know what came over me. it's just everything about Josh and.. I don't know.. Just sorry! I shouldn't have been dating him. You told me. From the first day. I didn't thought he would say something like this.' she said still crying.

I got confused. 

'Say what?' I asked pulling back to look at her.

'H-He ahm.. he said.. I should decide b-between you and h-him' she stuttered looking at the ground.

'HE WHAT?!' I got angry. How could he say something like this? She was his girlfriend. I can't believe he put Abi right inbetween both of us.

'Yeah..b-but I..' she started again.

'What did you say?' I ask nervous hoping for a positiv answer.

'I..' she started to say but stopped. She wiped away her tears and looked into my eyes.

I looked at her still waiting for an answer.

'I.. b-broke up with him..' she finally managed to say.


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