He Loves Me Not

Paige has been torn over and over. Taken away from her family, lied to, and abused by her crazy boyfriend she is miserable. Will she be able to escape? Will she be reunited with her family? Will she be able to have a relationship after all she has been through? Will anything ever be the same?


36. 20 Questions

Paige's POV


A knock on my door startled me, I had been watching The Notebook. I sniffled, wiped my eyes, and told them to come in. 
Niall's face peeked in. I chuckled and gestured him in. He was holding a massive bouquet of flowers. He put it down and came to sit by me. 
"Thank you." I whispered. 
"No problem, baby. How're you feeling?" He asked, stroking my cheek. My stomach flopped when he called me baby. 
"I'm fine. Tired." I shrugged. 
"I'm sorry." Niall frowned. 
"Come closer, I'm cold." I lied, successfully getting Niall to lie down on the bed with me. Instantly I was enveloped in his warmth, a gesture that could practically melt me. 


"I have so many questions." Niall finally confessed. I swallowed nervously and encouraged him to ask me. 
"What's so important about this bracelet?" He said. 
"Next." I cringed, not ready to answer that. 


Niall frowned but continued, "Why did you cut yourself?" I bit my lip and thought for awhile. 
"Have you ever been told that you are useless, or ugly, or unwanted?" I asked him. 
"Maybe like once or twice as a kid." He nodded. 
"And you hated it, right?" I said, he nodded again. 
"Well, Nathan told me everyday how awful I was. After being with him for so long, I believed it. He would always hit me, so I was punished for being me. When you guys saved me, the beatings and insults stopped. We all knew the transition would be hard on me. I cut myself because I felt the insults still, but no one was punishing me." I answered. 


"What did it feel like to be with him?" Niall changed subject. 
"It was a living hell. In an abusive relationship, you feel so... Alone. Weak. Pathetic." I struggled to find words. 
"I had nobody. He lied to me about everything, I had nothing to actually trust. Being with Nate made me feel like nothing good could ever happen again." I confessed. A pained expression crossed Niall's face as I said this. 
"I'm sorry baby, you shouldn't have had to go through that alone." He said quietly, gently kissing away the bad memories. 


Niall stayed with me for what seemed like forever. He asked me questions, we talked, or we just looked at each other in a comfortable silence.  
"How'd you get in here?" I asked. 
"Well, it involved my smooth words and a use of a couple bills and an autograph." He chuckled. It surprised me how willing he was to come visit me, let alone give away money to be let in. 
"Maddie was... Is... My best friend." I finally confessed. Niall perked up now that I was willing to open up. 
"We would go on crazy road trips together, playing around and making these bracelets." I continued, holding out my wrist. I could feel the tears rising already and I was barely into the story. 
"Shhh. You don't need to tell me." Niall whispered. 
"I do. Just give me a second." I sniffled. I took a couple breaths and closed my eyes. When I opened them again, I was ready. 


"Maddie was and always will be my best friend. Liam wasn't as close with her, because they argued a lot, but it didn't stop them from loving each other of course.
I should probably tell you that I was a twin. 
When my twin and I were not even a month old, the doctor realized that one of us needed surgery. They successfully preformed it on me, removing one of my kidneys that would harm and possibly kill me." I sighed, then looking Niall in the eyes, I said, "They had the wrong baby." 
"Nothing was too wrong with my twin for the longest time. She and I grew close and had a ton of fun together. No one knew that they had the wrong twin, it never affected her... Until three years ago." I frowned and played with one of my charms Maddie had picked out.
"It happened so fast." I choked out as tears flooded my face. Niall pulled my into a huge hug and stroked my hair lovingly. It was exactly what I needed. 
"Maddie was my twin. I blame myself for what happened, but I know it wasn't anything I could do. I just can't let go. Loosing her was just the beginning of my depression and bad relationships. This bracelet is all I have left... We bonded over it. I know she's wearing it now in her grave... or wherever she is. I feel like I can still feel her, see her, talk to her, when I have this on." I whispered. 
"Shh. It's ok. I'm so sorry baby, but it's alright." Niall kissed me over and over. I nodded, the secret finally off my shoulders. Niall began to sing sweetly and I drifted off to a semi sleeping state where I swore I could see Maddie and myself playing in the yard as little girls again, but I fell asleep before I could get a closer look at the illusion. 

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