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Isabella is your everyday girl. She gets good grades has amazing friends. Her parents adore her and want nothing more then a good education for their daughter. what happens when everything doesn't go as planned? What happens when she comes face to face with a certain boy named Harry, the school's bad ass.

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35. liam's party

Harrys pov

 

 

The day Izzy walked away from me was by far the worst day of my life. It was so much harder watching her walk away then my own parents. There's alot of things I wish I would have done differently. I hate that I'm so fucked up in the head. Why couldn't I have met her before I started this stupid game. I know we could have been happy together. I know things between us would work. I knew I couldn't sleep with her, I knew sooner or later I would have to tell her the truth. I don't regret telling her. I rather she knew now then later on. I couldn't bring myself to sleep with her and then break her afterwards. I knew someone would have told her this was all just a game. I knew I had to be the one to tell her. I know she wants nothing to do with me, I know that for a fact. I try calling and texting her and she doesn't pick up. I know I fucked up the only good thing I had in my life. I know this is one regret I will live with for the rest of my life.

 

 

I'm so confused, I don't know when or how I fell in love with her I just did. I knew spending time with her was a bad idea. I knew my feelings would get in the way eventually. She's different then any other girl I met. When we were together she made me feel like I mattered, like I was important for once. Everytime I kissed her it felt right like we were made for eachother and I had to go and fuck it all up, I fuck everything up. Why did my past have to be so bad. Why couldn't my parents just love me for me. If they would have showed me love then maybe I would have learned how to love myself. I'm used to getting hurt, so it's not that big of a deal to hurt someone else. But this time it's different I know exactly how she feels. I know the both of us are broken.

 

 

I haven't seen or heard from Izzy in two weeks. I stopped going to school so she wouldn't have to see me. Things between the group are pretty much back to normal. Now that Izzy is out of the way Zayn and I are okay again. I still don't like that fact that he likes her, but there's not much I can do about that. I know Zayn would treat her better then I ever could. I know anyone could treat her better than me. I'm a worthless piece of shit and just like she said I deserve to be alone for the rest of my life. I don't see Linn as much the only time I do her is when Louis brings her around. I'm lucky if she says two words to me. I wanna ask her how Izzy is doing and what she is up to but I know she won't tell me. I don't blame her I wouldn't tell me either. I have no business knowing what goes on in her life anymore. I'm not part of it, I just hope one day she finds someone that will give her everything. That can make her happy and would never treat her the way I did.

 

 

If anyone hurts her along the way, I'll hurt them. It's not fair what I did to her. But if you think about it I did her a favor. It would have been much worse if I took her virginity. I seen her falling more and more in love with me each day and that scared me. I never had someone care about me or love me for me. So when Izzy told me she would never leave me I got scared. I did what I do best and I ran. I ran from the one person that would have gave me everything. "Harry did you hear me?" Liam questions. "Huh, no what's up?" I ask. "Party tonight my house, you in?" He asks. "Probably not." I answer. "Come on you can use a few. We all know you're hurting." He states. "I guess. But I'm not staying long." I say. "Alright that's fine. Be at my house at 10." He tells me. I nod letting him know I heard him. The crew and I went to a local diner to grab a bite to eat. I pretty much to the same thing everyday. We go out to eat and then I usually go back home to sleep the day away.

 

 

Izzys pov

 

 

These passed two weeks have been hell. I feel lost I have no clue what I'm even doing. I never thought one person could have so much impact on your life. Harry has messed everything up. Everything stayed the same for everyone else while my life changed drastically. I no longer hang with his friends. The only one I still talk to is Louis and that's because he's dating Linn. I still hang with Linn and Jaime. I see Kris and Kasey all the time. I no longer speak to Torie. I didn't even tell her why she tries to get ahold me all the time I just don't respond. What she did was wrong, if Niall did anything like this to her and I knew I wouldn't have heastitated to tell her. I guess I just care more about my friends than other people. I focus all my time on my studies, I'm starting to improve my grades. I still have a few I have to bring up. My dad said If I get them back to A's I can move back home.

 

 

I'm surprised he actually agreed to let me move back home. I know it's a matter of time before Harry and I run into one another. I can't hide forever. I never see him in school anymore, I wanna ask Louis if he knows whats going on with him, but I don't want him to tell Harry I asked about him. I could always ask Linn if she knows. I'm also surprise I actually study my mind always drifts to Harry, I wonder what he's doing or where he's at. I wonder how he is doing and if he feels like I do. I always question if what him and I had was real or was it all based on lies. I feel like he cares about me but then if he did how could he do what he did. I don't see how you can hurt someone you care about. I don't see how you could break the one you love. To me it just seems impossible. I just finished my math home work. I close my textbook and set it on my nightstand. I walk over to my dresser picking out some pajamas for the night. As I'm looking through my drawers in walks Linn and Jaime.

 

 

"Hey what do you think you're doing?" Linn questions. "Uhh getting some pajamas." I state. "You're not going to bed Iz, we talked about this." She says. "Linn I really don't want to go to Liam's party. What happens if Harry shows up?" I ask. "He won't Harry stays at home. The only time we see him is when we go to the diner to eat. After that he goes home and just sleep." She assures me. "Come on Iz you know you could use a few." Jaime interveins. I glare at her and she giggles. Jaime is good for instigating. "Fine but I'm not staying long." I state. "Yay." They both cheer in unison. I just laugh at them. "I'm gonna shower be back in a few." I say. "We gotta shower too so we will meet you in there." Linn says. "Okay." I answer. The only good thing that happend over these passed two is I accepted the co-ed bathroom, it's not as bad as I made it seem. Everyone respects eachother not to invade one another's privacy.

 

 

As I'm washing my hair I hear Jaime and Linn make their way into the bathroom. I finish my shower five minutes before them. I wrap a towel around my body and another one around my hair. I sit on the bench and wait for the two of them to finish with their shower. Once they're done we all make our back to our dorm. Linn gives Jaime a red dress to wear, Linn wears a blue one strap dress. I wear leggings and fancy white top. While they curl their hair I straighten mine. I put on some mascara, some eyeliner on my top lid and a red tint of lipstick on my lips. Linn throws me a pair of knee high boots. They settle on black high heels. Once we're ready we make our way to my car. I decided to drive just incase I wanted to leave early. I don't plan on drinking at all. With my mind set I don't need any liquor.

 

 

Harrys pov

 

 

I'm an hour late when I pull into Liam's drive way. On the way up the block I could have sworn I seen Izzy's car. But decided against it being her's, the whole partying scene isn't her thing. The only reason she partied before is because I asked her to go. She never even like alcohol until I came along. No matter where I'm at or what I'm doing I always find myself thinking about her. I wonder if this pain is permant I wonder if it will ever go away. I make my way inside. I find Liam right away so he knows that I'm here. "Took ya long enough." He shouts over the loud music. "I fell asleep" I lie. I was trying to prolong my arrival. I don't want to be here at all. I don't plan on drinking. The alcohol would just make everything worse. There has to be atleast 200 people here. Just about every girl I ever slept with is here. Niall and Torie are off in a corner by themselves. Zayn is with Liam and I. I scan the room looking for Louis. I spot Louis with Linn next to Linn is her friend Jaime, next to Jaime is Izzy.

 

 

I can't stop looking at her she's beautiful. I can tell just by looking at her she doesn't want to be here. I continue to stare until her eyes lock with mine her mouth falls open. I feel my breath hitch. She whispers something to Linn and disappears through the crowd. "I'll be right back." I tell Liam and Zayn. I make my way through the sweaty drunk teenagers. I spot Izzy making her way out the front door. "Izzy." I shout. She doesn't stop I don't know if it's because she can't hear me over the loud music or if she's just choosing to ignore me. Regardless what the reason is I follow her outside. "Izzy." I shout again. She did what I never thought she would she stopped walking. She turned around to face me. She already has tears in her eyes. I hate this I hate that I cause this. I walk over to her and I just wrap her in my arms. She doesn't pull away she just cries into my chest. "This doesn't change anything. I still want nothing to do with you." She reminds me. "I know, I know. Just please talk to me." I beg. She pulls out of grip and looks me in the eyes. Her breath hitches as she see the tears running down my cheeks. "Okay Harry I'll talk to you." She sniffles. For the first time in two weeks I smile, a real smile. Call me crazy but I feel like there's still hope for me and her and I will never stop trying.

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