An Unexpected Funder

Ginny's Quidditch team doesn't have enough money. Will Draco help, despite his depression? Will she help him in return by being his friend? Or more? And what'll happen when Harry comes back?

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17. Wobbles

Ginny POV

I slowly closed the door behind me and leaned against it, sighing heavily.

My knees were still wobbly from all the kissing we'd been doing and I was sure my hair was as messed up as it could be. I slowly let myself slid down the door to sit on the floor, giving my knees a bit of much needed rest.

I could barely stand just thinking about the last hour, he was such a great kisser! How could I have ever left him for Harry? Harry may be my first love, but nowhere near as caring, sweet and good at kissing as Draco!

The last hour made it even more clear to me that I would have to let Harry go, he just wasn't the one for me.

Not that Draco certainly is, but I should at least give him a fair chance, and the feelings I have for him might evolve in something even more amazing than the friendship and mutual liking we have at the moment. We could try to be together, I would probably love that, I just feel safe with him, even if that might be irrational.

Harry has always made me feel uncertain and he limited my freedom, not that he did that on purpose, he just didn't want me to be with anybody else but him. He was just a tad too jealous for my liking, he wouldn't even let me visit Draco last week, just because he didn't like him.

Draco was just a friend then, looking back on it I might have felt something more for him already, but I want to be able to meet friends and do what I want to do, I like being independent and I know I can take care of myself. Harry doesn't get that, he never did.

I slowly stood, still feeling a bit wobbly, but not as much as when I'd just left Draco's room. After we kissed and kissed and kissed and…

Right, I should get my head out of the gutter, before I face Harry. He probably won't like it that I've visited Draco again and I will have to break up with him, I can't go on leading him on, it wouldn't be good to either of them.

It would still be hard to break up with him. He really is a good person, he deserves to be happy for once. He deserves someone who really loves him and doesn't see another behind his back.

A sudden pang of guilt hit me, my antics probably made two great guys unhappy. If I would've just told Draco about Harry and if I hadn't kissed Harry without telling either about the other, I wouldn't be in this mess, even though Draco and I weren't really dating at the moment I still should have told him.

I slowly walked out of St. Mungo's and thought of what I was going to tell Harry.

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When I Apparated to the Burrow and was met with an angry Harry.

Again.

He doesn't really mean it, he's just concerned about me.

"Why are you this late? You could have at least flooed in to tell me you would be staying wherever you were!"

I tried to interfere, but he just kept on ranting and soon I gave up and just listened to his tirade.

"I was so worried about you! Where were you by the way? Not again with the Ferret? He doesn't deserve the attention you give him he's just a slimy git, scum and worst of all he was a Death eater!"

Now he really pissed me off, he could try to tell me what to do, but he couldn't insult one of my friends like that!

"Harry James Potter! Why the hell do you think you can call my friend that! You don't even know him! He's changed a lot, and he's been nicer to me than you have been in a long, long time! The only thing I get from you are insults, harsh questions and tirades! This can't go on like any longer. You can't tell me what to do, I'm a grown woman, I can take care of myself perfectly fine and I don't need you worrying about me for no reason at all!"

I was breathing heavily because of all the anger I tried to keep in and he just looked at me like I'd turned into one of Luna's Nargles, or one of the other creatures she believes in. One way or the other, he just seemed too shocked to talk and that gave me some time to gather my senses a bit and calm down. I decided to try a different approach and make him see reason.

"Harry, what exactly is your problem with me visiting Draco, he's just a friend. If you won't let me see my friends I don't want to be with you any longer. Then it'll be over."

That really caught his attention, and I had the feeling that his eyeballs might pop out of his head any second now. I decided to give him some time to digest that and think of a reply. After 10 minutes of silence he looked a bit better and opened his mouth to reply.

"Of course I don't mind you meeting a friend Ginny, I just don't want you anywhere near that Ferret ever again, the things he's said to you are just… How could you just forgive him after all he's put you through. I only want to protect you from the pain it'll cause you when you finally discover he hasn't changed one bit and just wanted to make fun of you. To use you. You know as well as I do people don't just change like that. At least not that much."

I looked at him and knew that he would never get what I saw in Draco, he would never believe it. He would always think of Draco as the pathetic little blonde Ferret from Hogwarts, a coward and nothing more than that.

I slowly blinked, trying to get my mind together and gather as much courage as possible for what I knew I have to do next. I took in a deep breath and looked him in the eye.

He still looked like he did in Hogwarts, he hadn't changed not really, so he couldn't believe others did. After this conversation things will never be the same between us ever again.

We probably can't even stay friends, not with our history. I wouldn't be able to bear it, and I know he wouldn't either. If we stayed friends I would see the hurt look in his eyes every time we met, knowing I caused it.

I couldn't do that to him.

I really had to break up with him, there was nothing else I could do.

I liked Draco too much, I liked him better than Harry and I couldn't keep them both, that would hurt them too much.

I've made my choice, I already did while I sat next to Draco's bed last week, I just had to go through with it. I had to break up with Harry, my first ever crush.

I slowly took his hand in mine and intertwined our fingers.

"Harry, I know you care for me. As I do about you, but this can't go on like this any longer."

I looked in his eyes and saw the realisation of what I was about to say dawn on him.

He started shaking his head, he wouldn't agree with me breaking up with him like this.

"Harry, you know as well as I do that I need my freedom, I can't stand not being able to do what I want to do. If you won't let me see Draco, who's become very dear to me in a very short time I'll have to break up with you.

If I have to choose between the two of you I will choose Draco, he needs me more than you need me. He has nobody else in the world. I know you probably won't like it, but I like him as much as I like you, maybe even more. I gave us a chance, but now I know it was hopeless to begin with."

He looked at me with tears in his eyes, it hurt me so much to see him like this again, this time knowing it's my fault he's hurt.

"Harry, we have to break up. It's not fair to you to keep you as my boyfriend when I don't love you. I'm sorry but I can't love you, you deserve someone better than me, someone who does love you, who'll care for you even more than I do. I have to give Draco a chance, our friendship might even bloom into love, I'm not sure about that, but I'll have to take that chance.

So I have to break up with you, for your sake. I know you probably won't like it at the moment, but it is for the greater good. I don't want to lead you on any longer, you have to go on with your life, meet new people, get a job, try to get over your trauma."

Now I was tearing up and looked away blinking quickly to hide them. He looked at me as if he couldn't believe it.

"Why Ginny, why can't you love me? Am I not good enough for you? I've tried it, I honestly have, but deep down I knew you didn't love me. You were thinking about other things all the time.

And then you started seeing him in the hospital, I knew there was something going on between you two. So I tried to keep you here, tried to show you how much I love you, how much I care about you, but you didn't see it. You never noticed how much I tried my best to please you. You just went off again to that jerk, without looking back."

Now tears were streaming down his cheeks and he didn't even bother to wipe them away.

"And now you're breaking up with me, so you can go to him, you don't even care that you're hurting me. Not at all. The only thing you can think of is yourself. I tried to get over my trauma just for you, you were the only thing that kept me going and now that's gone too. I don't know what I can do now, there's nothing left here for me.

And that's all because of you.

You just had to meet him, didn't you? You couldn't even wait for me for just a couple of months, but got over me and fell for someone else. How could you do that to me Ginny? Can't you see I'm the one for you? I always have been! And now you're just leaving me!

I wish you all the luck in the world to comfort yourself when he dumps you, I won't be there to catch you any longer. You put yourself in this position, you will have to suffer the consequences too. I won't be there for you any longer Gin, that's all you own fault."

And with that he ran off. I couldn't even see where he went, because I was crying too hard.

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