The Nerd (Complete) *RATED R*

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I never knew I would mean so much to one boy..but it happened.
I never knew I would fall in love so fast..but it happened.
I never knew the real feeling of loving someone so much it hurt..but it happened.

I fell in love with the school's outcast..Justin Bieber,I was the only one who looked past his nerdy personality,but that was the best part about him.

He was beautiful inside and out..and I was lucky to finally call him mine.

Well for a little while anyway.

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67. Too much

 

I just kept staring...he was there,in front of me....

 

All of a sudden Justin ran forwards and enveloped me into a huge hug.

 

Tears started to spill from my eyes and I couldn't keep in my sobs,he's finally back. 

 

''Baby I'm so sorry.'' He whispered,kissing my head multiple times before I felt his salty tears fall onto me. 

 

''Where the fuck d-did you go?'' I sobbed. ''A cell?''

 

''No..they wanted to question me on the murder of Derek,I stuck to my story but they still didn't let me go until this morning because of some complications,knowing you were here on your own killed me.'' He whispered,pulling me closer. 

 

''Do you know what you did to me?  I got no fucking sleep,I  could basically function...I got no call or anything...I even went into the station and they told me that it must stay confidential and they threw me out.'' I hissed,pulling away from Justin and running my hands through my hair.

 

''I'm so-'' 

 

''No Justin! I was worried sick...I didn't know if that would be the last time I would ever see you...do you know what that would fucking do to me? it would ruin me...its hard when your not around,the bed felt so empty and I can't sleep without you by my side..did you know that? did you even think about that last night?'' I hissed. 

 

''Baby of course I did,I couldn't sleep either...but I'm here now..okay? and I promise I'm not leaving you.'' He whispered,wiping my tears before he kissed my forehead. 

 

''Justin we can't just move on..I didn't know anything,you could be guilty for I know and locked away and I wouldn't know? I feel physically sick just thinking about it...you know what? this is too much.'' I hissed,slapping his hands away and walking into the bedroom. 

 

''What do you mean,what do you mean this is t-too much?'' Justin shot,walking into the room after me. 

 

''Justin I'm sorry and it hurts to say this but I don't think we should be together...It's getting too much and last night showed me that I really can't live without you...but It hurt me thinking about you locked up,and I've come to realise that maybe if we just go our separate ways that I won't have so much pressure and stress on my back..this relationship is straining.'' I chocked,wiping my tears that were fiercely running down my cheeks. 

 

I got my suitcase and threw it on the bed,piling random items that were taken out last night back in. 

 

''No.'' Justin replied,walking over and picking up the suitcase ,he tipped it upside down and watched all my things fall to the floor,he then threw the suitcase across the room and walked towards me,his eyes becoming dark. ''We're not breaking up.'' He replied,a single tear falling from his left eye. 

 

''Justin- '' I replied,once he got a hold of my wrist. 

 

(A/N: Listen to nothing like us while you read this...kinda fits the mood:D'

 

The pads of his fingers pressed into my new cuts and I silently yelped. 

 

That's another thing...last night I began to cut..thinking of Justin not being by my side completely wrecked me... I'm so through with being hurt like this..I just want a normal relationship.

 

His nails dug in harder as he looked at me with sad eyes. ''I need you.'' He whispered. 

 

''Justin...please don't make this harder than it already is.'' I yelped,trying to get my hand out of his grasp,but it completely failed,causing my sleeve to roll up just enough to see a trickle of blood roll down. 

 

''Prin-'' Justin's words were cut off when he noticed my blood stained arm. ''W-What's this?'' He asked after a moments silence. 

 

''It's nothing..now please mo-'' 

 

''Tori pull up your sleeve.'' He replied,completely ignoring me. 

 

I shook my head,pulling my arm out of his grasp. 

 

He grabbed my hand and pulled up my sleeve,smearing the blood on the way. 

 

I whimpered and looked away from his eyes once they flickered on to mine.

 

His deep eyes made me feel weak and sick..it was like he was draining all the emotion and strength out of me from just one intense stare. ''You didn't-'' 

 

But before he could finish I ripped my arm out of his and walked away from him,I didn't want  to look at him..I felt disgusted in myself for what I did,and partly because the way Justin looked at me after he saw new cuts on my wrists.

 

I walked away from him,but found myself turn weak,my legs collapsed and failed to keep up my body,I felt dizzy and light headed,I fell to the floor,tears rolling down my cheeks. 

 

Justin rushed over and pulled me into his lap as I began to cry,he kissed my forehead and pulled me close. ''Babe,what have you done?'' He asked. ''You can't do this to yourself..it's hurting me too.'' He whispered.

 

 

I wanted nothing more than to push Justin away but I just couldn't..I needed someone right now and he was the only person here. 

 

''You can't leave me Tori...not now,not ever...I need you as much as you need me.'' Justin whispered,a single tear sliding down his cheek and onto my arm. 

 

I bit the inside of my cheek. ''I don't need you.'' I whispered back.

 

''Baby don't..you don't mean that.'' Justin replied,shaking his head frantically.

 

I hugged Justin tighter. ''You're right..who the fuck am I kidding..I-I need you the most.'' I whimpered. ''I'm sorry for trying to break up with you,it's just m-my mind is everywhere at the moment,I don't know what to feel or do.'' I replied.

 

''Babe I understand,this whole thing has been an eye opener for both of us..and I'm sorry for what I did,I feel physically sick thinking about you hurting yourself and I'm over the other side of town not being able to do anything about it..I'm so sorry.''

 

''It's not your fault..they took you randomly and we both didn't know what was going to happen,how did you find me?'' I asked. 

 

''Taylor text me and said she had a good day with you,I asked her where you were and she said here...so I came straight here and realised you wouldn't be in,but you literally just walked through the door as I was going to go out and find you.'' Justin muttered,placing a small kiss on my forehead afterwards. ''I promise you I'll never leave you again.'' He whispered. 

 

 

''Pinky promise?'' 

 

''Of course.'' He smiled. ''Heeey...to make up for everything let me take you out on a date...it's going to be perfect okay? just like you.'' 

 

''Justin is it a surprise date?'' 

 

''Yup.'' 

 

''Fuck,you know I hate surprises.'' 

 

''Babe trust me,when you see what I have planned...you'll be so thankful.'' He smirked before he got up and walked into the bathroom. 

 

 

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Oh wow what does Justin have in store...

 

well they nearly took a break from eachother. 

 

EXPECT THE WHOLE JAIL SCENARIO TO TURN OUT LIKE THIS OR NO?

 

HAPPY IT DID OR NO?

 

WHERE WILL JUSTIN TAKE HER?

 

AND WILL THERE BE ANY VISITORS ON THE WAY?

 

Stay beautiful<3

 

Peace,love and rubber gloves<3

 

 

 

 

 

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