Finding My Soul Mate. A 1DFanfic.

13 year old Lucy hates her life. Her older sister, Amy doesn't have a care in the world about her and her dad is a work-aholic. Without a mum in her life she has nothing better to do than run away from home, making a soul mate along her travels, Niall Horan from One Direction.

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22. I hate myself.

The car ride 'home' consisted of my crying on El's shoulder while her mum sung to the radio. Once we arrived, I dragged my horrible, stripy suitcase up to the front door. Debby (Eloise's mum) unlocked the brown, wooden door stood in front of me and took the suitcase out of my hands. "Thanks auntie Deb's" I smiled. I know she isn't my auntie but it feels like she should be! She and my mum were very close before, which is how me and Eloise are such good friends. "Eloise, why don't you take Lucy upstairs to unpack? Dinner will be ready in a couple of hours" Debby smiled. Eloise nodded and grabbed my wrist, pulling me along. 

 

"I'll be right back Luc, I forgot my guitar" With that she shot out of the room leaving me alone. I walked over to the body length mirror and looked at my appearance, it wasn't pretty. My eye-liner and mascara was streaming, black line down my cheeks and my light eye shadow was totally gone. Not just that, I had wet patched on the bottom of my shirt and top of my jeans. It actually frustrates me how much I've cried! "How long you been standing there?" Eloise asked, making me jump. "Not long, just looking at my horrible self" I told her. "Horrible self?" She asked, confused. "Yes, I hate myself for crying so much over nothing! He'll never like me back and I'll probably never see him again so what's the fucking use? I'm so frustrated with myself I just want to curl up in that corner over there and cry" I finished, pointing to the dark corner over by her bed. "How do you know that he'll never like you back? He could be doing exactly the same as you now, just crying and wanted you back with him" We sat down on the bed. "Arr, whatever" I sighed. 

 

 

 

After I unpacked, I laid back on the bed, still frustrated with myself. While unpacking, I cried three more times. One because Eloise played her guitar softly and sang along to whatever song popped into her head (which to my luck was Little Things). Two because I thought about all the memories I had with the lads, mostly of Niall and three because of my dad. No matter what, I still had to go home to gather my school stuff and everything else of mine. I'd already told El about my dad trying to make me move with him and Amy. At the end of it all, I might have to move because I have no where to go. "GIRLS.. DINNERS READY" Debby shouted from downstairs. I got up and pulled my hair out of its messy bun. I combed through it and left it to fall past my shoulders. 

 

"Something smells yummy!" I clapped walking into the kitchen. "I went to the trouble of getting Nandos, just for you!" Don't cry Lucy! Don't cry! It may be Niall's favorite food and you are thinking of him, but that's no reason to cry. I gulped. "Thanks auntie Debs but you didn't have to" I smiled, sitting down. "No trouble for my favorite niece" She laughed. 

 

"That was the best food I've had in ages!" I yelled, smiling widely. "Thank you?" She laughed. "Yeah, it's a good thing, thank you" I laughed.

 

For the rest of the day, me and Eloise sat in her room, laughing, talking, singing and acting around. She really knows how to cheer me up! 

We retired to bed at around 2:30 am. Of course, being the stupid, pathetic girl I am, I cried myself to sleep.

 

Forgetting Niall and the lads is going to be so hard!

 

 

 

 

 

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Sorry it's short and I know it's rubbish but that's all I've got. I can't update tomorrow because I'm babysitting and I can't over the weekend because I'm spending it with my mum. The good thing is, I'm on summer break starting tomorrow for six weeks! So, I'll be able to update loads during that time. 

Thanks for reading! I love all the comments, keep 'em coming?! :) Love you all ~Lucy xx

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