It all started with a smile

What happens when you meet a guy that makes you smile? What happens when you fall in love with that guy that you know will never love you back? What happens when you build your walls up so high that you don't see what's really going on? What happens when he tries to remove the wall, brick by brick? Will you push him away? Will you break his heart? Or...Will you let him show you what love really is? Find out in "It all started with a smile"


10. Just my luck

As I walked to my new job I felt nervous. I mean this wasn't my first time having a job. It was far from that. I always had a job, always. You have to learn to live on your own, and that's just what I did. And then I got fond of Connor and I needed him.. I was depended on someone else and I hated that! I hated feeling so week without him, before him I kept everything inside, I didn't open up, no one knew how I felt, no one knew my pain. And then Connor.... I wiped my teary eyes and walked into Starbucks. I walked over to the cashier and said

"Hello, I'm Tamara, Mike Skinner called me yesterday and told me to come here because I'm accepted for the job" the young girl, probably my age nodded and just pointed at the back. Wow, isn't she friendly.

I walked behind the desk and into the room she pointed and saw some middle aged guy, that was probably Mike, and he was reading some papers at one of the desks. I looked around the kitchen, it looked really clean for  a Starbucks. 

"Good day" I said nervously and he turned around with a huge smile on his face.

"Oh hello.. You must be Tamara?" he asked and got up, when he was near me he extended his hand

"Yes, nice to meet you sir" I said and shook hands with him.

"Call me Mike, we aren't exactly any big company so yeah, we usually use first name to refer to eachother, welcome to our family" he said and then my work started.

He showed me around the shop, told me what to do, it mostly consisted of me cleaning the tables and sometimes working as a cashier.

I was just cleaning one table, when that "friendly" cashier girl called me

"Tamara!" my head snapped up and she gestured me to come to her. I rushed to her side and she said

"My shift is over, so work as a cashier until Rose comes" she said simply. She wasn't actually a talker, and I appreciated that. I am like that too. Well not like her, but yeah. I nodded and she swiftly exited the shop.

I was cleaning up the cash register and that's when I looked up and saw those beautiful eyes that always appeared in my dream.

There were the most beautiful shade of green.

"Hi Tam Tam" he said, with his beautiful voice that I missed so much

"Hello, can I take your order" I said formally and I saw his face drop.

"Mmm one large Frappuccino and a chocolate cookie" he said, I could tell by his voice that his whole mood changed. I nodded and turned around to the Frappuccino machine (bear with me because I never been to a coffee shop xD We don't have them here so yeah, I hope there are machines for that xD) 

"Tamara, h-h-how are you?" he asked and I, without turning around, answered hi

"I'm okay" I couldn't ask him how he was. Yes, I cared to know, but.... I couldn't bring myself to have a casual conversation with him. I just couldn't.

"You sure?" he asked. I turned, annoyance written on my face

"I'm fine! What don't you get about that?" I asked, his eyes widened, this was the first time he heard me yell, and saw me so annoyed. He lowered his gaze and kept quiet. I handed him his drink and cookie just when Mike exited the room behind, that room was like the hanging area, the area where employees hang out.

"Why did you yell at him Tamara?"  Mike asked, obviously concerned, you would have thought that he was concerned about loosing a customer but he wasn't. He was concerned about me and that's why I most definitely will stay to work her, even though I might see the boy I love a lot.

"It was nothing Mike, just a friend of mine" I said and looked up. I caught Connor looking at me and then he lowered his head again, texting on his phone. Probably that girl he had a date with.

Connor's POV

Why is she like that? Why does she push me away like I don't have feelings at all. Does she know how much it hurts me to see her being annoyed with me? Does she know how much I want to talk to her and hear about her day? Why am I so into this girl, why do I want her as my friend so much!? Why? 

Maybe because she was special, she was different from every other girl I met. She listened, she was funny, she was caring, she was lovable, she was friendly. I just. I guess I want her as my friend so badly, I just want her close, is it too much to ask for?

I went on a date with this annoying girl yesterday, it was horrible. I wanted to forget about Tamara, and forget about everything that has to do with her. But that girl, just made me miss talking to Tamara even more. She was nothing like her, she was annoying, she was clingy I mean she went in for a kiss after 15 minutes of the date! I definitely didn't want to kiss her, and I practically pushed her away. She looked shocked for a minute, but then she said "Whenever you're ready I'm here". She even wanted to hold hands with me, after I tried my best to show her I don't want anything to do with her. The date made me realize that girls like Tam Tam are really hard to find.

How will I survive moving out and not seeing her when I barely get through my day without her.. Without seeing her. Without... talking to her. I know she's not replying  honestly, I know she's not okay but I just want to talk to her. And I will! I will make her talk to me honestly again. I just have to, or I'll go nuts because of this girl.

She drives me so nuts, with her stubborn attitude towards me, with her perfect white smile, with her way of talking, the way she looks at me, the way she bites her lovely lips, she's even drivng me nuts with her perfect rose colored lips... Yes I occasionally stared at her lips, but that doesn't make me creepy! I'm not creepy. Okay, maybe I am. Maybe I do fantasize about my lips on her lips sometimes, I guess she's just kissable. I don't like her that way.... Or do I? No, it can't be. I don't like Tamara. I don't. I can't.

I updated! I will probably update more often than before. Sorry about my grammar! :) I'll update this chapter tomorrow or maybe today after school :) But yeah, thanks everyone for reading and having the patience. Sorry I haven't noticed your comments telling me to update! :) Thanks for reading! xx

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