It all started with a smile

What happens when you meet a guy that makes you smile? What happens when you fall in love with that guy that you know will never love you back? What happens when you build your walls up so high that you don't see what's really going on? What happens when he tries to remove the wall, brick by brick? Will you push him away? Will you break his heart? Or...Will you let him show you what love really is? Find out in "It all started with a smile"


15. Friends....

Tammy's POV

Why did I agree to be just friends? Maybe because I want to be by his side, even only as a friend. I guess I honestly need him. I do. And he looked like he needed me too, but it was probably just my imagination.

When he hugged me I could have sworn I felt something, well besides those huge butterflies in my stomach. I felt... hope. Hope that he will one day love me as much as I love him, in that moment it felt like it.

It felt like he felt the same way I do. I know i'm stupid that I believe that he does like me, but the way his arms wrapped around me tightly and the way he held onto me, even when his girlfriend came.

She was a wake up call. He has a girlfriend, so he doesn't like me. Realization hit me like a ton of bricks, as I pushed him away. I tried to not show my emotions, so I kept my blank expression the whole time since then. They way she walked over to us and wanted to shake hands with me, well I thought she could be nice, but the way she squeezed my hand a little too tight, made me think just the opposite.

I think she wanted to show me that he's her's... Like I didn't knew that. I fake smiled a lot today, with Connor and even with customers, I really missed that feeling of smiling for real. I really missed Connor making me smile. He was the only one that knew how. Then he introduced me to Ricky and JC and those two knew how to make me smile, and Rose knows too. But no one can make me smile like Connor can.

I walked over to the lounge room of Starbucks (the one for employees only) and I touched my cheek gently with the tip of my fingers.

I could still feel his lips on it. I can't believe how much I blushed after he did that. I just can't believe he actually did that.. And I honestly can't believe the way he makes me feel with the little things that he does... First the hug then the kiss on the cheek, hell, he'll be the death of me. But I'll die happily...

Connor's POV

I walked with Tori, or whatever her name is, I have no interest in remembering it. When she told Tammy her name I actually didn't even pay attention, I only stared at Tammy, trying to know every single part of her face by heart. And I succeeded. 

I should end this "relationship" I really should, but this was the first time to ever break up with a girl, I have no idea how to end this.. Maybe I could be with her for some time more, until I figure out how to break up, I don't want to hurt any girl. Even the annoying, clingy one's. I wish Tamara was clingy. I wish she wants to hold my hand, and talk to me all the time, but I feel clingy. I really do. 

I mean I'm going through all this effort to make her talk to me and want to hang out with me, but it seems like she doesn't want to. I guess I should have given her more space, but today, when I saw her, I just couldn't.

The distance hurt too much, and the closeness felt so good.

Before I knew what was going on, we stopped... And Tiffany slammed her lips against mine. Does this girl really think this is kissing. I pushed her away for the second time now and said

"Sorry" she looked confused and angry and she tilted her head to one side as she released my hand.

"Are you gay or something?" she asked, being obviously annoyed too.

"Are you a fish or something, because you kiss like one" I snapped. I have no idea what gotten into me but she annoyed me, like really annoyed me now. How does she think it's okay to kiss me?? 

Oh yeah, she thinks i'm her boyfriend... But she told me that I should kiss her next time, not the other way around, I guess she is fed up with waiting. Why is kissing so fucking important to her.

She slammed her leg against the floor and shouted

"I don't! Everyone says I'm good at kissing, you just like that annoying girl Tamera" My eyes widened and I honesty felt like steam was coming out of my ears, why does she have to bring Tamara out into this conversation, and where did she get the right to call HER annoying.

"It's Tamara, and she's not the annoying one here, and by the way I guess they are good liars since you believe what they say... and I don't like Tamara, and even if I did, that's not your problem" I said annoyed. 

Tracy looked at me, her expression shifting from angry, to annoyed, to...... well I couldn't recognize that expression, but she seemed kinda happy.

"Listen, babe. I don't want to fight, it's been a long day, we'll talk tomorrow and everything will be fine. Bye" she said and kissed my cheek with her slimy lips. 

I stood there confused at her shift of emotions, what just happened?

I didn't want to think about it even, I only wanted to rush home and get ready to take Tammy out.

I rubbed my cheek, trying to get rid of the feeling of her horrible lips on  my cheek. I still couldn't believe how she kissed me, I didn't feel absolutely anything, and most certainty I wasn't going to kiss back.

After my long run towards my dorm, I finally arrived. I changed into my favorite jeans, a hoodie and I placed a beanie over my head and I put on my favorite scarf. I examined myself in the mirror, hopping I looked good in those clothes. I want Tammy to see me as a potential boyfriend, I want her to want me the way I want her.

Tammy's POV

"Tammy, darling!" Rose shouted as she entered the shop. She arrived early to start her shift? Why?

I walked over to her and she had two bags in her hands

"Why are you so early?" I asked and kissed her cheek before we walked over to the lounge because there weren't any customers inside, and that friendly girl would call us if some arrived.

"Because of your date of course, I wanted to make sure you have time to change and stuff" she said as we sat on the couch, she placed the bags on her lap, and the way she smiled showed me there was something more.

"It's not a date Rose, and thanks a lot actually. I don't want to go sweaty and stinky to dinner" I said and tilted my head as I looked at the bags

"You went shopping before work?" I asked and her smile grew

"Actually these bags are for you" I shook my head and said

"No, I don't want you to spend so much money on me"

"Listen this is what friends do, so get used to it".. she said and handed me the bags. 

Well.... I have no idea what having a female friend is like, so I guess maybe giving gifts is what friends do. I wouldn't know.

I opened the bag and saw some beautiful tights, a shirt, some boots, gloves and a beanie. and... I looked at Rose and said

"Seriously? Leather jacket? It's too much Rose!" she shook her head, with that goofy smile still on her face.

"Remember when I told you about my parents working at this huge business building, well they work at Apple babe, so I am loaded, and just think of it as an early birthday present" she sai and patted my head before getting up

"Bu-" I wanted to protest but she cut me off

"No, buts, just get dressed I'll make your hair when you do, love ya Tammy" she said and rushed out before I could say anything. I changed into the clothes, they fitted me like a glove, well I guess she was right when she said she has a good eye in fashion and in general, she got my size perfectly.

I still felt guilty about her spending so much money on me, I guess I'll just pay her back or do something for her back. She truly is an amazing friend.

She even made my hair, just two braids and they are attached at the back of my head, it looked really good on me, because I have wavy hair, so it falls perfectly now. Now, only wait for Connor :)

So, this chapter is long, well I hope. I'll update tomorrow again ;) And I just want to say thank you to that girl that always reads them ;) I feel like you're the only one that does actually ;) PS. This is her outfit, I made it :) 


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