It all started with a smile

What happens when you meet a guy that makes you smile? What happens when you fall in love with that guy that you know will never love you back? What happens when you build your walls up so high that you don't see what's really going on? What happens when he tries to remove the wall, brick by brick? Will you push him away? Will you break his heart? Or...Will you let him show you what love really is? Find out in "It all started with a smile"


16. Dinner with YouTubers :)

Tammy's POV

"Don't be so nervous, love" Rose told me for the millionth time today. I bit my lip and sighed in frustration. Why was I so nervous? It's not like it's the first time going out with Connor.

"I know, I know, I can't help it" I said as Rose cleaned the table.

"Listen, Tammy, baby. There's nothing to worry about. You're funny, fun, kind. He won't think the opposite, just be yourself and everything will be fine" she said as we walked over to the counter.

"Easy for you to say, you're not going out with three youtubers" I said as she placed more napkins in the napkin holder.

"Must I remind you that two of the all already your friend" ok, she was right. Nothing to worry about Ricky is my friend, well I hope so. Connor is, well I don't know what he is to me anymore, I hope friend, at least. And I'll meet Kian and he seems nice from his videos on YouTube.

"They arrived" She said and pointed towards the door. I turned around and saw, three, hot, boys waiting for ME, outside. They all waved and smiled, but I only looked at Connor, I only saw him. He looked absolutely stunning and I couldn't help but examine him. He looked absolutely perfect, and that's an understatement. 

"Tammy, don't stare" Rose whispered under her breath and I quickly turned around to her.

"Thanks" I said and hugged her over the counter

"Ask around about Taylor" she whispered and pulled away

"Go get em" she said and winked at me.

Connor's POV

Wow, Tammy was. Well she was. Wow.

There are no words in the world to describe her, the way her hair was perfect, the way those clothes looked on her, I was absolutely speechless. For the first time in my life..


I couldn't help myself from examining her whole body, from head to toe, and then she turned around, waving back at us and smiling. Wow.

She kept her gaze on me for a little while, well it seemed like a second because everything that's good never lasts. She had this look on her face, that gave me hope, but I didn't want to give myself false hope, so I just shook that thought out of my head.

"She's beautiful Connor" Kian said "You were right" 

Yes, I talked about Tamara with them, call me hopelessly in love with her, but I'm not.

Kian and Ricky told me that this feeling was love. But it couldn't be... I'm not in love with Tamara. How could I fall in love with her so easily and quickly? Impossible.

As she walked over to us, it got more and more possible. Was this feeling of always wanting her happy, and always wanting to be the reason, love?

I guess no one knew the answer, but me. I just didn’t want to think about it, because it will be hopeless. Even if I love her, she will never ever love me back. And that’s the fact that I have to get inside my head.

She stopped in front of us and before I could do anything Ricky skipped closer to her and hugged her tight, lifting her off the floor and slightly spinning her around

“Tammyyyy” he said happily, being him happy self, and I couldn’t stop feeling jealous. I know I shouldn’t be. He’s my best friend, he wouldn’t try doing anything with her, but still the jealousy was there, even when Kian hugged for a second, and then she turned to me. I could see she didn’t know what to do, so she waved.

I waved back and without thinking pulled her into me. I snuggled my head into the crook of her neck and wrapped my arms tightly arround her. Wow, here come those violins again, I swear they follow me around and play whenever I touch Tamara.

She wrapped her hands around me and I took everything in, her scent, her warmth, the way she fit perfectly into my arms.

Kian cleared his throat, and then Ricky and Kian laughed. They were making fun of my need to want her in my arms forever. I pulled away and smiled at her

“Where do you wanna go?” I asked and looked at Ricky and Kian, giving them the death glare, they deserved it.

Tammy’s POV

Wow, that hug. Wow.

I missed the hug, I missed his arms around me and I wanted to stay like that forever. In his arms, feeling his warmth, and his cologne filling up my lungs. Wow.

For a split second I thought he felt the same way about it, but that was so stupid. Why would he feel those butterflies and fireworks.

“I feel like going bowling, how about you guys?” Ricky asked and smiled at me and then at Connor and Kian. I bit my lip nervously as Connor only watched me

“I never been bowling” I admited and looked down, ashamed. I never had friends to hang out with, Connor knew that. I think I told him a couple of times. There was never a time where I sat with him and told him EVERYTHING. I told him bit by bit. Why was I so stupid and opened up to someone.

“Even better” Connor said, finally tearing his gaze from me to Ricky, he placed an arm around me, a nice friendly gesture and said

“We’ll teach you”

“I might suck” I said as we started walking towards the bowling alley. I was in between Ricky and Connor and Kian was next to Ricky.

“Even better, that just means you won’t beat me and Ricky” Kian said and stuck his tongue out.

“We already made teams?” I asked, surprised.

“Yes, Ricky and I always play together, and you and Connor will play together” Kian answered.

“Sorry for that Connor, I will definitely suck” I said

Connor’s POV

Ricky! Remove the hand. Remove the hand. Remove the fucking hand.

I know I was making a big deal out of this, but he still had it around Tammy, I know it is a friendly gesture, but still. It made me so jealous, hell, if Tamara gets a boyfriend… I don’t even want to think about that.

I’ve been staring at Tammy when we were talking where to go, I mean I couldn’t look away from her, I just couldn’t. She was stunning, and she…. Will never be mine. And THEN Ricky had to put an arm around her. I know I’m being stupid, Ricky would never try anything with Tammy, he’s too good of a friend, but still.

And it was still around her while we were walking. I couldn’t even look at them anymore.I guess it’s a good thing she’s in my team. And not Ricky’s.

“You won’t suck, it’s impossible that you will suck at something, we’ll do fine” I said without looking. I knew she didn’t have friends before, she told me a couple of times. I liked getting to know her, bit by bit. But I always wanted more, I wanted her to sit me down and tell me from the beginning and maybe at the end say she loves me.

Fuck, Connor, stop giving yourself false hope…

I glanced at those two. That looked like a couple and saw Ricky looking up at me, his eyes had a hint of realization before he pulled his arm away from Tammy. I smiled like an idiot when he did that. I felt so much better. And then I saw Ricky mouth to me


I bit my lip and nodded

“It’s not like I’ll place my hand around her” I mouthed behind Tammy’s back.

“What are you two doing?” she asked with her angelic voice

“Nothing” Ricky and I said in unison and then Ricky mouthed

“But you should” I shook my head and sighed… Never. I’ll never have my arm around Tammy’s not even like a friendly gesture. I can’t do that to myself. If I do that I know I will get more feelings towards her and I don’t want that. I don’t want to love her more than I do now.

Woww, I love her… No! I don’t. It can’t be! I just can't be in love with a person that will never be mine. I can’t.

I'll continue later today, this was the first part of their night out. The second part I'll update, either today or tomorrow ;) Thanks for reading, and sorry for waiting. They shut down the internet in my place, they were making it better so they had to, for two days :( But i'm back :)

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