Not To Deep.

"I'm no one. I'm worthless." I said as I pulled out the sharp blade."You can't do anything right.Everyone hates you." I cried.I faced the blade towards me,showing my reflection."Ugly whore,just pitiful." I said mimicking the words of others.
I know who I am and I know who I'm not,I guess I just listen to what others think of me.
A strike of pain shook through my body.I let out a silent scream of both pain and pleasure.
"Remember.." I thought. "Not Too Deep."


4. Not like that.

Louis' POV

I felt like crying..No I felt like fighting..But not Alexa and not Harry.I just wanted to punch something.

Zayn has a punching bag downstairs-No.I can't... 

I walked over to Zayn.He looked a little upset but it was cured with a slice of pizza.

"Whats going on up there?" He asked,Munching on a fresh slice of pizza.

I wanted to tell him.I wanted to blow up their spots."Why don't you-"  What am I doing?! They're my best friends!

"Why don't I what,Lou?" He looked confused.I sighed.I was about to open my mouth when I heard banging on the stairs.I looked over.Alexa and Harry.

"Uh hey guys!" Zayn said,"What took so long?" He said folding his arms.Alexa's eyes widened.

"Well I put the laundry away and then Harry came upstairs and we were talking..I guess."

I shook my head,"Is that all you did?" I said.Alexa looked at me innocently.

"Yeah,Louis,That is all we did.Is there something you want to say?" She folded her arms.

" Nope..Nothing." I sighed in anger."I'm going to the liquor store.Be back later.."  I went to walk to the door but a bony hand grabbed my wrist.

I looked back at Alexa,she looked upset."Why are you leaving,Lou?" I was still angry and her touching me,after what she was doing with harry,only made me angrier. 

"It's none of your god damn business.Now get off of me." I pushed her off of me,making her wobble back.She looked as if she just saw a ghost,Terrified.

I wanted to apologize but all I could say before I left was,"Don't talk to me anymore..."


Alexa's POV

After Louis left I ran to my room."Hey Alexa!What are yo-" Is all I heard before ran up the tiled stairs and to my room,slamming and locking the door.

Look at what you did,Alexa.The love of you're life hates you.

I went into my bathroom and locked the door.I couldn't hold in my tears anymore.I sat on the cold toilet seat and cried my heart out.I felt like someone took my heart and smashed it over there knee like a flimsy twig.

I couldn't even stand anymore,I just fell to the floor.

He hates you Alexa.He never ever wants to speak to you ever again.He probably wouldn't even give a shit if you died.

He would't.He probably wouldn't even think about it.Brush it off like dirt on his shoulder. I sniffled and looked around.

 I need It....

I thought.

I need my blade.

I searched around for my pink bag.It was full with makeup,but also with the only thing that helps me,or makes me forget..

I looked under the sink in the cabinet.I threw toilet paper, toiletries,Perfume bottles until I found it.

I unzipped the bag and emptied it out like a child on Christmas morning.I heard a cling f metal hit the floor.I smiled and grabbed it.I sat on the toilet seat and shakily put the blade to my skin.

I dragged it across my wrist with no hesitation.I let out a silent scream with a smile spread across my lips.

I looked down at the line of blood,dripping down to wood floor.


I thought.

Not To Deep..


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