Not To Deep.

"I'm no one. I'm worthless." I said as I pulled out the sharp blade."You can't do anything right.Everyone hates you." I cried.I faced the blade towards me,showing my reflection."Ugly whore,just pitiful." I said mimicking the words of others.
I know who I am and I know who I'm not,I guess I just listen to what others think of me.
A strike of pain shook through my body.I let out a silent scream of both pain and pleasure.
"Remember.." I thought. "Not Too Deep."


10. New Feelings?

Harry's POV

I sat at the kitchen table and watched her go to the fridge.

"Hungry?" She asked. I nodded."What for,Love?" She smiled.I sighed and thought.

"How about we eat some Mac n' Cheese?" She nodded and got the pots out.

"If you want you can go up stairs and pop in a movie.I'm thinking about calling the boys in a minute,anyway." I nodded and walked upstairs to her bedroom.

Her bed room was nice and quiet.The walls we're painted a nice creme color with cold hard wood floors.It was a really big room.I spent most of my childhood here,Mostly in Zayn's room because Alexa didn't want us to come in.She was a quiet little girl,but always had a smile.

I went over to her bed and looked under her bed,searching for her box of movies.I felt around and found a bag.I dragged it out and read,"Victoria's Secret?" I smiled."Oh Alexa..." I said with a sigh.

I looked in the bag and pulled out A leopard print bra and panties.I felt my face get hot."What does she need these for?" I whispered.I threw them back in the bag.

I searched further and found more under wear.

I pulled out a bathing suit.It was leopard print with a big bow on the top.It was probably the most showing clothing Alexa has.

"Find anything you liked?" I jumped and threw it all back in the bag.

I looked behind me and saw Alexa holding two bowls of mac n cheese.I cleared my throat.

"Haha..The bag-it just-ya know..." She smiled and handed me my bowl.

"Your blushing love." She said.I hung my head.

"I'm sorry..I was looking for the movies and then I saw the bag..."

She smiled."Its ok...I have no idea why I bought them anyway.I mean,what do I need them for anyway?No ones gonna see me in them anyway." 

I nodded."No one should see you in them anyway!Who needs to see you in a thong?" 

She shrugged."I bought them because...I thought Louis would like them..."

I sighed."I'm sorry babe..." I looked down and then back up."Wait.." She looked at me waiting for me to go on."Did you have sex?" 

She bit her lip.I groaned and then ruffled my fingers through my curls."Why!Alexa you're only 16!"

"So what!He told me he loved me and I told him I loved him back!"

"And who's he with now,Alex,Who!?" She stared at me like she saw a ghost.I saw a tear roll down her cheek.She covered her face and started to cry.

"I'm such a fucking idiot!" She screamed."How could I possibly fall for it!"

"You're not a idiot,Alexa. Louis was probably just lonely in the moment.Believe me,He can be a dick sometimes." I hugged her and stroked her hair.

"Don't cry.I'm sorry he used you..."

She laid her head on my shoulder.I felt her warm breath on my neck,it sent shivers down my spine.She wrapped her legs around my waist.

"You know I love you,Alexa." I said softly.She looked up and looked straight into my eyes.

"I love you too.." She said with a smile.

Why do I feel like this?Why do I always get this way around her?Like I always want to hold her and touch her and be around her?

"Well we should probably eat our food...Its probably ice cold by now." She said with a chuckle. She climbed off of me and grabbed her bowl.I took a deep breath and shook off those feelings.

I took a spoon full of the macaroni."Why were you looking through my underwear anyway?"Alexa said.

I felt my heart jump."Umm..I don't know,I just wanted to know what you got is all." 

I saw her nod."Did you like what I got?" I blushed.

"W-what..?" I stuttered.

"You know what I mean." I felt my heart beat faster and faster.

"I guess..I mean...I.."

She started to laugh."I'm just messing with you Haz!

I gulped hard and laughed along."Haha..Yeah.."

There was a bit of silence until I broke it."Hey,I saw you had a bathing suit.How about we go out back after were done and go swimming?" 

She smiled,"Sure!"

I smiled at her.She had the best smile.

(A/N How'd you like my chapter guys :D I know i haven't written in forever but I haven't been able to concentrate on writing because of vacation and stuff.ANYWAY I wonder what will happen next ;;;;D Leave some comments below c: I love you guys.xx)

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