I Just Want to be Loved *Completed*

When Brittany's mum get's remarried, she got a surprises when she finds out who her new step brothers are. When she starts living with one of them and his friends, and starts 'dating' one of them, she starts to question herself. Was her life to complicated? What's going to happen when her past catches up with her? Will Louis ever tell her his secret? Are one of the boys going to fall for her? What will Liam do when she becomes known as 'Mummy Direction'? And most importantly, will the boys be understanding about her past and help her in the future?


68. The Other Emotion

“I don’t want to do this,” I said to Mason as we sat in his car in front of the boys’ house.

“You need to,” he informed me.

“I can’t. I’ve been away for to long. They’re probably fine without me. Just take me back to your house.”

“It has only been two weeks.”

“What if I hurt one of them?”

“You are not going to.”

“You can’t promise me that.”

“You have practiced on other people and you did not hurt them and you did not even know them.”

“But I just know I’m going to hurt one of them.”

“Stop being so negative.”

“It’s true,” I yelled. “I killed Meghan,” I said and I felt tears come to my eyes. “Liam’s just going to ask where she’s been and I don’t even know if I’m going to be able to tell him.”

“You talked with her parents, remember? You convinced them that she ran away and I left a credit trail.”

“I know,” I muttered.

And you talked with her parents about what you’re telling Liam.”

“It’s just, he’s like family. I don’t know if I’ll be able to lie to him.”

“Just try and believe it yourself.”


“Are you ready to go in?” he asked and I nodded.

“Will you just stay out here for a few minutes in case I need you?”

“Of course I will.”

“Thank you,” I said and I took a deep breath, grabbed all my stuff, and exited the car.

I walked up to the door and unlocked it with my key. When I walked in, all the boys were in the living room and they were staring at me.

“Brittany!” Niall screamed and jumped over the couch and ran towards me and pulled me into a hug. I immediately stiffed and felt my fangs come out at him being so close.

“Where have you been?” Liam asked and pulled me from Niall and hugged me.

All the boys were around me and I felt the overwealing urge to feed.

“I-umm-I’ve been-umm,” I stuttered, “I’ve got to go.” The boys stared at me in shock as I dropped my stuff and ran out of the house and into Masons car.

“Drive,” I told him and he shook his head. “Drive,” I said again but he didn’t move. “Please?”

“No. You need to go in there and face your fears.”

“I’m going to feed from one of them, I know it.”

“Do you know who you are going to tell?”


“Okay, so walk in there, grab Harry’s arm and pull him upstairs. Ignore everyone else and just tell him.”

“What if I hurt him?”

“You shan't.”

“But what if I do?”

“Then we shall figure something out.”

I took a deep breath and I felt my fangs disappear and stepped out of the car and walked around to Masons side.

“You’re coming in with me.”


“Just for a little bit. Then you can leave and we can never see each other again.”

“Okay,” he replied and got out of the car. I locked my arm with his and pulled him inside.

The boys were all still standing by the door and were in complete and total shock when I walked in with a guy. I felt my fangs come back out.

“Brittany, who’s this?” Zayn asked and Louis looked immensely hurt.

I didn’t answer. I just pulled Mason away from the door and up the stairs and into Louis and I’s room.

“I can’t do it,” I told him as I started to cry. “I just want to kill them.”

“But you will not,” Mason said and pulled me into a hug.

“But I want to. I feel like I need to and I know I won’t be able to live with myself if I hurt any of them.”

“Then do not hurt any of them.”

I pulled back from the hug. “How do I do that?”

“Just imagine how you felt when you looked at Meghan dead body,” Mason said and I pushed him away  from me.

“Don’t talk about her,” I said and tears started flowing down my face. “Don’t ever talk about her!”

“Just think about Meghan when you feed and you shan’t hurt any of your friends,” he said softly and I immediately thought of Meghan. A chunk missing from her neck and her bed covered in her blood. Just the thought that I did that to her broke me and I fell to the ground sobbing.

“You killed me,” I heard Meghan say.

I shook my head. “I don’t want to think about that. Please, you said that these emotions would stop!” I screamed and I held my head in between my hands.

“Oh my god,” Mason whispered and it seemed like he had just realized something. “Oh my god. Brittany, I am so sorry.”

“You were a vampire and killed me.” “Stop!” I screamed.

“Brittany, I should not have changed you,” Mason said as he crouched down by me, trying to move my hands from my face. “I know what your special emotion is. Pain and loss. Brittany, I am so sorry.”

“You viciously ripped my throat out and severed my jugular.”

“Stop!” I screamed again and I heard several pairs of footsteps running up the stairs. I saw an image of Meghan walking towards me. She was covered in blood. “Get away from me!

“Brittany!” Louis screamed and all five of the boys ran into the room.

Niall ripped Mason away from me and shoved him up against a wall.

“What the fuck did you do to her!” he yelled and Mason had teary eyes and he looked at me.

“Brittany, I am so sorry. I did not know that this is what would happen to you.”

The image of Meghan stayed where is was. “You didn’t even give me a funeral.”

I’m sorry,” I whispered.

“It’s okay Brittany,” Louis said and pulled me into a hug.

“You just had some random vampire get rid of my body.”

“Make it stop!” I screamed and looked at Mason. “Please, just make it all stop.”

“There is only one way,” he told me from the wall were Niall was holding him. “I am so sorry.”

“Leave.” I told him and Mason nodded. He put up his hands in surrender and Niall let go of him.

“Make sure you tell one of them,” he told me and I didn’t show any sign of response, he just walked out of the room, down the stairs and out the door.

We sat in silence for a few minutes. The image of Meghan disappeared.

“Who the fuck was that?”  Harry said, breaking the silence.

“That was Mason,” I replied quietly.

“Have you been with him for the past two weeks?” Liam asked and I nodded.

“What did he do to you?” Zayn questioned and I shook my head.

“Nothing,” I whispered.

“He did something. You seem different,” Niall said.

“What was it?” Louis asked and I shook my head.

“He did nothing. He gave me a place to stay and was nice to me. That’s it.”

“So he didn’t, yeah know. Umm, you two didn’t, umm” Harry said awkwardly and I shook my head again.

“No, it wasn’t like that at all.”

“Are you okay though?” Zayn asked and I nodded.

“Do you need to go to the doctor?”

“No, I’m fine. Can I just be alone for a little bit?” I asked and the boys nodded and walked out of the room. “Harry,” I called and he walked back into the room.

“Yeah, Britt?”

“Can I talk to you?”

“Of course,” he replied and sat down on the floor next to me. “What is it.”

“I need to tell you something.”


“What Mason did to me.”

Harry jumped up. “I’m getting the rest of the boys,” he said and I grabbed his arm and pulled him towards me.

“No, don’t, I only want to tell you.”


“I don’t want the others to know.”

“Why?” he asked again and I patted the floor in front of me and he sat down.

“They won’t understand. Hell, you won’t even understand.”

“Understand what?”

“I’m just going to come out and say it, okay?”


“I’m a vampire.”

“What?” Harry asked slowly.

“I am a vampire.”

“Sure you are,” Harry said, patting my knee and starting to stand up. “Let’s get you to the doctor.”

“I’m serious,” I said and grabbed his hand and pulled him to the ground.

“No, you’re delusional,” he said, sitting back down.

“Let me prove it to you.”


“Can I feed from you?”

Harry’s eyebrows shot up.

“Can you what?”

“Feed from you.”

“And how would you do that?”

“Drink your blood.”



“Well, you’re not a vampire, so go for it.”

“Turn around,” I said and he spun in his spot and I scooted closer to him. I grabbed the collar of his shirt and tugged it to the side and exposed his shoulder. “I’m going to bite you now.”

“Be gental,” he said and immediately thought of Meghan.

When I bit into his skin, he flinched. When blood started coming into my mouth, I was in complete control.

I kept thinking about Meghans dead body and how much I didn’t want to hurt Harry, and I was able to pulled back after about thirty seconds.

Harry spun to face me with wide eyes and I wiped the blood off my mouth and I felt my fangs go back into my gums.

“Holy fucking shit,” he said in shock. “You’re a fucking vampire.”

The wound on his shoulder quickly healed as I nodded.

“I told you I was.”

“Holy shit.”

“Are you okay with this.”

“How long have you been a vampire?” he asked, still in shock.

“About two weeks.”

“And Mason is the one that turned you?”


“What’s it like being a vampire?”

“Well,” I said and I told him everything, except the thing about emotions, and about Meghan.

“So, enough about me, how about you?” I asked after talking about me being a vampire for about ten minutes. “What have you guys been up to?”

“Well, Louis is a complete and totally wreak.”


“Yeah. And I can tell that he seriously regrets it.”

“Well, the thing is, I forgive him.”


“Of course. He’s my Louis. I could never be angry at him for long.”

“Oh thank god,” Harry said, letting out a sigh of relief. “I thought you were still going to be angry at him and then it was going to be really awkward being in the house with the two of you.”

“Yeah, well, can you go and send Louis in?” I asked and Harry nodded and stood up.

“Of course, but two quick questions.”


“Am I allowed to tell anyone?”

“No,” I stated simply and he nodded.

“Okay, and do you know where Meghan disappeared to?”

“Buried in the middle of the country,” I heard Meghan say, but she didn’t appear this time.

“Umm, yeah. Her aunt is really sick and so she went to visit her. She’s really close to her aunt and went to America to live with her until she passes. She said that she didn’t want to be in contact with anyone until that happens.”

“Oh, okay, I’ll tell Liam and I’ll send Louis up,” Harry said and left the room.

A minute later, Louis walked in.

“Hey,” he said. He sounded like he was unsure if he should be in here of not.

I didn’t respond. I just stood up from the ground, walked over to Louis and through my arms around him and buried my face in his neck.

“I forgive you,” I whispered and I could hear his heart rate pick up.

My fangs didn’t come out. They stayed where they were supposed to be. The other emotion that I feel, love, was more overwhelming than my hunger.

“I love you,” he said and turned his head to kiss me.

“I love you too.”

Join MovellasFind out what all the buzz is about. Join now to start sharing your creativity and passion
Loading ...