Our Future

*If you haven't read Brother's Best Friend, you need to read it first to understand this book* You know Becca, and Justin? Jecca as you guys call it? Well, this is about there life where we left off in Brother's Best Friend. " I can see my future, She's next to me"

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55. Crying

Justin: He's in jail for life baby, he isn't going to touch you or Drew.

Becca: H-He isn't a-allowed to touch you either.

Justin: Don't worry about me baby, he won't hurt me, or any of us.

He kept running his hands through my hair.

Justin: He isn't going to hurt our family.

I buried my head in his chest and nodded.

Justin: Want me to get Drew?

Becca: Please?

Justin: Okay, i'll be right back. Don't move.

I nodded and wiped my tears so my baby wouldn't see me crying. About two minutes late Justin walked back in with a sleeping Drew. He slid into bed next to me. He handed me Drew and I brushed Drew's hair out of his face. He opened his eyes and looked at me. I smiled down at him and he looked around. I knew what he was looking for. I held up my free hand and he grabbed on to my pointer finger. He slowly drifted back to sleep. Justin wrapped his one arm around me and pulled me closer. We turned on the TV and I laid back and rested my head on Justin's chest.

Justin: I love you guys.

Becca: We love you too.

I looked up at him and he pressed his lips against mine. I smiled and looked back at the Television. I just needed sleep...that's all. So I slept.

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Drew: Mama.

I woke up and he was sitting on my stomach poking at me.

Becca: What's the matter Drew?

Drew pointed to the door.

Becca: Are you hungry?

He nodded his head.

Becca: One minute...

I closed my eyes and he started whining.

Becca: Drew, ONE SECOND.

I didn't mean to raise my voice, I was just really tired. He stopped whining. I opened my eyes and he was about to cry. He started screaming and crying.

Becca: Shh, calm down.

I sat up and tried to hug him but he pushed me away. That actually made me feel bad. He crawled on to Justin's stomach.

Becca: I can't do anything right.

I held my face in my hands. I was done with this. Everybody seems to hate me. If I get rid of myself, then Jesse would leave my family alone.

Becca: I have to.

I stood up. Drew's eyes followed me. I walked out of the room and down to the kitchen. I pulled out a pen and a piece of paper. Then I started writing.

Dear Justin & Drew,

    I'm sorry. but in the long term, it's better for all of you. I love you both unconditionally. i'm doing this to keep you safe from Jesse, i'm also doing this because lately, I cant do anything right. My own son is afraid of me. Justin, you're the best thig that's ever happened to me. You've kept me strong. You've always been here. You gave me my first beautiful child. Thank you. And I know you'd argue with me when i was still here, but please, don't feel guilty if you fall in love again, I only want the best for you. Loves you yesterday, love you still. Always have, always will. Forerver and Always Justin. Take care of Drew.

Love,

Rebecca.

I set them on the counter and went over to the drawer. My hands were shakey. I closed my eyes. Took a deep breath. I picked up the big knife that we have. I sat on the ground and stared at it for a second. Then I held it in front of me, and crashed it into my stomach. It hurt like hell. I held in my scream and watched the blood cover my hands. I closed my eyes. Waiting for the whole world to turn black and disappear. Instead, I heard little feet. When I opened my eyes, I saw my ten month old toddling toward me. His face in terror.

Drew: Mama?

I couldn't find the strength to reply. I feld the blood continue to pour out of me. I heard Drew scream. Then I heard a boom from upstairs. I heard running. Then I heard Justin.

Justin: What's the matter buddy?

I watched Justin walk over to the counter and look at the note.

Justin: We got something from mommy.

Drew kept screaming. Justin froze up.

Justin: Drew-

Drew: MAMA

He pointed at me. I looked up to see Justin running over to me. My eyes started closing.

Justin: No, you can't leave me.

He held my back and dialled 911. After his conversation with them he ran and got a towel. He held it against where I stabbed myself. He kept brushing my hair back.

Justin: No no no, you can't leave me baby. Come on stay with me.

I started to cry. I couldn't talk though.

I heard Drew screaming. He was watching his mother die.

Justin: Drew, go to the bedroom.

Drew stepped closer.

Justin: DREW DONT

Drew stopped and went the other way.

Justin: I love you baby, please, don't close your eyes.

Becca: I lo-ve you t-oo.

I couldn't keep them open any longer. They closed themselves.

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It sucks losing sombody you love. But I did this to keep them safe. Everything was black. I saw nothing. I did however, experience something quite weird. I watched myself go into surgery. I watched as my husband's eyes filled with horror and my line went flat in the middle of the surgery. I watched as he broke down and screamed. I watched as he fell to the ground. It broke my heart. But I had to. I was gone. Forever. I could never go back.

Until I opened my eyes. Until I heart my heart moniter.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

*AN Whaaat??? OOOOOOOOOOoooooooooo maybe that's the last chapter.... sorry it was short... well, you know what to do.. COMMENT!*

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