Did You forget?

My child-hood best friend left me when we were 16. One thing he didn't know was that i loved him so much. His name? Niall Horan... Left to try out for X-Factor, he called me each day, but when he got even more famous, formed a band called One Direction, he stopped calling... I cried everyday for the past years. But, I'm going to enjoy my senior year! My name's Kayla Wright. Call me the popular girl, I don't care. There's only one boy that has my heart and he probably doesn't remember me. I doubt I'm ever going to bump into him or see him in real life anymore.. Apparently there's going to be 5 new kids at school this year. Wonder who they are.


19. Bullying awareness

-Kayla's P.O.V-

February 7, 2013 and it's been 6 days since I haven't been with Niall. I'm still breaking apart. I still love him, but he's moved on. Today's the bullying awareness speech thing. I'm wearing a white and blue hi-lo dress, my hair is curled, my make up is done to my liking, I'm wearing my white heels, a cross 2-finger ring, my infinity ring and a triple bird necklace. Also some gold bracelets. the bag I'm using is my juicy couture white quilt bag.


"Please welcome our cheer captain & School President, Kayla Wright." Mr.Change announced.

I walked up to the stage and I realized all eyes on me. I looked around hoping to find Niall and Emily, but no sign of them. I frowned a little and took a deep breath. "Hi." I smiled. "My speech is suppose to be really long and boring, but I decided to make it a little more interesting because bullying is a serious thing. Raise your hand if you've been bullied." About 3/4 of the auditorium's hand was raised, including mine. "Okay, now, how many of you are still being bullied now?" About half of the 3/4 raised their hands. "Okay, now here's what I have to say to you guys... No matter what happens, what you hear, what people tell you, be strong because the bullies out there are just trying to make themselves feel better. I know that right now it may seem like your life will be like this forever, but trust me, it's not going to be because you need to keep your head high. When your bullies realize that they're not going to break you, they'll stop and face the fact that you're stronger that they are. No one deserves to be bullied, no matter what they've done or what they didn't do." They all clapped and I smiled.

"Imagine yourself locked in your own room, a pen, paper, and a gun by your side. You think "Nobody cares about me anyways, I don't matter" but you should REALLy think twice. Once you're finished with your letters to everyone you loved, you slowly pick up the gun and pull the trigger, you THINK you made everyone's life happier and better? When your parents and siblings walk into your room TERRIFIED that they see their son/daughter/brother or sister lying on their own blood, what good does that do? When your principal announces that you committed suicide and all those people who cared about you, those bullies, people who watched you get bullied, regret it. They all blame themselves, those bystanders thinking that they should've helped you, the bullies regret EVERY single thing they've done to you and as for the people who care about you, they break down asking themselves what they've done, what they've should've done." I felt a tear roll down my cheek because I should've given myself this speech while I was being bullied... "Your family is sitting in silence in the living room, the only noises are the sniffles in between tears, your parents thinking "I shouldn't of been too hard about his/her grades, or messy room. And your siblings thinking "He's/She's been there for me when I needed her/him. Why didn't I do that same? And at your funeral, everyone in your family comes, everyone who cared about you, those bystanders, even the bullies and the teachers who thought they were being way to hard on you. And on that day, it was the day your note was being read for the first time. After 2 months, your parents got rid of the blood of pool, but everyone in your school was put into therapy for loosing someone who they cared about, your best friend tried committing suicide constantly and as for you? your pain is gone. But is everyone else relieved? You've spread your pain to everyone you've known, even if you barely did know them, they still think it was their fault. You were needed, loved and now you're gone. Is everything over? For you it is, but not for everyone else! Nothing was how you planned it to be. Nothing got better, you were wrong. Open your eyes and realize that there ARE people that care about you and are by your side. Your friends and family will be LOST without you! Do you realize how much you matter?! If you EVER feel like you're worthless, like you don't need to live, think again because you MATTER and there ARE people that are willing to help you." Whistling, yelling and clapping filled the whole auditorium as I breathed in and continued with my story.

"Now, here's my story and I'm apologizing in advance for crying. I was starting 6th grade and my best friend, Nialll Horan" they all gasped "I know surprising" I said sarcastically as they laughed. "We were bullied... and why? Because they thought that boys and girls can't be best friends, they thought I was way to ugly for Niall" they gasped again. "okay okay! enough with the gasping!" I chuckled the same time they did. 

"Anyways, people's bullying usually starts around middle school and that's when puberty happens. that's also the time when people start caring about the way they look and dress... no one cares about how nice you are, no one cares about your personality. They only care about what's on the outside than on the inside." My vision started blurring. "They care how big your butt and boobs are. When I was in 7th grade, I couldn't take the bullying, so I tried to kill myself by uhh by..."

I shut my eyes as the tear rolled down my cheek. 


"Sorry." "I actually tried jumping off a building and right before I jumped, someone very important talked to me. told me everything was going to be okay, I'm not going to tell you who just yet though." I took out a page from my diary when I was in 7th grade. "This letter is from my diary when i was in 7th grade, I said: dear diary, they keep saying it will get better, but when? Now? tomorrow? later? Nothing's changing. I'm worthless, I really am. -Kayla

I am really glad I wore water proof mascara" I was crying even more. I remember everything that happened in middle school.

I looked around and people were in tears. "8th grade was no better, the bullying got more physical and my parents were wondering why I came home with new bruises and cuts everyday, people told me I was um worthless, ugly, a loser, fat, that I needed to k-kill myself.  I took a deep breath. 

I gazed at Allison next to Zayn who was crying and she looked at me smiling. I knew she was saying "I'm proud of you." I smiled at her and then continued on. "When i was 16, the person that made my life so much better left. To audition for x factor. And my life got worse. People were saying "Look, you made him leave and maybe you should leave too." My voice was shaking. "My parents made me go to a support group and I realized that I'm not the only person that's getting bullied. Our conselour told us to go into school, iignore whatever they say, smile, and that will tear those bullies apart because they're realize that whatever they say won't break you"


"Then one day, that's exactly what i did, the bullies realized that I'm stronger than I look and Look where I am today!" I chuckled through my tears. Why was I still crying?! "there was still someone missing from my life. I waited for him to come back because he promised he would. He was formed in a band called... One Direction. And when he did come back and erased me from his memory, I broke down. We went through the bullies together and he comes back dumfounded. But, then I jogged his memory back, we were best friends again and well. He's somewhere in this school. Anyone wanna take a guess to who it is?" "NIALL." they all screamed. I was a bit taken back but then I cried even more hearing his name. I wiped my tears but I wouldn't stop crying.


"Yeah. I just wish I didn't mess up anything last Saturday. I wish i had the courage to look him in the eyes and say 'I love you' i wish I said that you know, I wish I didn't mess anything up because he makes me stronger, but now he's happy with his girlfriend." i tried smiling but I couldn't. "My message here is to be strong, and tell somebody you trust when your hurting. You're life is just going through a rough patch and it will get better once you stick up for yourself, NEVER give up. thank you." My voice cracked. everyone stood up and clapped. I didn't want anyone to see me burst into tears, so I ran outside and sat on the bench .

A/N: This chapter is for people who are thinking about committing suicide. PLEASE talk to someone you trust or even me! I'll give you my kik or my email because YOU matter in this worldღ

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