Jessica's always been bestfriend with Niall James Horan,
however on the day of the UK X Factor finals she realises she may
begin to have feelings for his irresistible Irish charm and good


6. "I'm Nowhere Near Good Enough For Niall..."


As Gregg parked the car outside my house, I reached for the door handle a bit too late. Niall has beaten me to it. He was standing there, in front of me, smiling as he held the door open for me. I smiles at him as I felt my cheeks burning up "what a gentleman" I thought to myself as I climbed out the car. As we walked towards my door, yet again the only thing I wanted was to be stuck in this moment with Niall forever... I didn't want him to leave. As we said our goodbyes and I hugged him tight not wanting to let him go I smiled wide the second I felt his arms wrap around my waist tight. It felt as though we had been standing here in each others warm, tight embrace for hours, until Nialler pulled away. We said our goodbyes for the last time then suddenly I felt Nialls lips touch my cheek. I automatically felt my cheeks burning up. I couldn't prevent myself from blushing. Nia quickly pulled back and went bright red. I giggles at him as I watched him awkwardly walk off back towards the car.

I slipped into my house and shut the door then went into my room shutting the door behind me leaving against it. My heart was still beating like 100 beats per second from when Niall kissed me on the cheek. Why am I acting like this? It was just a kiss on the cheek! It doesn't mean anything! It'll never mean anything...

*Two Hours Later* 

I got into the shower and turned the handle feeling the hot water run down my body. I still couldn't stop thinking a out Niall. Two hours later. 'Gah. I should have just invited him inside earlier, then maybe... Just maybe we could have talked things out?' This was just one of many thoughts circling through my mind. After my showers I put my hair into a messy bun, put a vest top on and some tracksuit bottoms on ( British sweatpants), then got into bed and put a movie on. Shrek. My favourite movie of all time! As much as I wanted to concentrate and laugh at shrek and donkeys banter the only person that I could think of was Niall. Gah. Why was I doing this? He's my bestfriend! Nothing more. I looked down sadly as my words echoed in my head 'nothing more'.

When I think about it.. I think that deep down I've always wanted to be more than just friends with Niall. Obviously as a child I didn't realise it but looking back, I can remember how devestated i was that that night back in year 6 when we had that party at the end of the year, sort of like prom. And he asked that blonde bimbo Nicole to be his prom date rather me. I mean I was his best friend! I was so devestated that night that I pretended to be sick on the night of out year 6 prom. I just spent the night tucked into bed watching Shrek with my lilac prom dress that Niall helped me chose hanging up on my door untouched. That night was the night that it all became clear to me. Obviously I didn't know it back then but as I got older I realised that, that night proved that the only thing I'll ever be to Niall is his bestfriend. 

I'm nowhere near good enough for Niall and I just needed to accept it. He didn't chose me when we were back in school so why would be chose me now when he has thousands of girls after him. 

Those words killed me. They echoed in my mind just like the two words 'nothing more'. Now both 'nothing more' and 'why would be chose me?' Echoed in my head, causing me to bury my head in my pillow falling asleep in the middle of the day. Falling asleep in pain. Falling asleep to the sound of Eddie Murphys voice singing in the background. Just like the night in year 6. 



hey guys sorry for not updating in ages it's just that I've been sitting my GCSEs and revision has been practically taking over my life. Imma try to update as much as I can though(:

I hope you enjoyed this update though(: 

-xoxo maya. 


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