Mary Kate would like you to know that she's having a very hard time

This is my story. It will contain rants, sappy letters, crappy stories, ASDFGHJKL moments, and the all together recollection of my hilariously loser-ish life.


36. Everything is crumbling around me, and I can't move

Every single thing that has ever been important to me is crumbling around me and I can't stop it. I can't do anything to help the people I love who are hurting, I can't even gather enough strength to drag my own shit from the dirt long enough to get society to stop kicking me. I'm loosing people I care about, more and more people are starting to hate me, and I'm sat helplessly in the middle, waiting for the storm to stop. I'm not ready for thi, I'm not ready for highschool, I'm not ready to loose my bestfriends, I'm not ready to be thrown in with a bunch of new people who could hate me even more then the old ones did. I've tried to think on the bright side. I have my art, and my summer classes, and my friends, But how long are those things going to be able to save me? I can't deal with this. I can't. I am on the verge of crying every time someone calls me a bitch now, I'm on the edge of my very existence every fucking day, and I can't get a hold on anything long enough to calm down. People are leaving me when I need them the most, and I feel like I can't trust anyone anymore. I can't trust this school, I can't trust the people around me, the only people I can trust are my friends, and they're fading fast. 

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