FORGIVE ME

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Josh loves Juliet and Juliet loves Josh. Should be simple right? It was. But now Juliet thinks that Josh is cheating on her with Melanie. But Josh keep telling her that she is just his Cousin. Will Juliet forgive him?

This is my story for the English class contest.
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2. Forgive me

“I got you a balloon for each time I thought of you today.”

“That's so sweet. How many did you get for the other girl? What was her name again? Melanie right?”

“There was no other girl! Melanie is my fucking cousin!”

“You want me to just believe that!?”

“Yes. I do. Because that is the truth!”

“No it's not. It's exactly what Daniel said!”

“Daniel? Your ex-boyfriend?”

“YES!”

“I'm not like him!”

“Yes you are. I saw you with her?”

“I kissed her! Would you get pissed if you saw me kissing my mother too!?”

That was what made up my mind. I slapped him. Right across his face. And then I ran. I ran away leaving him there speechless. When I ran, I heard a fragile whisper behind me. Just three tiny words, that I really didn't wanted to hear.

I let out a light scream, and pulled at my hair in frustration. Why did he have to be like this when I finally started to let go of him. Every fucking person on this planet could see I was in love with him. But he just had to screw up everything. It's just not fair. For any of us.

I knew he loved me. Even a fool could see that. But I wanted to know that he loved me, and me only. And when I saw him with Melanie it just broke my heart. I know he told me that she is his cousin, but I've heard that so many times before. And every time I've found the guy cheating on me with his so-called cousin many times before. Why wouldn't Josh be like every other guy in this tiny city. No way in hell I'm falling for that trick again. No Juliet, I told myself. You are too smart for that. But then again. It's been used against me god knows how many times so why wouldn't it work again. Josh definitely wasn't that one out of a million guy, who wouldn't cheat on me. He was too fit for that. Josh was just that one guy in town that every girl wanted to date, and every guy wanted to be. Why would he date a blonde nerd like me. If I were him I definitely wouldn't.

I stopped running when I reached the lake. I sat down next to a tree with a good view of the lake. It made me calm watching the frogs jump around by the lake. I really loved it here.

I leaned my back against the tree and sighed. I told him of. Why would it make me sad? Shouldn't I be happy about it. I mean. I told him of. Not the other way around. I was happy while I was with him. But then of course the thought of living without him is new. I'll get over it some day.

I took red heels of and threw them beside the oak tree. I stood up and walked down to the edge of the lake. The feeling of the frogs jumping happily around my feet, while splashing a bit of water on my ankles was amazing. Being so close to animals without them being trapped and forced to actually stay there. That is truly incredible. In reality that should be the meaning of life. Not love. Why do we even bother with love if it never last.

When the sunlight started to fade into darkness I found a place to sleep. It wasn't the first time I’ve slept outdoor. When Josh and I were younger we used to camp in the forest. My face broke into a small smile by thought of the memory of me and Josh together. It's long time ago now, but it still stands so clear in my mind. It's funny how it's always the old things you remember. Old memories usually made me happy but not today. All memories I have is with Josh. Camping in the forest. Our first school dance. Late night movie nights. Everything. A small tear slid down my cheek. I quickly removed it only to make two more fall. I quit trying to stop the tears from falling. I leaned against the tree again and began to cry my heart out. I didn't made me fell any better. Not at all to be completely honest. But I think I needed it.

I looked up only to see the bright stars shining down at me. It almost felt like they were trying to tell me something.

“Sorry” I mumbled to the stars “I don't speak like you do.”

I laid down and started to run my fingers lightly through the grass. I loved the light tickle it made me feel. I looked up at the sky while I slowly drifted into sleep.

I felt a sharp light catch my eyes as I woke up the next morning. The birds sang a morning song. I couldn't help but thinking it was a morning song just for me. Inside my brain I knew it wasn't, but I let my heart believe it was. I couldn't hurt. I curled out of the ball I slept in and stretched my arms and legs. Today was a new day, and I wasn't going to waste the rest of my life thinking of him. So why shouldn't I start getting over him today.

I decided I would go for a morning run around the forest. A cold breeze hit me in the face when I started to run. Even in the middle of June the morning air is still freezing. I've always been one of these persons who is thinking the best while running. Some people catch a shower when they want to think and I go for a run. That's just me.

When I was younger I used to think about the things that everybody told Josh and I. You know there is always somebody who tell the best friends that they totally would end up getting married. In fairy tales they always end up like that. But fairy tales are fairy tales for a reason. I mean the prince always start out as a frog. What if some of the small frogs who jumped around my feet yesterday might be a cursed prince. But even if one of the frogs were a prince it wouldn't be my prince. Because Josh is my prince.

It's frustrating how hard it is to forget someone who gave you a thousand reasons not to forget them. But it's necessary sometimes. Sometimes forgiveness is what breaks us.

I had a hundred good reasons not to forgive Josh. But something in my heart just keep telling me that I have to forgive him. And if I don't I'll never be happy again. And I might think my heart is right. Even though I would hate to admit it.

My problem was and still is my pride. My pride and my ego is so fucking big. It's hard to tell somebody they're right. I could never tell him how I feel. Especially not now. I'll probably wont ever get him back but my feelings for him wont ever disappear.

My birthday is coming up. Tomorrow actually. The 21st of June. I knew that. Josh knew that. But I would still end up celebrating alone. No one except me. I'm going to miss him. He used to be the person who made my birthday special. But not any more.

I mentally slapped myself when I realised all this thinking about Josh, really wasn't the best way to get over him. And that was what I want to. NO IT'S NOT. My brain was literally yelling at me by now. I'm not fooling anyone. I don't want to get over him. All I want is Josh. I want him to hold me in my arms and tell me everything is going to be okay. I want him to be my best friend. And my lover. Just like we used to be. I just think I have to start planing a future that doesn't include Josh.

“Juliet!”

I heard the faint screams of my name somewhere in the forest.

“Juliet!”

This time it was closer and louder.

“Juliet! Please! Just let me explain!”

His voice sounded so desperate I almost feel sorry for him. Almost.

“Juliet!”

His body showed up on the other side of the lake. He was obviously relieved to find me. Only god knows why. Why didn't he just call Melanie and start making out. He came running over to me and, pulled me into his strong arms.

“Juliet. Thank god. I'm so glad I found you.”

“Why?” I asked confused.

“Didn't you hear the shots?” He asked sounding very surprised.

“No. You heard shots?” I asked thinking it was a joke.

“Yes. I did. And I thought it was you.” He said relieved.

“Who shot?”

“No. I know you wouldn't even kill a fly.”

“Haha very funny” I said sarcastically.

“Aww come on Jules. You know it's true. You didn't even like camping out here. You were so afraid we were going to kill any animals by laying on them.”

We both chuckled by the memory. It might be true that I was a tiny bit scarred of killing anything but come on it's innocent animals. How can you not want to save them.

“Jules” a distant voice said.

“Juliet!”

He snapped his fingers in front of my face and I finally woke up from my small trance.

“Welcome to earth sweety” He said while chuckling a bit.

“Why are you suddenly so nice to me?” I asked coldly.

“What do you mean? I love you” He said.

“Sure you do” I said sarcastically.

“I really do love you” He said trying to convince me.

I don't want to be fooled again. I already happened way too many times.

“Please Juliet. Let me explain everything to you” he pleaded.

“I think you already did Josh.” I said, “She's your cousin and the kiss meant nothing.”

“That is the truth!” He yelled obviously pissed.

“Please ask yourself how many times you want to try that excuse” I said “because I’m sick of it.”

“For the thousandth time” He said, “It is the freaking truth”

“Prove it!” I screamed.

He stared at me in shock before he turned around on his heels and left. Then I was left alone to myself. I really thought he loved me, but I guess not. I sat down again and started crying. This feeling is just awful. I fought so hard to get him in the first place. And now he is running away from me. I put my head in my hands and sighted. This is going to be a long night.

I woke up in the middle of the night only to realise that the rain was pouring down. I looked at my body, and got extremely surprised when I discovered that it was dry. I looked up and saw a pink umbrella. But it wasn't mine. My eyes wandered around until they stopped on a person sitting behind me. Josh. He was holding the umbrella over my head, while he was getting soaked by the rain. Our eyes were locked together until he spoke up.

“Please forgive me” He pleaded.

“I need to think” I said hoping he wouldn't get mad.

He stroked my hair. “It's fine sweety. You can just tell me in the morning.”

“Are you going to sit here all night?” I asked surprised.

He nodded. “My princes shouldn't get wet by the rain.”

“Are you sure?”

He nodded again. “Go to sleep sweety”

I did as I was told and I slowly drifted into sleep.

When I woke up the next morning Josh were still sitting next to me. I was impressed. He really slept out here in the rain for me. I kissed his cheek and stood up. I needed to show him that I love him.

When I got back Josh were still fast asleep. I carefully woke him up by kissing him.

“I forgive you” I whispered in his ear.

His eyes opened quickly and met mine. His brown eyes were sparkling with happiness.

“Really?” he asked.

I nodded. “And I got you something to prove it.”

“You did?”

I nodded again. “Close your eyes” I whispered in his ear.

He did as he was told and I went to get the surprise.

“You can open your eyes now” I said.

He looked around trying to find the surprise and I chuckled.

“It's not here” I grinded.

“Then why did I have to close my eyes?” He asked confused.

“For fun” I said smiling, “Come on lets go get your surprise.”

The entire way to the spot he kept complaining about how long there were.

“You shouldn't have done this” he said.

“Yes I should” I said, “You deserve it.”

“Promise me it isn't anything big”

“Promise” I said.

When we reached the spot we sat down on the side next to a tree.

“I recognize this place” he told me.

“You'll recognize this too” I said.

I took a deep breath and started on the small speech I prepared.

“I bought you a balloon for each time I regretted this fight. I got you another one for all the times you told me that you love me. The third one is for all the great times we have spend together. The next one is for all the times we are going to do together in the future. The fifth one is for all the times I've wanted to forgive you. The sixth and seventh is for how much I love you. The eight one is for your laugh. I really love your laugh. The ninth one is for the life we are going to have in the future. And the tenth...”

He cut me of by saying: “The tenth is for forever and always.”

I looked at him as he took a deep breath.

“Will you marry me?”

“Yes” I said and kissed him.

Everything was finally okay again.

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