It's in His DNA

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WARNING: Sexual References Throughout Story!
I can’t help but observe him as he plays out this routine every single time we have sex, he then slips his shirt over his head and walking back over to my bed in which I still lay completely naked under the sheets, he kneels up onto it and leans over kissing my cheek and wishing me good night before proceeding to sneak out of my house, I hated how low I thought of myself to allow a boy to just treat me as he pleases and then leave, this thought played out through my mind almost every night until I eventually drifted into unconsciousness.
Hi I’m Summah-Rose, I’m Seventeen years old and for the past year, I've been the item of sex for my town’s local “bad boy”.

Sequel: "I Only Miss You When I'm Breathing"


21. Who Put "Fun" In Funeral?

Summah P.O.V

I’d been having horrible dreams since Ariel past away dreams where I was in the car with them and I was the one that was killed in the accident. It had been a week since the accident and Ariels funeral was today, I woke up at 6:30 am but not bringing myself to crawl out of bed until now, it’s 11am and the funeral is at 1pm, I had no idea what I was going to wear I searched through my wardrobe pulling out a pair of stockings my black denim shorts my dreamer baggy tank and my black cardigan, I pulled out my bowler hat and took everything to my bathroom climbing in the shower, I hadn’t seen Niall at all this week, I actually hadn’t left my bedroom I heard my phone beep from my bedside table refusing to go back and check it I removed my clothing I’d slept in and dropped them on my bathroom floor turning my shower on and not bothering to wait for it to heat up I stood straight under it a shiver being sent right through my body at the contact of the cold water I didn’t bother moving myself from under it I just let the water flow over my entirety memories began to come flooding back of the times I’d sent with Ivy and Ariel the way Ariel always helped me no matter what, the fact she was there for me at the drop of a hat, my legs gave way beneath me and I fell to the bottom of my shower I couldn’t control my emotions anymore and I just let it all out, shouting profanities into the air throwing my now closed fists at the bathroom wall, I heard my bathroom door open I couldn’t stop myself not even for a minute to ask who it was, I felt my weightless body being pulled from the bottom of the shower.

“Just leave me a fucking lone, please, fuck nobody knows how to leave someone in peace for even a fucking second” I shouted through my tears forcing my fists into their chest lifting my head realizing it was Zayn pulling me from the shower, I looked at him as he moved away from me grabbing my towel and placing it in my direction to grab not making any kind of further contact with me I grabbed the towel out of his hands and wrapped it around myself, he finally turned his head facing me.

“Have you got it all off your chest now?” he asked in a cracking voice, I could see he’d been crying before he’d grabbed me, I didn’t say another word I nodded my head and walked over to my basin where I’d previously placed my clothes for the dreaded event today had brought upon us. Zayn left the bathroom not saying another word not even leaving me with any kind of reassuring smile like he had been doing so each time I’d seen him throughout this week of mourning, but what did he have to reassure me or anyone of today? Nothing there was absolutely nothing to reassure anyone of except the fact today was the day everyone said there final farewells to Ariel, while my thoughts ran wild, I’d pulled on the clothing I’d arranged to wear today scooting out of the bathroom.

“Come on Summah, we have to go” I heard Ivy shout from down the stairs, I grabbed the flask I’d had next to my bed knowing I wouldn’t make it through this whole funeral without vodka I unscrewed the top to my flask swigging the vodka as I walked down the stairs with my phone and bag, as I reached the bottom of the stairs I put the top back on my flask and placed it in my bag I’d be able to have more at some point through the day or maybe just before the funeral.

Zayn took Ivy and myself with him to the funeral I was dreading the confrontation of seeing everyone again I’d been so withdrawn from people I hadn’t bothered to ask how anyone else was doing, which I get is kind of selfish but everyone mourns in their very own way, Zayn parked the car in the parking spaces available at the funeral home grabbing my phone from the back seat as well as my bag I climbed straight out, I couldn’t take this everyone out the front laughing and crying clearly reminiscing.

“I’m going to the bathroom” I announced as I shut the door of Zayn’s car and moved swiftly towards the back of the funeral home walking straight past Niall, Harry, Liam & Louis not saying a single word not making any kind of eye contact with any of them, as I walked into the women’s rest room I pulled the vodka filled flask from my bag taking in the smell of the flask as I unscrewed the top bringing the flask to my mouth I heard a knock on the door.

“Clearly it’s occupied” I snapped as I took a mouthful of vodka clamping my eyes closed as I felt it stream down my throat leaving a burning sensation along the way I blocked all the noise from around me not wanting to listen to anything, I brought the flask back to my mouth filling my mouth back up with the liquid inside my flask once again repeating my previous actions as the liquid left its burning trail down my throat, I screwed the top back on my flask and forced it back into my bag leaning down to the sink below me turning the tap on to fill the palm of my hand with water to rinse my mouth out, I walked over to the bathroom door unlocking it before pulling it open, my eyes locking with the blonde boy in front of me.

“Hey” he said in a soft tone, I couldn’t bring myself to follow through with the conversation so I tried to rush past him to avoid the awkward conversation I was about to be engaged in but as my body swiftly moved by his, his hand caught my arm pulling me back towards him before removing it from me to place around me, he’d pulled me into a tight embrace an embrace I didn’t want I slammed my fists into his chest trying to force him away from me but he wouldn’t budge, he was determined to keep me where I was, as determined as I was to get away from him.

“Just fuck off” I snapped still forcing my fists to his chest my arms grew tired and my fists unclenched as they dropped to my sides before I placed them around his waist my tears began to leave marks on his shirt but he didn’t seem to mind.

“Come on, let’s go get a seat hey” he suggested pulling himself from me grabbing my hand in his and leading me back to the front of the funeral home where everybody remained still talking, laughing and sobbing I cleared my eyes with my free hand not smiling, not showing any kind of emotion I walked in with Niall, we sat 3 row from the front.

We’d been sitting in the funeral home for about 30 minutes before anything happened, a man walked up to the podium that sat up front on a small stage.

“Excuse me, can I have everyone’s attention please, the ceremony is about to begin if everyone could please come in and find a seat thank you” he announced catching everyone’s attention clearly as they all began to follow one another inside finding a seat wherever they could it took everyone about 5 minutes to find a seat and get quiet Niall and I on the other hand still had not spoken since taking the seat inside.

“Ariel Anna Malcoms was known as the fun outgoing great to be around friend daughter and niece to many people she was always there through the tough times with her friends and she was the most loyal person you would have ever met, she knew just how to put a smile on anyone’s face even if they were in the worst mood” as the man read his speech I saw movement in the corner of my eye I turned my head to the right only to see Ariels coffin being walked down the small isle it was a beautiful shade of pure white with gold bars on either side to hold to carry there were four men carrying it in, Ariels dad, her brother, her grandfather and the boy she had convinced to fall completely and uttering head over heels for her, Zayn the tears rolling down their faces as the carried the last remaining part of her up to the table like figure behind the man at the podium, I completely zoned out listening to him talk, I heard he man call for Ariels mum to come and make her speech my ears perking back up and looking back at the podium as she approached it.

My darling little girl Ariel, I cannot believe that she has been taken away from us after only 19 years on this earth. It is much too short a time, but they have been the most precious.

When you were born, you were so tiny – I couldn’t believe my eyes. You had a shock of black hair and a cheeky face. You quickly gained weight, though, and after a couple of days in the hospital I was allowed to take you home. We always focused on our time together and treasured every moment.

From the time she was a little girl, Ariel brought joy and laughter into our lives and the lives of others. When she was little, I called her my ‘cheeky monkey’. As soon as our backs were turned, she was up to something. But you couldn’t get angry with her for too long as she would always give you one of those cheeky grins and say, “Oh Mummy, I’m sorry”.

Ariel grew into a charming little girl who was outgoing and affectionate. She absolutely adored school and made lots of friends. She loved her teachers and would race home from school every afternoon with stories about what Mrs McNamara or Mr Jones had taught her in class.

One of Ariels’s greatest pleasures was dancing. The moment she heard music she would be up, clapping her hands with glee. I remember taking her to the mall one day to do some shopping. I turned around and she was gone. Naturally, I was panic stricken and raced around everywhere looking for her. I found her a few minutes later in the music section of the store, performing a dance routine she had learnt at school - much to the amusement of the staff.

We enrolled her in dance school and she flourished. I will never forget the look on her face after her first dance class – a look of enthusiasm and pure excitement that only a child can give. I was so excited for her as she grew her hunger for dance grew also when Ariel was 18 she was accepted into Dublin Dance Academy where she met some of the best people she’d ever known, they shared the same love for dance as her and many other things.

On weekends she found it hard staying at home and desperately wanted to go back to school.

It is with so much sadness that I am here today to farewell our only daughter, Ariel. She was a lovely and vibrant daughter who has been taken away from us much too early. But the memory of Ariel will live on in us forever. We were so proud of her and know that she is in peace.

Goodbye, my precious girl – I know you are up in heaven now, waving down to us with cheeky grin on your beautiful face.” Mrs Malcoms speech was beautiful I don’t actually think there was a dry eye in the building, as the funeral neared an end everyone began to disappear giving there farewell hugs Niall’s hand still in mine as he lead me to the boys who were all having their own conversations, I noticed a girl with them I girl I was unfamiliar with, she had longish brown hair, Niall and I walked over to them the minute Harry saw me he wrapped his arms around me.

“How’re you feeling?” he whispered into my ear before planning a kiss on the top of my head, I just smiled at him not saying a single word as he pulled away I began to observed the image of the girl standing before me, the smile I’d given Harry dropping from my face as I did so, she had piercing blue eyes she was dressed rather cute, in a pair of skinny jeans a loose fitting shirt next to no makeup on her face and vans on her feet, who was she.


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i'd use my own personal experience to write this chapter
so it's a little close to home, but i hope you all enjoy it....
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