Nothing's Fine,I'm Torn

{The boys are not famous yet they may be later on or in a sequal}


Vanessa has been bullied everyday for as long as she can remember.She has no protector or friends. She feels lost & hopeless with nowhere to turn. But one day that all changes! A story of love & dark secrets!Read it all in "Nothing's Fine i'm Torn" out now!

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8. ~Chapter 7~

 

 

    ~Vanessa's POV~

 

 

    The next day i woke up feeling horrible. Zayn walking in smiling sadly at me. "Hey" He said sitting at the end of my bed. "Hi" I croaked. He looked at me sadly and that's when i broke. I started crying and he crawled over to me hugging me. I cryed in his arms for who knows how long with he held me stroking my hair.

 

    When i stopped we pulled away and i said, 'thanks". He nodded saying "anytime Ness". "I don't really wanna go to school today" I said sadly. "And you don't have to, But i gotta run,i'll see you later" He responded kissing my forehead and walking out of the house.

 

    I sighed and sat up in bed going to the shower and turning it on. I unwrapped my wrists and threw the gauze away. I got my blade and made four new lines under my other cuts. I stripped and got in the shower my cuts stinging but it felt good. I did my usual routine and changed into my pj's wrapping gauze around my wrists. Then put on Harry's purple Jack Willis jumper. 


 

    


    I checked the time and it was only 10. I  grabbed my guitar a notebook and pen and sat on my bed. I started humming a tune and wrote down some lyrics. After an hour these were the lyrics i came up with. 

 

  It's strange to think the songs we used to singThe smiles, the flowers, everything is goneYesterday I found out about youEven now just looking at you feels wrong
You say that you'd take it all back, given one chanceIt was a moment of weakness and you said yes
You should've said no, you should've gone homeYou should've thought twice 'fore you let it all goYou shouldn've known that word'Bout what you did with her'd get back to me
And I should've been there in the back of your mindI shouldn't be asking myself whyYou shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feetYou should've said no, baby and you might still have me
You can see that I've been cryingAnd baby you know all the right things to sayBut do you honestly expect me to believeWe could ever be the same
You say that the past is the past, you need one chanceIt was a moment of weakness and you said yes
You should've said no, you should've gone homeYou should've thought twice 'fore you let it all goYou shouldn've known that word'Bout what you did with her'd get back to me
And I should've been there in the back of your mindI shouldn't be asking myself whyYou shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feetYou should've said no, baby and you might still have me
I can't resist before you go tell me thisWas it worth it? Was she worth this?No, no, no, no, no, no
You should've said no, you should've gone homeYou should've thought twice 'fore you let it all goYou shouldn've known that word'Bout what you did with her'd get back to me
And I should've been there in the back of your mindI shouldn't be asking myself whyYou shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feetYou should've said no, baby and you might still have me.

     It was exactly how i felt. I played it once on my guitar and broke down. I thought he acually cared about me.

 

~Harry's Pov~

 

  I didn't go to school today instead i wrote Nessa a song. 

When I look into your eyesIt's like watching the night skyOr a beautiful sunriseWell there's so much they holdAnd just like them old starsI see that you've come so farTo be right where you areHow old is your soul?
I won't give up on usEven if the skies get roughI'm giving you all my loveI'm still looking up
And when you're needing your spaceTo do some navigatingI'll be here patiently waitingTo see what you find
'Cause even the stars they burnSome even fall to the earthWe've got a lot to learnGod knows we're worth itNo, i won't give up
[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/i-wonat-give-up-lyrics-jason-mraz.html ]I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easilyI'm here to stay and make the difference that i can makeOur differences they do a lot to teach us how to use the tools and giftsWe got yeah we got a lot at stakeAnd in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intendFor us to work we didn't break, we didn't burnWe had to learn, how to bend without the world caving inI had to learn what i got, and what i'm notAnd who i am
I won't give up on usEven if the skies get roughI'm giving you all my loveI'm still looking upI'm still looking up
I won't give up (No I'm not) on us (Giving up)God knows i'm tough (I am tough), he knows (I am loved)We got a lot (We're alive) to learn (We are loved)God knows we're worth it (And we're worth it)
I won't give up on usEven if the skies get roughI'm giving you all my loveI'm still looking up

    I screwed up this time. Badly. I won't give up on us. No matter what it takes. I haven't eaten today but who cares. I'm just worried Nessa didn't eat, which she probably didn't. I stoop up from my bed walking to Nessa's. When i got there the door was unlocked. 

 

    I could hear crying, and my heart broke into a million pieces. Again. I walked up to her room and quietly opened the door. I kicked off my shoes and layed behind her. I hugged her from behind and pulled her closer. She turned around and continued crying while buiring her face into my chest. I kissed her head softly singing the song i wrote. 

 

    As I finished off the song she had stopped crying. Which i was happy for. She looked up and me and suddenly crashed our lips together. I kissed back turning her on her back and hovering over her. After a while we pulled back gasping for air. "I like your jumper love" I said smiling cheekily 

 

    She blushed as we sat up. "Well I missed you" she said looking down sadly. I lifted her chin up and could see tears in her eyes. I wiped them away kissing her forehead. "I missed you to Nessa" I said. 

 

 

A/N Sorry for not updating in a REALLY long time. It's just that only like 2 of you want me to update. Also i need some suggestions because i'm stuck :/ Thanks!

 

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