Summer '09

18 year old May Jones was on ordinary girl with loving parents, a brother, a dog and a boyfriend, Niall Horan. When Niall suddenly leaves to the X Factor without telling May, everything spirals out of control. Niall has a new life and so does May but her heart is still broken. Her family are torn apart and she is left alone. 3 years later they cross paths and everything changes again.


25. No Secrets

Niall’s POV
I forced my eyes to not wander to May’s beautiful features. The amount of eye muscle and strength it took, would have won me the Olympics but unfortunately they didn’t do eye weight lifting.
May introduced her friends to us and I sat down next to Louis. “What’s got your knickers in a twist?” muttered Louis. I rolled my eyes at him and muttered,” nothing.” He raised his eyebrows but said nothing and continued working his way through a magazine.
I mentally groaned as my eyes immediately flicked to May, seeing her soft features light up with laughter as she talked to Harry. I longed to be able to make her laugh.
I wanted to hear her laugh because of something that I did, not of something that Josh or one of the boys did. I didn’t want her to hate me and to not trust me.
I shook my head and I could feel Zayn’s eyes on me. I gave him a reassuring look as he raised his eyes, asking if I was ok. He nodded but kept his gaze on me as my eyes flickered to May.
She was facing me but her eyes were directed to Josh who was approaching her. Her eyes lit up with nervousness but happiness at the same time. Why couldn’t her eyes be lighting up when she saw me?
Whenever she did, they would narrow and become filled with hate and hurt. That was all I did to her, hurt her and now there seemed to be no way back. But I had promised myself that I would become friends with her at the least so I had to try.
Just not now.
Suddenly, as I was forcing my eyes away from her, I saw something glimmer around her neck. It was some sort of necklace but the charm was hidden under her top.
It was probably just a necklace that Josh had given her or a birthday present. Yeah, that is was it was. Probably. I shook my head and stood up, walking over to Sophie. I needed to take my mind off May for now. I just needed to speak to someone.
May’s POV
Josh pulled me gently into the corridor outside the bedrooms and turned round to face me. His eyes were full of concern. I gave him a soft smile but inside I was as nervous as fuck.
“So, you wanted to talk?” I said awkwardly. He nodded,” yeah. Niall, erm, told me about what has been going on, on Twitter and I wanted to er, no how you are feeling about it. I mean, how you are taking it all.”
I sighed and looked down to the ground. I hadn’t checked Twitter once. I mean who would. All you got was tweets from a bunch of hormonal teenagers saying things that were sort of true.
“So how are you taking it?” he asked again. I wondered whether to lie to him or not, I mean he was my boyfriend so I had to tell him the truth but then again, I had already broken that rule with one of the biggest secrets of my life that would definitely affect our relationship.
I took a deep breath,” I’m taking it okay. To be honest I haven’t looked at twitter in days so I don’t really know what they are saying and I, er, don’t really take it badly so it’s urm, fine.”
His eyes searched mine and I softened them, trying to put a wall between our eyes. I didn’t like it when people searched my eyes, they were searching through my past and I didn’t want that. Especially not Josh.
The only person I let do that or used to was Niall because he knew me like the back of his hand. Or at least I thought he did.
“I’m glad you are doing ok. You don’t know how worried I was when I saw them and please don’t believe them. You are so much of the opposite, I can’t even explain,” he begged taking my hand and stroking it with his thumb.
I slipped my hand out of his grasp, getting a confused look but I hugged him instead. I could sense him smile but as I looked down, I peered at my wrist with its new and fresh cuts.
So I had lied but I hadn’t. It was true obviously that I hadn’t looked at Twitter but the fact that I didn’t take it badly was a lie. Those tweets had been the source of my new cuts. Each tweeting, cutting into me when I had read them a few days ago.
And now it was reality. I felt tears prick my eyes but I shook my head softly against his chest. I couldn’t think about this. No. I had to control myself.
“Why didn’t you tell me first? Why was it that Niall had to find out?” he asked. I pulled away and looked at him, raising my eyebrow.
“You aren’t jealous are you?” I asked. He shook his head quickly,” no, no but it’s just… I’m your boyfriend and I thought you were keeping a secret from me and I didn’t like it. I just think that in relationships, we shouldn’t have secrets because it will end up hurting people more in the end.”
I nodded slowly but avoided eye contact with him. ‘It will end up hurting people more in the end.’ That quote just replayed in my head, making me feel guiltier and more every second. “Hey, you ok?” he asked, lifting my chin and forcing me to look at him.
I smiled,” of course and I agree.” He smiled warmly and placed a quick kiss on my lips. “Promise, no secrets,” he said. I paused but quickly covered it with a smile.
“No secrets,” I said,” promise.” He grinned and pecked me but inside I was felt so guilty. I had promised to something that I had already broken. I was keeping possibly the biggest secret I had away from him but if he knew it would break us so badly that he would hate me and I don’t think that I could deal with the only boyfriends that I have had hating me.
We walked back into the sitting room where everyone was on the sofas, squashed up and watching the tv eagerly. No one noticed us but my eyes immediately went to Niall.
He was my big secret and everything to do with him seemed to break me apart. He turned to face me and our eyes instantly connected. I tried to break away but the force was too strong. He knew something had happened that was breaking me and I think he knew it was him.
First of all, I apologise for it being SUPER late!!! Ugh, movellas has been acting up and then movellas got banned from our school!!! I mean, give us a break. School is already a prison, you don’t need to make it worse!! :p
Anyways, I hope it was a good chapter!! I worked especially hard because I wanted to make up for it!!! :(
I promise that the next chapter will be in the next two days!!!
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Mina x

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