You Need Me...I Don't Need You (A Josh Devine Fan-Fiction)

I hate him...With everything I have left of me. He played me and left me broken. I should have known he was trouble but the fact that I was in love blinded me from the truth... The fact I still do is what haunts me... But then again he was my best friend since childhood, what made him do what he did to me? Did I hurt him or was he always just using me? I just can't face the fact, that now I have to see him again, but the thing is... he doesn't know who I am... But I know who he is, or rather was...And now there's only one thing left to say... I'm Truly...Madly...Deeply...In love with him...Josh Devine...But I don't need him anymore...he needs me...


5. Chapter 4

**Mel's POV**


        We returned to our buses later that night. In count of how many people were drunk I was surprised we weren't all drunk.Only Niall,Dan, and Harry were drunk. Even though i was sober at the moment i knew the morning would kill me.
        In the club while we were still there,I told Zany happy birthday and all. I even met his girlfriend Perrie Edwards of Little Mix, and Louis ' girlfriend Eleanor Calder who was a floor model,and Liams, Danielle Peazer ,dancer like me. I had a nice chat with them until we all left. They weren't coming on tour with us sadly, they all seemed like nice girls. They left when we reached our buses. Thankfully tomorrow isn't straight to work. The boys planned a day at a pool. And here they were making me think my life would be on a bus from now on but no,it was temporary until the other dancers come in. We would start staying in hotels once we leave for America. But for now we were going to live on the bus. I said goodnight to the lads and I climbed into the bus behind Jon.
" What time is it? " I asked no one in particular.
"'s 1:30 AM." Jon says while looking at his cellphone. I stood up and I was walking I tripped over thin air and landed onto Joshs lap . I felt my face burn with embarrassment .
" Looks like someone really wants to get into your pants Josh." Dan speaks and they all start laughing. I get up and run into the room. Do they always act this immature. I sit on the ground burying my head in my arms. The door then opened.I didn't look up because I knew who other was already.


**Josh's POV**


" Asdfghkdb" She told me with her head buried in her lap.
" I'm sorry I didn't quite get that." I tell her chuckling. She lifted her head and death glared me.
" I said, what do you want." She told me. I went and sat down next to her and I place my arm around her shoulder pulling her into my chest, comforting her.
" They all think I'm someone sort of slut now. Only wanting to get into someone's pants." She mumbled into my chest. I held her tighter and kiss the top of her head.
" I'm supposed to hate you Josh...I'm supposed to want this urge to hurt you but I don't.I still see the old Josh Devine I used to know. The guy who was my best friend and the guy who I thought was the perfect boyfriend,but in reality I don't know you at all!" She exclaimed. I felt guilty as she cried. I held her close to me.
" I'm sorry for everything I did to make you want to use me like that. I'm sorry if I screwed up or something." She whispers quietly.
" Don't apologize for things that weren't your fault. It's my fault people treat you like this. If I never screwed up, people would have respect for you. They'd treat you right." I tell her. She is beginning to stop crying. She sniffles.
"But if you didn't do what you did, I'd never be living my dream." I stare at her and think for a minute getting lost.
"What are you thinking about?" She questions me.
"How is this a dream when your living under someone else's name? When you've changed everything about your looks? When you go around being played by celebrities? How can you do all this and say your living the dream?" I question her and she looks at me and smiles lightly.
"As long as I have dance... I don't care. When I'm dancing everything disappears. The worries. The hate. The pain." She tells me.I smile lightly suddenly remembering moments of our past.
"I remember the first time you told me you wanted to dance. The macarena was on and you forced me to dance with you." I tell her while laughing.
"Yes and you failed horribly at that!" She said laughing.
"And the time we went to homecoming, and you made me slow dance with you and I ended up falling?" She laughed again this time with meaning.
"You, Mr.Devine have two left feet." She tells me and smiles.
"Now see...this is what I want for us..." I say as I take her hand in mine. She looks as if she wants to pull it back but she keeps it there instead.
"Let the good times roll." She says looking down and then letting my hand go. "Now get out, this dress is killing me and I need to change into something more comfortable." She stands up and holds both of my hands trying to get me to stand up by pulling me up but failing.
"Not going to work love." I tell her smiling. She pouts and crosses her arms.
"What will it take to make you budge?" She asks me and I just shrug my elbows like an idiot. SHe laughs and shakes her head.
"I don't know..." I say being dumb, making her laugh.
"Just get up! Please! I'll give you something!" She tells me and i roll my eyes and stand up.
"What now?" I tell her. She looks up and tippy-toes. She placed her soft lips onto my cheek.
"Happy?" I smile and laugh.
" Now get out..." She tells me and pushes me out the door. I walk into the kitchen and see Sandy death glaring at me and Dan and Jon are laughing.
"So how was she?" I just shook my head and chuckled.
"We just talked Dan, and Sandy no need to want me dead." He just scoffed and rolled his eyes.
"Everyone wants you Josh...that's always how its been...No one aknowledges the bass guitarist or the pianist or the lead guitar! Its always the drummer..." He says as he left to his room. Dan stared at me in confusion.
"What the hell was that about?" He questions me. I should tell Dan. Wouldn't want things weirding out between all of us.  "Earlier tonight I say them snogging," I say in a low tone that only he could hear. " So I got jealous and punched Sandy,which knocked him out,so me and Mel took him into a room. I told her he had a girlfriend,and when he woke up he didn't remember anything." Dan blinked a couple of times and looked confused.  
" So you basically punched him for no reason,and lied to Melody,and now Sandy fancies her... You my friend,have gotten yourself into some deep sh*t." He tells me. I let out a sigh.
"Before I forget, no one knows of this little conversation we just had." He nods and pats my back and leaves to the room, and as if on cue Mel comes out and goes over to the fridge.
"Hey Josh?" She asks while her head remained in the fridge.I walk over to her and lean on the fridge door. "Is there any bottled water?" She asks. 
"Yeah, it's all the way in the back, and aren't you hungry?" I tell her while she grabs the bottle and takes a long sip out of it.
"Nope I'm fine, thanks though." She says while heading back into our room. I followed her there and grabbed her arm lightly. She turned to me and looked confused.
"You haven't eaten all are you not hungry?" She rolled her eyes.
"What? Are you stalking me or something?" She says to me squinting her eyes at me and crossing her arms across her chest.
"Actually...stalking isn't the term I'd use. Considering we haven't left each others sides since the moment we left this morning, you haven't eaten." I state simply knowing I won this war. She let her hands fall and she just shook her head.
"Goodnight Josh..." She simply stated going over to her bed.
"Night Melissa...and by the way, you look amazing." I said winking at her. She just laughed.
"Thank you quiff if you will goodnight." She says and lies down on her bed throwing the covers over her.
"See you in the morning princess..."

**The Next Morning**

**Mel's POV**

I wake up and I grab my phone from the nightstand to my side. I open my eyes and look at the time. 5:38 A.M... That's not even 4 hours of sleep.I groan and rub my eyes. I roll over to my side and see Josh sleeping soundly. He looked so peaceful... I mentally sighed and dialed the number to the one girl I could tell anything too. After three rings she answered. "Hello?" She said. I sighed of relief.
"Hey Rose...its been forever since we talked." She laughed on the other line.
"Melissa...How's touring been for you? Heard you were with One Direction?" She states plainly.
"Yeah, day one so far was pretty eventful." I said in a low tone keeping caution of not waking Josh up.
"We went clubbing, for the most part." I tell her wanting to leave out most of the details.
"And who was that cutie you were kissing? It's all over twitter..." She tells me. I sigh in defeat.
"Sandy Beales. He plays bass." I say quietly.
"You two aren't? Eh...Sleeping together?" I laughed silently.
"No, besides...I heard he has a girlfriend, and I'm not that into him..." I tell her.
"So...who's your roomy? Can't be that bad can it?" I mentally wanted to slap her.
"Josh...Josh Devine..." I say... The line went silent for a moment. 
"Does he-" I cut her off.
"Yeah..he does...but everyone think's I'm Melody..." I reply.
"How do you feel about him?" I smile to myself.
"He makes me feel insane..." I replied. I heard a shuffling.I looked over to see Josh waking up.
"I've got to go, he's waking up, Bye Rosalie! I love you!" I tell her then shutting the line. He turned his body to where it was facing my direction.He opened his eyes groggily. "What on earth are you doing up at this hour?" He tells me mumbling. I stifle a laugh. "Couldn't sleep, sorry if I woke you up..." I tell him. He puts his hands over his face and stretches. I stared at him in a non-stalker way. "What time is it anyways?" He asks. I look back to my phone. 
"It's 5:54 A.M..." He whips his head to me.
"I haven't slept even five hours, what time did you wake up?" He questions me still laying in his bed.
"Around 5:40..." I stand up and my limbs fail on me causing me to fall flat.
I closed my eyes and groan and when i open them back up Josh is in front of me. He put his hand out for me to grab which I took gratefully.He pulled me up and I was suddenly severely close to him. My hand was in his chest, his arms were holding me securely. His hot breath hitting my face.He began to lean down closing his eyes...and I didn't care for once. I closed my eyes waiting for his lips to touch mine. Slowly they did. His kiss was soft as if he was scared to go farther. I pulled on his shirt getting him closer to me. He began to kiss deeper, holding tightly onto my waist. I let my hands trace back to his neck. After a few minutes he pulled away and leaned his forehead onto mine looking at me and smiled. I returned that smile and bit my lip.
"Your cute when you bite your lip..." I felt my cheeks rise with heat.
"And how insane do I make you feel?" I narrowed my eyes at him and I slapped his chest. He laughed.
"When I hear my name I awake instantly love." I smiled and pecked his lips once more. I get out of his hold and lay down on the bed.
"Please lay down with me?" I ask him. I remember all the sleepovers we had where he would hold me through the night. He came over to me and laid down next to me. He put his arms around my waist pulling me into him. I buried my head into his chest and I wrapped my arms around him as well, falling soundly asleep.

**Josh's POV**

I awoke a few hours later to find the side of me empty. I frowned. I got up and walked out of the room into the kitchen.  Everyone was awake and laughing. I saw Sandy sitting next to Melissa with his arm around her shoulder while they were laughing. No one acknowledged the fact that I had woken up and was standing right there. I just shook my head and went to the fridge and got out an Amp Energy Drink. (A/N:they are so delicious ). As I turned around to head back to my room I noticed a head of red in front of me crossing her arms and looking up to me.  
" Well,good morning to you too Josh." She says sarcastically. I laughed and looked to her.  
" Good morning Mel." I tell her and she smiles.  
" You do know what time it is right?" I furrowed my eyebrows and shook my head. She laughed. 
"11:46 , were leaving to the pool in an hour and eating lunch after." She informs me. I nod my head and go sit down next time Dan. I see Sandy glaring at me. I mentally scoff. Poor lad is jealous.
I see Melissa stand up going to our room signaling for me to follow her. I got up after a few minutes and went into the room. She looked nervous.
"Everything alright love?" She looked to me and shook her head.
"Whatever is going on between us needs to stop. The kisses, the flirting, the looking. All of it. I said get my trust first." I felt frustrated.
"Is this because of Sandy? Because like I told you he already has a gir-" She cut me off.
"A girlfriend...yeah...about that...You lied... He hasn't had a girlfriend for a while now. I don't understand why you lied though...Because you were jealous I suppose? Well news flash, I'm not your girlfriend anymore. You don't own me like a piece of property." She said before she walked out. I really screwed things up.
I walked out of the room and I went into the kitchen where I saw something I absolutely didn't want to see. Sandy and Melissa...they were snogging. He had her pressed against the refrigerator. I resisted the urge to punch him. I walked away from the scene and I heard a knocking on our bus door. It was Niall.
"You people aren't ready yet? We're leaving in less than an hour! And by the way... Joey is coming with us too." He told me.
"Sorry we lost track of time..." I told him. He sighed and walked away to his bus.
"Guys! Get your asses moving and get ready!" I screamed. I saw Sandy and Mel walking towards the room hand in hand...hand in hand...hand in fucking hand... That was it...This Means War...


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