Dangerously In Love

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COMPLETED. Georgia Brink had a wild past. She lived a dangerous life. She wanted out. Moving to Bane was supposed to be a new change for her. That was until she met Niall Horan. She swore to herself that she wouldn't get into the bad crowd. She promised herself she would be the good person she used to be. Will she keep her promises? Or will she fall for the badass, Niall Horan? ((first chapter to the sequel is up))

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10. Chapter 10

Chapter 10

 

The morning passed ever so slowly. I was getting so impatient. I needed this talk with Niall and time felt against me. I was anxious and nervous. But then at the same time I wanted time to go slowly. How was I supposed to explain to him what I meant by saying he wasn’t special?

What did I mean by that? I can’t think of one reasonable explanation for my words. I don’t know what I was thinking when i said it. And I certainly didn’t expect him to hear me. 

Ugh, how do I explain this to Niall? 

I walked into english and made my way to my seat where Niall was already seated. He gave me a nod then turned away. My heart dropped a little and it had me confused. I mean, I understand why he’s mad at me, I understand why he can’t look at me. But what I don’t understand was my reaction to his reaction.

I didn’t know how to act after that. Like, should I try to talk to him? Or should I just leave him alone? I just didn’t know. So, I just sort of compromised. I didn’t talk to him but I kept turning to him whenever he’d look my way. But he’d always turn back around once he catches my eyes on him. And that’s how it went for the rest of the class. 

Suddenly the bell rang and i started to dread the lunch hour. How are we going to do this? I packed up my stuff and shoved them into my bag and turned to Niall. He was already all packed and waiting for me with reproachful eyes. I sighed and draped my bag over my shoulder.

Neither one of us spoke first. We just stood there, staring into each other’s eyes almost challenging each other to speak first. I wanted to speak first but I just didn’t know what to say to him. 

“Let’s just go sit outside.” He muttered and made his way to the door. 

We walking silently side by side to my table outside the buildings. I could feel Cindy’s excited eyes, and Jared’s narrowed eyes watching us as we walked past them in the cafeteria. I gave them a noncommittal shrug and continued to walk with Niall. 

When we reached the picnic table, Niall immediately sat down with his elbows leaning on his knees. He stared down at his feet. I stood awkwardly to the side, silently watching him to see if he would start talking. After a while his blue eyes looked into mine and he patted the spot next to him. I sat down beside him with an amount of space in between us. When he didn’t say anything I sighed aloud.

“Niall.” I started. “I didn’t..”

“You didn’t what?” He said bitterly. “Mean it?”

“No, I didn’t mean it.” I said defensively.

“Then why say it? What were you avoiding?” He said as he turned his whole body to face me.

“I-” I started to say but then I realised I don’t have anything to save me. “I don’t know.”

“Look, Georgia, that shouldn’t have bothered me as much as it should but it does.” He closed his eyes. “And I don’t want that.” He whispered.

I leaned forward and pressed a hand to his cheek and he opened his eyes. “Niall.” I murmured.

Then his eyes flared and he stood up abruptly. “We can’t do this, Georgia!” He shouted. “We can’t keep acting like we don’t have a whole different life out there. We can’t just keep acting like we’re together when can’t! I don’t want to kill you and if we continue this I will have to.” He paused. “Maybe I do have to.”

My eyes widened. “What do you mean?”

“Georgia, would you think I’m crazy if I said you are important to me?” He said with his back to me. I took a sharp intake of breath. I opened my mouth to speak but I didn’t know how to answer him. 

Then he chuckled. “This would be a whole lot easier if me and my dad got along.”

“You can kill people in your own gang?” I asked a little surprised. When you’re part of a gang there’s a rule saying that all gang members must be protected. You’re not allowed to kill anyone part of your gang or sacrifice them to save your life. It’s gang law and if you break this rule, you’re dead.

He shook his head. “No, you can’t. But if they’re blood family and if they’re the utmost important to you and if you consult the members of the gang first, it’s okay to.”

“So, if I were to join your gang and you killed me...?” I trailed off.

“I’d be killed as well because you’re not blood family to me.” He answered my question.

“So, who’s your leader at the moment?” I asked.

“My dad.” He monotonously said. 

“Who did he kill?” 

“His brother a few years ago.” He answered. “The limit of being a gang leader is seven years and if you have reached that limit and no one has got the guts to kill who’s important to them then they kill them and make their second in command leader.”

“How did your mother die?” I asked. His jaw clenched.

“Valley Kings.” He answered and my eyes widened.

My gang?” I asked incredulously.

“Yes, your gang.” He sighed and ran his fingers through his disheveled hair. “A year ago, me and my dad were out doing business with another gang uptown. When we came back she was drowning in her own blood. She was stabbed twice in the stomach, once on each leg and there were cuts all up her arm. There was knife wedged into her chest and...” He paused, his eyes glistening with unshed tears.

“Niall, you don’t have to tell me.” I said to put him out of his misery.

“No, no. I’ve had this bottled up for so long, I need to talk about it.” He took a deep breath in. “Yeah, she had the knife in her chest and it looked like she was hanging on for us. She said to dad that she loved him and always will. And my dad said it back and ran away crying and I know that he loved her so much that he couldn’t watch her die without trying something. Then when he left she said to me ‘Niall, you’re going to grow up to be a strong man. You’ll have a beautiful life despite all this gang shit. I love you, sweetie. And I’m sorry.’ Then she just closes her eyes and doesn’t wake up.

And what hurts the most is i didn’t tell her I loved her too. I just watched her die. I was mad at myself for so long. My whole life she was always there for me but all I did was pay attention to what my dad’s doing. I didn’t notice that he always neglected her to go off with the gang. I didn’t notice the way she’d always put notes on my bedside table every morning. i always thought that was annoying. Now, i miss her.

And when I saw that little piece of paper in her bloody hand and I saw that emblem. The one you have. My dad killed your old leader, you know. What’s his name? Henry. We killed him.”

“Oh, Niall.” I whispered as I hugged him tightly. He wiped the tears away from his eyes as we pulled away and chuckled lightly. He exhaled aloud then turned to me.

“How’d you get out of your gang?” He asked after a moment.

“Well, I didn’t really kill someone.” I said as I looked away from him. I felt a little embarrassed. I feel like I need to have a strong heart to be with someone like Niall and people like James.

“You didn’t?” He asked incredulously.

“I couldn’t. I hurt someone really badly. I sort of paid her to act dead. I, uh, poured fake blood all over her and she even let me shoot her in the arm once. Then I called Henry to show her and she was dead. And I got out.” I laughed bitterly. “You’re probably thinking I’m weak or something.”

He grabbed my shoulders and turned me to face him. “No, actually that makes you better than all those girls I see in my gang. They’re either prostitutes, strippers or these clingy girls that just want a lot of money.

At least you still have your morals, at least you still are innocent. I’m honestly so proud of you for not killing someone.” 

I crashed my lips into his. I couldn’t help myself. I just I had to. How can I not kiss him when he says all that sweet stuff to me? It’s more than James has ever said to me. James was cynical and morbid and he just wanted power and control and sex. We hardly spoke seriously and when we did it was always about being the leader of Valley Kings.

Niall is sweet. Even though he’s going to be a leader of a gang, even though he might have to kill me to get that, he’s still sweet. He knows how to make me feel better. And dammit he gives the best kisses.

“Georgia...” He sighed against my lips then he pulled away. “This is so messed up.”

“I know.” I laughed. “But who cares.”

 

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A/N

 

I know it took so long because of school and holidays and homework and tests and yeaaaah. I’m sorry. Hope this cleared up a lot for you guys. Enjoy!!

 

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-Winona

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