juggling work , a baby , and a fiance .

Lizette , Is a 18 Year old Model , New Mother and Bride to be.
You might say she has alot on her plate. But thats an understatment .
She's been juggling all this for awhile now . And Doing it without any help isn't easy but she's been alone for 2 years now. Shes managed to be okay so far
and on top of that , Her Fiance is in a boy band , but not just any boy band No , his in One Direction Only the biggets boyband in the world , and he happens to be Harry Styles.

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5. I miss You

I go pick Allyson up from her crib and lay her on my bed with me , the more i look at her the more she looks like harry.

Which makes me miss him even more , She has light brown curly hair , and hazzle eyes the look green in the light. she has deep dimples . Even though i have dimples Myself , i see harry in her . She even has his cheeky self in her . Even though harry says shes my twin ! She looks more like harry! which tears me apart , its hard trying to be strong when she looks so much like him.

And the thing i fear the most is that she wont even know him, when she begins to talk and walk.

I hate being so far away from him , but i had t move to LA theres more work for me here right now.

But hopefully soon i can go back to london , so i can have my family together .

Its not easy trying to raise a baby on your own. with no help from your family and especially having the dad traveling the world!

I have to admit , i miss Dallas and my family . It takes all the streghth in me not too just pack up and go move back to dallas. Because my life now is in LA / London . Its where i belong with my family.

Being 18 with a 5 month old and being engaged isnt no easy task.

Sometimes i do need help , but i have no one too really go to .Yeah Eleanor lives about 10 minutes away from me , but i cant go to her for every little thing! she has her own baby to take care of she doesnt need me making it more stressful on her. And i wouldnt want too. I just want harry too be here , waking up at midnight helping with Ally.

And i want him to be able to witness her first steps , her first words. i dont want him missing out on the biggest milestones in our daughters life. I understand his job is important and he loves what he does and loves making people happy.

But sometimes You have too chose your family over your carrer , because they need you more.

I wouldnt actually tell harry thats how i feel cuz he might flip out on me , but thats how i feel sometimes

that his career is more important than Ally & I . and it hurts but its true.

He really needs to get his piroraties straight , before he looses me and his DAughter forever.

I hate saying that , because i love harry with all my heart and my daughter deserves to have her father in her life , but when her father chooses work over her , thats when its time too cross the line and leave. even if it hurts because at the end of the day im going to do what is best for my daughter , And if that is leaving her daddy then so be it.

because i had to pass out on some great life opportunaties , but since i had my daughter i had too pass , for her . its time for him to give something up. And i really hope it isnt his family his giving up on....

 

 

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