Baby I Would

Jiley Fanfiction.

Miley's Suicidal, Alone.
Justin's Undercover at Miley's School.
Will They Fall For Each Other?
What Will Happen When He Comes Clean?
Will Their Past Catch Up With Them or Will Their Secrets Ruin Everything Before It Has The Chance.


38. Goodbye

Miley's P.O.V

i payed the taxi driver and ran up the stairs to my home, i can't believe after everything me and justin had been through, after i told him about my past he turned out to be like everyone else that i have known. is their something wrong with me? do i have a sign on me somewhere saying 'hurt me' because i don't know how much longer i can take, the one person that meant so much to me broke me AGAIN, i kept a strong front at the restaurant, instead of yelling back there all i wanted to do was break down and cry and now that i was alone, i had the chance to let go. 

i turned the key in the door and shut it behind me, sliding down the door until my butt hit the floor and buried my head in my hands, sitting there crying for quite a long time before i realized that i wasn't alone. nat came and sat down beside me, wrapping her arms around me trying her hardest to comfort me but only resulting in me breaking down further.

"i know hun, i saw it all on the news. he's not worth your tears babe, he's not worth them at all." she soothed, "and that selena girl is just silly, she's the type that want's something and ruin anything in her way even if she ends up ruining herself," 

"but he is, that's what i don't understand. no matter how many time's he hurts me i can't get him out of my mind, it's like he's my own personal drug that i just can't get enough of." i cried.

"you're in love with him mile's, you can't help that but you need to stay away from him."

"but it's not like i can just up and leave i have to go on tour with him for two years non stop as soon as this weeks through, i won't be able to get away from him, how will i be able to control myself."

"you can still be acquaintances, only talk to him if it's strictly business and nothing else, his family still loves you and i'm sure he does too, there has to be an explanation as to why he did what he did." she said peeking out the window curtains next to us, seconds later there was a knock on the door, "looks like he's here to explain." she pulled me up off the floor and brushed a stray hair out of my face before wiping away my tears, "stay strong, i'll be right in the kitchen okay?"

"i will try, thank you nat, i missed you."

"i missed you too sweety." she hugged me and left, i took a deep breath in and turned the door handle, the sound of rain hitting the floor filled the house along with the panting from justins mouth, he stood there with his hands in his pockets, every inch of him dripping wet.

"what." i spat.

"i can explain." he said, his voice filled with sadness.

"go on, i'm actually pretty interested in hearing how you would like to explain sleeping with your ex." i smiled on the verge of tears again but i had to keep up the seriousness.

"i was drugged." he breathed, "after you told me you didn't love me, i was hurt and upset like anyone would be if the person that makes up their whole world said that, i went to tim hortons, the one place where i can just sit and think. i was alone i thought until selena came up behind me and invited me to her house for dinner, i declined at first because i hate her, you and i both know how i feel about her, she convinced me into it saying there would be no funny business just a sincere apology, i accepted and we left. when i got there two trays were set up with food on them, we ate and then selena's butler brought out two drinks that were unfamiliar to me, i took a sip and that was the last thing i remembered, i woke up this morning next to her naked, for all i know we could have probably done nothing and she just stripped myself and her down next to each other and claimed to have slept with me but i saw the drug packet on the bed side table, thats when i knew what had happened. miley i wouldn't hurt you like this, i wouldn't cheat on you because you're the only girl i need, you have to believe me." he pleaded.

"t-that's just it justin, maybe if this was the first time you hurt me i would believe you but because you have hurt me many times before i just can't... e-even though it is taking all i have not to forgive you right now i just can't, i don't want to hurt anymore i don't want to cry over you again, this is it j-justin, you blew your chances with me and i can't take it anymore, i honestly thought you loved me enough not to turn out like the rest of the people in my life, i trusted you, i let my walls down and you just reminded me of why i built them in the first place." i choked out, i failed at keeping a strong front as i felt tears run down my cheeks.

"b-but i love you miley." his eyes started to water and soon enough he was crying as well, "you're my everything, you always will be, p-please don't leave me... i need you."

"i love you t-too justin i'm not going to say i don't, but i can't keep d-oing this to myself. i'm s-orry." i cried.

"w-hat about everything we have been through... are you just gonna throw it all away like it meant n-othing to you, like i was nothing." the hurt was evident in his voice.

"it m-meant everything to me, it still does but in the end i was always the one that ended up hurt and i just can't take it anymore."

"i can change..." he trailed off tears free falling from his cheeks onto his already drenched tshirt.

stepping out of the house and onto the porch, i kissed him lightly on the cheek before turning back and standing beside the door where i had previously been, "g-goodbye justin." i whispered, crying, shutting the door and breaking down as soon as i was out of sight. i knew what i had to do, i had to see them, they're the only people in my life that can make me happy now.

"nat, i'll be back... i need to visit them, it's been a while." i said as she walked through the door that lead to the kitchen into the foyer, i grabbed my coat and pulled it on.

"do you want me to come with you?" she asked knowing exactly who i was talking about.

"nah, this is something i need to do on my own for once." i admitted.

"are you sure?"

"i'm sure, i'll be okay."

"alright mile's..." she pulled me into one of her hugs and whispered in my ear, "say hi to them for me,"  i nodded as she pulled out of the hug, i took a deep breath in brushing my fingers through my hair preparing myself for what's to come next.

because i love you i might update again tonight, love you guys. thank you so much for the support! 

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