Lust, Love, Heartbreak, and a Prince

Let me ask you this, boy. If somebodies heart breaks, and nobodies around to fix it; does it still hurt? I never thought that one boy, could change my life. But in some cases, you need more than just a change. You need lust, love, a Prince...for your happily ever after....But sometimes, you need a new view, on your happy little Fairytale. I'm not sure if lust, love, or even my Prince Charming can erase the mistakes I've made, the things I've done; or heal the people I've hurt. "Hey." Harry said pulling me out of my thoughts. He smiled. Oh god, his smile, he could brighten up my whole world.".....Hey." I said looking at him and smiling back.....maybe a Prince is all I need

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19. New Girlfriend (CONTINUED)

*CONTINUED*

Romy's P.O.V.

What did I do to deserve this. I love Harry and I always will, we may fight sometimes but still. 

She's so beautiful, what if Harry likes her better?!?

"Are you fucking kidding me?!" I cry loudly looking at the guy. Tears blur my vision as I look over at my prince. His head is in his hands and I can hear him softly crying. 

"I'm sorry Romy but the press are tearing you apart and I can't have that for Harry's image." He says calmly. How the hell can he be so calm!!!

"Harry has a say in this too, doesn't he?!" I say tears still running down my cheeks. 

"No not really." 

I look back at Harry and he's staring at me tears racing down his cheeks, his face is red, hair disheveled, jaw clenched, and knuckles white from clenching his fists.

I give up.... I don't know what to do anymore; how can he love me when I just push him away. I look back at the guy with pain in my eyes but a blank expression. "Fine. I give up..." I say as I try to hide the pain in my voice, but fail.

"Romy!" The boys yell except for Harry.

"No, no, NO!!!" Harry yells standing up and running to me.

"I love you Harry.... and I'm sorry." I cry looking up at him. He cups both my cheeks, AND kisses me. "No, you're not just gonna drop off the face of the earth again. I love you too much for that to happen."

You know that quote " You can't love someone until you love yourself."

Well it's a lie, because I love Harry.... more than I love myself.

I release myself from his grip, still crying, and slowly back up. I can feel myself ready to collapse, ready to have a mental breakdown. As I turn my back my knees begin to buckle, and I fall.

Liam and Harry rush over, the boys following, to help me up. "GET OFF!!" I yell crying harder. "Romy." Niall says softly.

"No... just stop." I get up and run out the door and to the stairs. By the time I reach the lobby I'm crying hysterically. I rush to my car and drive home.

The first thing I do, is go to my room locking the door. I reach under the bed for the only thing that will calm me down, my razor. I grab a towel from the bathroom and place it underneath my bum. Taking my jeans off, I run my fingers over the sharp edge of my security blanket. Finally, pressing the small object into my skin I drag it across the width of my thigh, creating a muscle deep cut. Repeating it over and over until my hands are covered in blood and my body goes numb.

 

As I close my eyes, I start to sing a song I heard when I was younger.

 

It started out with a razor when she was shaving her legs,

then it got to a knife when she was with her parents.

Always wearing jumpers and bangles,

and it got to a suicide attempt.

I hope you realize now, you did this yourself. How do feel, 

now she's gone and her family is torn. How do

feel now she's watching you live o-oon.

How do you feel, now she's gone and what your 

words have done. You cry can, you can try, you plea

but you're not innoce-ent .

 

I slowly start to drift into a dark, sweet bliss.

 

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I'm really sorry it's not very long, and it kinda sucks haha. It was kinda rushed because school got out early and I have a basketball game soon so yeah. But I hope you guys liked it :)

Love you guys xP

 

-JV

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