Alone.

Katie is a 17 year old struggling with friends, school and herself. Her friends have all turned against her and her smile has slowly drifted away. Shes alone and her family doesnt have a clue. She fakes a smile so people dont ask questions. Her scars tell a story. A horrible story. No one knows she self harms, or starves herself. She hates everything about her. But then summer comes along and for the first time in a long time she has a real smile. She gets to go to California to stay with her aunt. She is just happy she is away from everything. When she boards the plane an unfamiliar tall handsome man came up to her and asked her a question, "Is this seat taken?" That one question changed her life. How? Read to find out. :) Enjoy.

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6. Still Here.

“1,2,3 CLEAR!” The doctor yelled.

I had been rushed to the hospital after a girl saw me laying on the floor, dead.

“Again!” The doctor yelled.

“We’ve got a pulse!” A nurse said.

The doctors surrounded my lifeless body on the table. I was alive but it didn’t feel like it. As far as I was concerned I was waiting for my stairway to heaven. I didn’t want to be alive. No one wanted me alive. So what was the point?

“Is she okay!!!” My mother yelled.

“Yes she is stable.” The doctor replied.

“Oh my goodness I cant believe this happened to my baby.” My mom said with tears down her face.

“She will be okay ma’am.”

“When can I see her?”

“Not tonight. We need to examine her tonight, you can see her tomorrow.”

“Well then im not leaving, until I can see her.”

“Ma’am she left a suicide letter next to her body. Do you want to see it?”

“I…i…y-yeah p-please.” My mom said stuttering.

The doctor handed her the note and she read it. While she read it tears were just falling from her eyes. She covered her mouth as she read the note.

“I cant believe I didn’t see how sad she was, This is all my fault.”

“This is not your fault. This could have happened to anyone. But the good thing is that she will be okay. And she will recover. I’m sorry ma’am I need to go run some tests.”

My mom nodded her head and went to go sit down.

***3 Days Later***

Katie’s POV:

“Mom I am so sorry.” I said with tears running down my face.

“Why would you think to do that to yourself? Were you really that depressed?” My mom said rubbing my colorless arm.

“Yes I was. There was no other escape.”

“Do you regret doing it?” My mom asked.

“No.” I said not looking at her.

My mom didn’t say anything. She covered her mouth and began to sob. I really don’t regret going it. I wish the paramedics didn’t bring me back to life. I wanted to die. I deserved it. No one cared about me. That honestly was the only escape.

“Mom can you get me some water?” I asked.

“Yes, I will be right back.” My mom said walking out of the room.

A nurse walked in as my mom walked out. Since I tried to kill myself I had to have people always watching me so I wouldn’t do it again. Which I probably would try to again. Because I had no purpose.

“Here you go.” My mom said handing me some water.

“thanks.”

“I was thinking since you are going through a lot right now and I thought you should have some ‘you’ time.”

“what do you mean mom”

“Well I talked to your aunt in California if you could stay with her for a couple of months and she said that she would love that. So would you want to go down there?”

“Really? Yeah. That would help so much. I need to get out of this place. Thank you.”

“You’re welcome. I love you.”

“I love you too.”

My mom came up to me and kissed me on my cheek. She wiped the tears off my face and hugged me.

“I’ve decided to homeschool you as well.”

“Not much of a change I never had friends anyway.”

“What about Lindsey?”

“She was never my friend. She pretended to be the whole time. Everything I told her she told Caitlin and Caitlin used it against me.”

“why didn’t you tell me?”

“Because I thought you wouldn’t care.”

“Hun I may be tough on you at times but that doesn’t mean I don’t care about you. I could have fixed it.”

“I’m sorry.”

“It’s okay. I’m just glad they could save you. I don’t know what I would do if you actually did pass.”

My mom started crying even harder. I actually felt really bad for doing this to her. She did care about me. Even though I thought she didn’t. I felt so guilty.

“Mom I am so sorry. It never meant to lead up to this.” I said starting to cry again.

“Promise me that in the future if you ever have any problems you will always tell me.”

“I promise.”

“Okay good. Well you probably need to get some sleep.”

I nodded my head and drifted off into sleep.

***

I slowly opened my eyes. Shocked to see what I woke up to. Lindsey standing in front of me.

“What are you doing here?” I asked Lindsey.

“Oh my goodness you’re awake! Are you okay?”

“Answer my question.”

“I was scared. Once I heard what happened I felt so quilty. I knew it was all my fault. My fault I did this to you. You know how much that changes a person.”

“good you should feel bad. But why are you here?”

“I wanted to tell you in person how sorry I am. You have very right to not to forgive me. If I was you I wouldn’t. I just wanted to tell you that I am so sorry.”

“I tried to end my life, because of the way people treated me. That takes a huge toll on someone life. I have a lot of heeling to do.”

“I understand that. When Caitlin found out about what happened to you she didn’t care. And that’s when I realized that that’s not who I am. I don’t want to be the reason someone feels like they have end their life because of me. Although I am. And I cant even explain how bad I feel how absolutely horrible I feel. I am so sorry. I am willing to do anything to make up for the pain I have caused you. Will you ever be able to forgive me?”

“I don’t know. Its going to take a lot of time. It not going to happen over night. I’m not going back to school. I’m being homeschooled.”

“Take as much time as you need. You don’t have to be my friend or even forgive me. I just want you to know im genuinely sorry for what I did.”

“Like I said its going to take a lot of thinking, healing, and time.”

“Yes it will. Anyway I got these flowers for you and this bear. I’ll leave you so you can think. I’ll come back later if you want me to.”

“We will see.”

Lindsey nodded her head and left the room. I couldn’t believe Lindsey actually came by to say sorry. I don’t know if she really means it or not. Only time will tell.  

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