A Promise Is A Promise

*Sequel to What Are The Odds* Hailey and Sam have been away from the boys while they were touring Europe when the boys decided to surprise the two girls by flying them out to London after their tour for the summer, what will happen to Hailey and Harry? Sam and Niall are as strong as ever but will Harry live up to protecting Hailey? Will he keep his promises to Hailey and her friend/ex-boyfriend Jake? What happens when the girls have to leave and start college?

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6. Chapter 5

HAILEY'S POV

I took in a shaky breath whipping under my eyes with the sleeve of my sweatshirt leaning up against the wall. "Are you alright?" someone asked from behind me.

I turned around to see Zayn standing behind me. "It's just hard you know."

Zayn nodded. "I understand..."

"Do you?..."

"Yes, Niall tolled us what happened." Zayn said scratching the back of his head. "She's your best friend, if one of the boys was going through the same thing I would be the same way you are right now."

"I just.... I don't know what to do." I choked out, a new set of tears threatening to spill out. Zayn looked at me with sad eyes.

"There isn't much you can do."

"Well I can't exactly sit here and do nothing."

"You'll figure something out, but right now don't let it get you down, you two just need to talk... and not in the hospital, but privately." Zayn said bringing me in for a hug. I wrapped my arms around his waist burying my head in his shirt. I could always count on Zayn to be there to talk to, Louis would cheer me up, but Zayn gives the best advice.

"I just hate seeing her like this." I mumbled into his shirt.

"I know" he whispered. "We all do."

"Yo! Zaynster, Hailz. we're going back to Liam's house for some movies." I heard Louis call. Zayn pulled me out from our hug and I turned around to see Louis standing behind me.

"Alright." I smiled weakly.

Louis gave me a sorry look. "It’s hard, but we all just have to be here for her." Louis said putting his arm around my shoulder leading me to where Harry and Liam were now standing.

"Where's Sam and Niall?" I asked

Liam pointed to the door that was closed across the hallway "In there, the Doctor wanted to speak to both of them, it could be a while, and they said they would meet us back at the house." Liam explained.

Harry put his arm around my waist pulling me close to him, and out of Louis grip. I watched as Louis pouted crossing his arms over his chest, I looked over to Harry so see that he was sticking his tongue out at Louis. "Be nice." I said smacking Harry on the chest. He looked down at me with a smirk before whipping his thumb over my tear stained cheek and kissing me on the forehead.

"I am being nice." Harry said giving Louis a playful glare.

"Oh so you wouldn't mind if I did this?" Louis said putting his arm around my shoulders and pulling me over to him, I stumbled a bit over my feet before regaining my balance.

"No, now that's not playing nice." Harry said crossing his arms over his chest. This time it was Louis' turn to stick his tongue out at his best friend.

"You two are so childish." I mumbled. I was glad they were trying to cheer me up, but I couldn't get the thought out of my head that my best friend kept something so huge from me. I should have known... why didn't I figure this out sooner? I sighed looking to the ground crossing my arms over my chest.

"I think we should start heading back to my house." Liam suggested.

Louis still had his arm around my shoulder as I watched Harry walk over to the other side of Louis putting his arm around his best friend. Louis looped his arm around Harry's back playfully resting his head on his shoulder. Zayn was walking in front of us talking away to Liam. I looked over my shoulder at the closed door that soon came out of my sight as we walked around the corner to the elevators.

***

"Hey... are you alright?" Harry asked. We were back at Liam's house setting up for movies Liam and Louis were arguing over which movies to watch first while Zayn we sat in a chair on the other side of the room tapping away on his phone. Harry and I were sitting on one end of the couch. My back was leaning against the armrest as I sat sideways on the slick black leather couch with my legs stretched over Harry's lap. I sighed nodding my head before resting it against the backrest. Harry looked at me with pleading eyes. I closed my eyes shaking my head this time. Harry grabbed my hand in his. "You're stressing." Harry whispered. I looked at him oddly. He just chuckled shaking his head. "My mum does the same thing, she clenches her fists and cracks her knuckles when she's stressed, and you've been doing that for the past hour." he explained un clenching my fingers and messaging my hand. "It'll be ok." he whispered as he pulled me closer so I was fully sitting in his lap.

"I'm just worried." I whispered putting my head on his shoulder.

"We all are." He said cradling me in his arms.

"Have you boys picked out a movie to watch?" Zayn finally asked lifting his head from his phone to look at the two boys sitting in front of the TV looking through movies.

"No we have not." Liam said in annoyance.

Zayn pulled himself up off the couch walking over to the boys, picking a DVD up off the floor and plopping it into the player. "There now let’s stop arguing." Zayn said settling the decision.

"What movie is it?" Louis asked.

Zayn shrugged looking at the case. "The Dark Night."

"Oh man." Louis whined "we are really watching this again?"

"Well I didn't look I just picked the first one I saw." Zayn argued sitting back in the chair he had claimed.

"Shh... it’s starting." Liam said excitedly. He hadn't even made it to the couch, instead he was sitting cross legged practically right in front of the television. Louis huffed sulking to the couch and forcefully plopping down on the other side from Harry and I.

"This is so stupid." Louis mumbled with a couple more choice words that were not audible.

"Shh..." Louis shushed turning to face Louis "This is my favorite part."

"It's all your favorite part." Louis said pulling his phone out of his pocket.

Harry shook his head "Will you two quit being childish, Lou we'll watch your movie next."

"I suppose we aren't waiting for Sam and Niall?" I asked looking up at Harry. He just shrugged

"Guess not, they'll be here in a bit I'm sure." he whispered.

"Shhhhhh!" Liam demanded

"Your shushing is louder than our talking." Harry fought back.

"Whatever, movie is on, no talking." Liam said not even looking away from the screen this time.

I rested my head on Harrys shoulder as I sat across his lap, one of his arms supporting my back the other wrapped comfortably in front of me sitting in my lap. Today was exhausting and I was having a hard time keeping my eyes open. "God to sleep." Harry whispered. I looked up at him

"But I want to see Sam." I yawned.

"Don't worry I'll wake you when they get here, but if you’re tired you should sleep." Harry said stealing the blanket that was sitting on the back of the couch earlier but was now taken over by Louis.

"That's mine." Louis growled.

"Well now it’s ours." Harry smirked.

Louis sighed in annoyance before getting off the couch and leaving the living room. "Is he mad?" I asked

Harry shrugged "Who knows." he sighed putting the blanket over mostly me. Not long after Louis returned with a big duvet wrapped around him as he plopped back down on the couch.

Liam looked back a Louis when he noisily walked into the room giving a double take then giving Louis an odd look. "Is that the blanket from my room." he asked before turning back to the TV.

"Yeup." Louis said pulling his phone out again.

"Oh, ok..." He said without a second glance.

"Why?" Louis asked.

"Well just think... Danielle and I sleep in that bed... and other things." Liam explained. "And I haven't gotten a chance to do laundry today." He said looking back at Louis with a smirk.

"At this point, I don't even care." Louis mumbled.

Harry was trying his hardest to keep his laughter in. I could feel him shaking beneath me. "Harry, could you please not do that... it feels weird." I mumbled closing my eyes.

"Hm, sorry love" Harry chuckled forcing himself to stop laughing.

***

"Hailey... Wake up." Harry whispered shaking me gently.

I groaned putting my hands over my face "What."

"Sam and Niall are here."

I opened my eyes taking a glance around the room but nobody was there, it was just Harry and I. "Where?" I asked.

"They are all in the other room."

"What time is it?" I felt so disoriented, I had no clue where exactly I was or what time it was.

"Five o'clock." Harry said shifting around under me. I must have been getting heavy sitting on him for so long. I stood up letting the blanket that was around me fall to the ground. I was in pants and a sweatshirt but I felt like I was freezing. I shivered picking the blanket up off the ground and wracking it around myself. "What are you doing." Harry laughed.

 "What, it’s cold."

Harry shook his head standing up from the couch, he looked a little funny waddling to the door and I couldn't help but laugh at him. "What?"

"You look funny when you walk." I smiled

"Well my legs have been asleep for the past hour." He argued

I blushed walking over to Harry. "Sorry, you could have woken me up you know."

"It's alright. And I would have but then you started tensing up and clinging to my side, were you having a bad dream?" he asked

"I don't know... I don't remember having one...."

"Well you had the boys worried." He said putting his arm around my shoulder and bringing me closer to him before opening the door. The boys were all standing around a little counter talking as Sam sat at the kitchen table by herself. "Go talk to her." Harry whispered pushing me over to Sam before taking a spot next to Louis and Niall at the counter.

I walked over to Sam who was sitting at the table her one foot resting on her seat so her knee was bent up to her chest as her leg hung over the side of the chair. She was still dressed in  Niall's cloths. In her hand she held a mug with something in it. I took a seat on the other side of the table across from her not making eye contact. At this point I didn't really know what to say to her. I just wanted to see her to know that she was still OK.

Sam cleared he throat., "I'm sorry I didn't tell you earlier..." She mumbled "I just didn't know how."

"It's alright." I nodded readjusting the blanket that was still wrapped around me.

"It's just not something you can just come out and say." she added.

"I get it. I'm not mad."

Harry came over with a mug in his hand, setting the cup in front of me "Sorry." he apologized.

"It's fine." Sam half smiled. Harry nodded before returning to the boys. "Are you alright?" Sam asked

"Yea, I'm fine." I said picking the mug up and holding it in my hands.

"You don't look fine, like you look almost sick."

"I don't know, I'm cold, and it's kind of been a stressful day." I shrugged

"I didn't mean to scare you, honestly..."

"Sam its fine." I said standing up and coming to sit next to Sam. "So..." I said clearing my throat "How's your... uh.. y-your..."

"It's infected." Sam sighed. "It kind of hurts, but I guess that what's to be expected."

"Hey, we are starting another movie, do you two want to come and watch?" Zayn asked

I looked over at Sam who shrugged. "Sure." I said standing from my seat. "Common, we haven't watched movies together in a while." I said giving Sam a hand up. I wrapped to blanket around her too as we walked into the living room with the rest of the boys. Sam and I took a seat on the couch next to each other. Sam's head resting on my shoulder and my head resting on hers. We were curled up in the blanket together in a worm bundle. "We're still talking about this, but just not today, I think we both need to have tonight to just forget about everything that happened today, OK?" I explained Sam nodded.

"Thank you." she whispered.

"So what are we watching?" Niall asked taking a seat next to Sam and placing his hand gently on her knee.

"Spiderman!" Louis said with a wide grin.

"Oh man, what’s with all the superhero movies?" Harry complained as he took a seat next to me.

I shot my head up looking at Harry "Batman is not a superhero."  I argued “He has no super powers. He is just a rich man with fancy equipment.” I shrugged. The rest of the boys looked at me with amused faces but one stuck out in particular and that was Liam’s .

“He is definitely a superhero!” he scowled.

“Sorry to burst your bubble, but he’s really not.” I said matter-of-factly.

“You know nothing!” Liam said with a glair

“Oh, I know my superhero’s… trust me, I know more than you think.”

Liam scoffed “Yea right.”

“What, just because I’m a girl doesn’t mean I’m not into superhero’s… trust me, I’m not one of those girls who will walk around wearing a Superman shirt and only wearing it because Clark Kent is Hot  and only knowing that he can fly, or wearing it because my favorite band members wear Superman Shirts.” I smirked looking over to Louis who was sitting on the ground between Harry’s legs. “Besides, I just used Clark Kent.. Most girls wouldn’t even know who Clark Kent is if I brought it up.” I said looking Liam dead in the eye.

“She’s got a point.” Sam said lifting her head from my shoulder. “You’re not going to win with her.” She said resting her head on Niall’s shoulder. “Trust me, she’s just as stubborn as I am.”  She yawned.

“ Fine.” Was all Liam said before putting the CD in the DVD player and taking a seat next to Louis on the ground, right in front of me. I sat cross legged on the sofa with the blanket wrapped around me with a smug look on my face as the opening scene came on the screen. I felt Harry’s hand make its way to my upper thigh giving it a gentle squeeze. I turned to look at Harry who was looking at the movie playing on the TV. He looked so relaxed, the whole room felt relaxed with all of us finally together. But I still couldn’t get what Sam had told me out of my head when you go back home I'm staying here is she really thinking that staying here is going to fix all her problems? You can’t just run away from them that easily.

“Hailey.” I read Harry whisper. I looked up and he put his arm around my waist pulling me closer to him. “Quit worrying, you can see she’s fine.” He whispered in my ear.

“I just can’t let it go.” I whispered back shaking my head.

“I understand, do you want to talk later, when we get home?” he asked. I nodded my head  before I rested my head on his lap, on my back looking up at Harry who looked down at me sticking his tongue out at me. I smiled before sticking my tongue out at him. He smirked  before leaning down, I quickly covered my face with my hands to block him. I heard Harry sigh before prying my hands from my face. His face was inches from mine when he uncovered my face. My hands were caught in his as I tried to get them free.

“Will you two cut it out already.” Louis said. I looked over to see that Louis was looking at Harry and me.

“Oh like you and El aren’t all coupley, when you two are together.” Harry noted.

“Oh Louis you love us.” I teased.

“Well just stop moving.” Louis said turning back to watch the film.

“I think we have annoyed almost everybody in the room tonight.” I smirked.

“No, I think just Louis.” Harry commented.

“Yeah, someone is in a pissy mood today.” I joked.

“Will you guys please shut up already?” Zayn said from his spot on the chair.

 Harry and I looked at each other with worried faces. “Maybe we should stop now.” I whispered, is Zayn was getting annoyed, we were definitely getting annoying. Harry nodded letting go on my hands and placing one on my stomach and the other on the arm rest. I turned to watch the movie, we still weren’t very far into the movie, just at the part where peter parker was discovering he could shoot webs.

 

We were about halfway through the movie when I started to get bored. Deciding I was going to poke around with Louis. He was still sitting between Harry’s legs on the ground; his eyes fixed on the TV. I reached over talking a single strand of hair and gently pulling on in. not enough to pull it out but just enough for him to feel it. Quickly I put my hand down and watched as Louis raised his hand to his head running it through his hair. I smiled to myself and repeated it again once he had rested and put his hand back down. Once again he ran his hand through his hair. This time I leaned over slightly and lightly blew on the top of his head. And once again he repeated what he had done before. I was having a really hard time keeping laughter in. I felt Harry tighten his grip around my waist. I looked up at him and he was watching me. His head was propped up by his hand that was resting on the armrest. His face held a smile, and he too was also holding back his laughter. I reached back over to Louis flicking him in the ear. Louis calmly took on a sharp breath before standing to his Feet and walking over to the other side of Liam and sat down on the ground in front of where Sam was sitting. It felt like the whole room had paused. Everyone looking over at Louis as Harry and I sat on the couch holding in our laughter.

“I’m sick of you two.” Louis snarled. “Steeling my blanket, acting all coupley, and now playing around.” He mumbled to himself.

“Oh suck it up.”   Harry said with a hint of laughter.

Louis turned to glare at Harry, crossing his arms over his chest and looking back at the screen. I bit down my laughter pulling myself up off of Harry and making my way over to where Louis was sat on the ground. I took a seat in his lap wrapping my arms around his neck. "Aww Boo Bear I'm sorry." I pouted.

Louis chuckled shaking his head. "Nah, I can't stay mad at you."

"Good." I smiled. "Now let’s finish watching this movie." I said turning to face the TV.

"Hey, what about me!" Harry exclaimed.

I shrugged my shoulders not taking my eyes off the television. Louis playfully wrapped his arms around my waist bringing me closer to him. I looked over at Harry who had his eyes glued on Louis, but his friend didn't seem to care. I smiled at Harry giving him a playful wink before turning to face the TV. We were at the part where Pater Parker sees a crowd of people on the road and that’s when he finds out his uncle Ben has been shot. "I hate this part." Louis whispered.

"So do I, it’s just so horrible." I whispered back, my eyes fixed on the film playing across the screen.

"It's so great to have everyone back together, like last summer." Louis sighed.

I turned to face Louis. "Only better." I smiled giving him a hug.

"I think Harry is getting mad." Louis chuckled.

"Oh you noticed?" I laughed. "He'll get over it."

Louis pushed me off of him. "Go see Harry." he smiled.

I sighed as I made me way back over to Harry, he was still sitting with his arms crossed over his chest looking at the closing scene of the movie. "Hazza..." I taunted poking him in the arm, he kept no emotion on his face as he watched the scene play out. I had memorized the scene, my brother and I used to watch it all the time when we were kids. Marry tells Parker that she loves him and they kiss... blah, blah, blah... "Harry" I said poking him in the cheek this time. He held back a smile and I knew I was breaking through. I smiled to myself before sitting on his lap. Harry tried to look around me but I blocked his view. I leaned in to Harry and he moved his head further away. I pouted crossing my arms over my chest. Harry smirked sticking his tongue out at me. I stuck my tongue out at him then went to jump off of him to the other side of the couch where Sam and Niall were sitting but Harry grabbed my waist preventing me from moving. "NO!" I shouted "Sam, save me!" I called. Sam looked over with a smirk.

"You're on your own." she laughed.

"Some friend you are!"

"You love me." she winked

I struggled to in Harry's arms trying to unlink his arms from my waist but he continued to keep a firm grip. "Let me go!" I said using all my power to pry his arms from me.

"Hmm, no ." Harry said before standing up and bringing me with him.

"Sam, Sam, Sam!" I called over my shoulder a Harry continued to walk into another room.

"Bye!" Sam teased

I huffed when Harry kicked the door open and going into the kitchen "Put me down you big meanie!" I said kicking my legs around. Harry laughed before putting me on the ground. I turned to face Harry. "That wasn't nice." I huffed.

"Sure it was." Harry smirked.

"Why are we in here anyways?" I asked

"I really have no clue." Harry laughed. I huffed before I turned to head for the door before I felt Harry’s hand on my wrist pulling me closer to him, my back hitting his hard chest. “Are you alright?” Harry whispered in my ear as he held a firm grip on my sides.

I closed my eyes sucking in a breath of air. “I really don’t know.” I said swallowing the lump in my throat.

“Do you want to go home?” He asked tracing little circles on my hip with his index finger.

“Sure.” I said my voice barely above a whisper.

“Well lets go say bye everybody, and we will talk when we get home alright?”

I nodded before Harry let me go pushing me into the other room. I stumbled through the door to see that Niall and Sam were saying their Good Byes to the fest for the boys. “Hey, we are going to head home.” Niall called as Harry and I entered the living room.

“Yeah, I think we are going to head out too.” Harry said.

“Don’t forget we have a meeting in the recording studio tomorrow.” Liam called.

“Looks like I already forgot.” Harry said rubbing the back of his neck “Sorry Hailey.” He said

I shrugged. “It gives me some time away from you.” I smirked.

“Harsh!” Harry said faking hurt. “How about Sam comes over tomorrow yea?” he suggested turning to look at Niall.

“If Sam wants to.” Niall agreed.

“Oh yes she does.” I said giving her a look.

“Yeah, I think we need a girl’s day.” Sam smiled.

I walked over to Sam giving her a hug. “We talk tomorrow no matter what, got it?” I whispered before pulling her out at arm’s length Sam nodded. “Good I’ll see you tomorrow.” I smiled.

Niall came over putting his arm around Sam. “Well we should be heading home.” Niall said.

“We’ll come out with you.” Harry said picking his phone up off the couch.

“Bye guys!” I called over my shoulder as I want to grab my shoes.

“Bye Hailey!” Zayn called out first.

I smiled “Bye Zaynie!”” I mimicked.

The four of us stepped out of Liam’s house, it had stopped raining by mow but the air was still very muggy and wet.

“So, I’ll see you tomorrow.” Harry said pulling his keys out of his pocket. “Bye Sam.” Harry said bringing her in for a hug. He whispered something to her and she nodded before they pulled away and she whipped her eyes with her sleeve. “See ya mate.” Harry said ruffling Niall’s still very tousled hair.

***

“Ok, so what did Sam tell you.” Harry asked as soon as we walked through his front door.

I sighed “She’s just trying to run away from her problems.” I ranted. “She told me she was going to stay here, and go to school here. I mean she always said she wanted to go as far away from home as possible, but I never thought she would go this far, well not this soon anyways. Sam is the only true friend I have ever had, besides Jake she has been with me through so much. I mean we have only known each other for a few years, but she’s like my sister, and I just have a hard time knowing that she isn’t going to be around anymore. It’s even worse that she never came to talk to me sooner, it sort of makes me feel like she doesn’t trust me… I just… I just don’t know what to do.” I explained whipping the tears from my eyes. I was leaning up against the wall in the front hallway my eyes fixed on the ground. Harry stood there silent for a while before stepping closer and lifting my chin up to look at him.

“I understand, but you have to think about how hard this all is for her too, and right now I think she needs her friend, and she wants you to be strong, and that’s what you have to do, just be glad you still have her here.” Harry said bringing me in for a hug.

“I feel so pathetic, I have never cried this much, and lately it feels like all I have been doing is crying.” I mumbled into his shirt.

“You’re not pathetic, you’ve just been strong for too long.” Harry said, running his hands through my hair. “Even the best get knocked down sometimes, and that includes both you and Sam.” I kept my face buried in his shirt for quite some time. “Hailey, I think I should head to bed soon, I go back to work tomorrow morning.”

“I think I’m going to call Jake.” I said pulling away whipping under my eyes with the back of my hand.

“Ok.” Harry nodded, giving me a kiss and walking up the stairs to his bedroom.

I waited till he was in his room till I finally walked into the living room. I picked up the phone and dialed Jakes number; it rang a few times before Jake answered. “Hello?”

“Hey, Jake.” I sighed taking a seat on the couch and pulling my knees up to my chest.

“Hailey! How are things, when were you going tell me about you and Harry?” He joked

“I’m sure you already saw that coming.” I chuckled.

“Yeah, I did, so what up? Isn’t it pretty late?”

“Nothing really I just needed someone to talk to and it’s about 10 pm.” I shrugged

“Why, what’s going on?” Jake asked his tone changing from joking to serious.

“Nothing really, it’s just Sam, I don’t really want to talk about it right now, I just want to think about something else.”

“I understand, but I want to know what happened to Sam at some point, Where’s Harry?”

“He was heading to bet, he has some recording to do in the morning.”

“Oh I see… well what have you been up to over there, I’m kind of disappointed that this is going to be the first year in a long time that I haven’t spent your birthday with you.” Jake said sounding a bit disappointed.

“We haven’t really done much, just mostly hung, out and did some catching up, oh yea… I honestly completely forgot about my birthday.”

“You what!”

“What… I forgot. I haven’t really been paying attention to the date. So what have you been doing?” I asked.

“Not a whole lot, just getting ready for University is all.” Jake explained, this was horrible; Jake was moving to Ottawa to go to university, Sam was staying in London and all I was doing was going two hours away from home to Toronto, I wasn’t going to be near anybody, my two best friends were going to be so far away. “Hailey, are you alright?”

“Hmm? Oh yea, I’m fine.” I said breaking away from my thoughts. Just then the phone was lifted from my hand; I looked up to see Harry. He placed the phone to his ear and began to talk to Jake.

“Hello…. Jake…. Yea it’s been going good… yes I have, just like I promised…” Harry said

“Hey give that back!” I called Harry just made his way into the kitchen, I wasn’t in the mood to go after him so I let him go with the phone. Moments later Harry came back into the room and put the phone back on the stand.

“Jake said bye.” Harry smirked.

“What was that for?” I asked crossing my arms over my chest.

“Nothing just needed to talk to Jake.” Harry shrugged.

“I thought you were going to bed.”

“I was, but the thing is, I couldn’t sleep.” Harry said rubbing the back of his head with his hand.”

“Oh? And why is that.” I asked

“Because something is missing…” Harry said as he walked over to the front of me pretending to think.

“And what might that be?” I challenged.

Harry leaned down, his arms supporting himself on either side of my head resting them on the back of the couch. Our faces were inches away. “You.” He whispered before lifting me in his arms and carrying me up to his room.

***

“Hailey, Sam is here, I have to go.” Harry whispered I opened my eyes, the room was bright and it made my head throb, I groaned in response. “Are you feeling alight?” Harry asked putting a hand on my cheek, his hands felt cold for some reason and it made me shiver. “You have a fever, Maybe I should stay…” He suggested

“No, go you have work to do… I’ll be fine.” I mumbled

“Are you sure?” he asked

“Positive, you have very important people to meet with and Sam is here… I’ll be fine I swear.” I said sitting up in the bed.

“I’ll be home around three.” Harry said checking his watch. “Shit… I’m going to be late.”

Just then Sam knocked on the door. “Niall says hurry up.” Sam explained.

“Yes I’m coming.” Harry said grabbing his phone from the night stand. “I’ll see you girls later.” Harry called before giving me a kiss on the forehead. “Feel better.” He said with a sorry look.

“Just go already.” I chuckled.

“Alright, bye.” Harry said before hurrying out the door.

“You look like shit.” Sam said taking a seat on the end of the bed.

“I feel like shit.” I groaned. “My head hurts.”

“How did you get so sick?” Sam asked coming to sit next to me.

“I don’t know…” I shrugged. “It might have been when Harry and I had the Mud fight in the front yard yesterday morning.” I smiled.

“Yea… that might have done it...”

Sam and I stayed silent for a while, none of us really knew what to say, but I couldn’t take the silence any longer, both of us knew what was on our mind, one of us just had to be the first to speak. “So did you talk to Niall about staying here?” I finally asked.

“I did.” Sam said looking at her lap.

“And...”

“He’s excited; he told me he would love for me to stay.”

I was happy for her, but I was still hoping the deep down inside she would re-think all of this, that somewhere in her head she was saying this was a bad idea, that she didn’t really want to leave, that she would quit trying to run away from everything instead of dealing with her problems, why she doesn’t talk to someone. “Well I’m happy if you’re happy.” I sighed.

“Hailey you have to believe that I have been wanting to talk to you about it, but at the time you had your own problems with Blake, then Harry came along and you were finally happy, and I didn’t want to be so negative, and I didn’t like bringing everything down because of me.”

“Sam don’t ever think that you can’t talk to me, I really do want to be there for you, you have been there for me through so much, the least I could do is be there for you. I want you to know that no matter what the situation is you can come to me.” I explained.

Sam nodded her head. “I know, sometimes I just don’t know what to do.”

“Well I don’t know firsthand what depression feels like, but I really want to be here for you to at least talk to.”

“It’s just…. I don’t know… I just feel so locked up inside so scared and numb.” She started to explain while holding back tears. “How am I supposed to just randomly blurt out that I’m depressed and need help? You are my only best friend, but up until now I really haven’t told anyone.” She said he voice cracking with every word. “It… it’s just hard pretending everything is fine when in reality nothing is. Everything is just falling apart and I feel like I can’t stop it. It just makes me so angry sometimes.” She said in frustration. “At random times I just feel like breaking down, and everyone keeps telling me it’s going to get better, but it hasn’t it’s just gotten worse and I don’t know how to control it.” I really felt bad, Sam was practically my sister and I felt helpless. “I just want to be happy, and actually feel it, I want to smile and not feel like I’m cracking. Sometimes I get so lost in my head in thought that nothing around me exist, like I don’t even exist. It’s heart breaking to feel this way and I don’t know why.” She took a shaky breath looking at me, and for the first time I could see in her eyes that she was truly hurting, that this was just tearing her apart. “I used to be so happy, now… now I’m just some weird messed up kid who can’t help but feel sad and numb.”

“I understand that it’s hard to tell someone you’re depressed and I get that. But you also have to think of it from my point of view too, one of the best friends is going through a hard time and what do I do? Just sit there and watch? I can’t just act like it’s nothing when really it’s a huge deal and it’s hard on me knowing that I don’t know what to do to help, I really do want to help, but I know that all I can do is just be there for you to talk to. You just have to stop pushing people away, people really do care about you and you have put these blinds up to protect yourself and you don’t even realize that there really are people who care for you, you aren’t just some girl that is just there, if you were gone people would notice, you have a great impact on many people’s lives, and so many people would love to see you happy and would love to help you out but you just push people away and you just keep digging a hole, and soon enough it’s going to be so big you can’t get out of it, if you quit pushing everyone away you wouldn’t have to get out of that hole alone. I wish I could tell you it gets better. And chances are it actually will. It just has to get worse before it gets better, it’s always darkest before the light, you have to just hang in there, you have a life ahead of you Sam, you are young, and have such a bright future, just don’t let your life now ruin it for later. And I know that personally I will be there every step of the way.” I explained to her.

“I’m trying, honestly I am, I just think that being here, and having Niall and everyone here has been helping me. I feel that being here I have a purpose, and I feel like I can do it. I know how bad of a friend I have been to you by not telling you, and it kills me now to think about keeping this from you.” Sam said sincerely “I just feel like people are going to think I’m some sort of attention seeker, but I can’t control the way I act, or what I feel.”

“Don’t be sorry.” I explained. “It’s hard on you and it’s a very touchy subject for everyone, I would never think of you as an attention seeker.” I said. Sam had tears running down her face as she tried to wipe them away only to be replaced by more. “I’m glad you are trying to get better and, if that means leaving me and staying here then you should, Niall loves you and I know he is going to watch out for you.” I said, I was still upset at the fact that she was going to be so far away, but if it made her happy it would be the best, I don’t want her to go back home to something that is only going to make things worse for her. Maybe she really wasn’t running away from her problems, maybe this would fix everything?      

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