This Is Why I Hate Uni

My best friend is gone. He has left me to live without him.
“Excuse me miss, this was found. Its for you” I stood in the doorway of his room while they bagged his body downstairs. I could hear the cries of his mum, and sisters. The paramedic handed me the letter.
Ruby Taswatt
It read. I can’t read this. If I read it then that means he is really gone.

1 Year later
He’s annoying, a giant flirt and above all a little smart ass. However I need a place to stay and there is no way I can stay at home, there are to many memories, I’m surprised I made it through the second half of senior year without him. Still haven’t read the letter though. It could be worse, I could have a ditsy blonde bimbo slut as a roommate instead of this ladies man. Well I guess this is how I’ll live while at Universaty. Without my best friend, living with someone who brings home a different girl every second night. Great.


10. Who I Was

Ruby's POV

I need to know. I have to. Amy had study group so she left. This was the perfect time. So why couldn't I find the right words to say?

"Ruby?" Harry asked, his eyes searched mine but I ignored the green orbs and went and sat at the edge of his bed.

"Why, why did you read it? The letter. Are you nosey or something or what? I just don't get why someone would do that?" I said finally. I played with the bracelet round my wrist avoiding Harry's gaze. Soon enough though I felt the bed sink and Harry's hand wrapped around mine. 

"I-I can't give you a proper answer. I guess I am nosey but I've seen you sit at your desk and just look at it some many times. I got curious. I'm so so sorry. " He squeezed my hand as he spoke and intertwined them hesitantly. I squeezed back to reassure him. 

"Please forgive me. I don't want to lose you." Harry whispered the last bit so quietly I had to guess if he really said it but when he placed a light kiss on my hand I knew I heard right. 

"I'm guessing Zayn told you about our um history?" I asked carefully. I don't want him thinking I was ignoring his last comment but I sort of was. I mean what do I say to it?! 

"Um yea?" He nodded. I looked up at the doorway scared and I think he noticed because he squeezed my hand almost to say keep going. 

"Who I was back then. I don't like her. I don't want to be her again and every time I'm with you she seems to be able to slip through the cracks. I'm usually able to stop her but sometimes I just can't." I paused looking at Harry finally. 

"I don't want to be her Harry, I can't. But I do like you and I don't even know why, I mean I used to hate you completely but-" I paused, I've run out of words to portray how I'm feeling. I can't do this. I can't be in the same apartment as him and feel this way. I need to get away. School break is in a week maybe I can get away then. Go someplace that isn't here. 

"I-I don't know what to say." Harry whispered. I nodded and buried my face in my hands. I just want to hide as of now. From everything and everyone. He put his arm around me and pulled me into his chest. 



It's been almost a week since that rather confession with Harry went down. Since then I've been staying at Amy's and the only time I've seen Harry is yesterday when I was walking to class. He was down the hall and just have me this sad half smile before turning back to his friends. 

“So where are you going to go if you want to get away?” Amy asked while we sat in the library, her textbooks scrawled out around us while mine were still in my bag, only a novel out of my bag as I tried to read however Amy had other ideas and wanted to talk about, well, everything.

“Are you going to go home, back to Bradford?” And apparently everything includes Bradford…how about we not go there. Never, ever, ever, no, I refuse.

“Yea how about no to Bradford.” I replied simply, she better get the message. I don’t want to go home, there are to many memories and knowing my mother she’ll try to set me up with someone, I would like to see Taylor, my brother, again though. I’ll call him tonight and see.

“Okay maybe not Bradford, I did hear from Niall that uh Zayn is going back for the holidays-“

“Yea let’s not go there Amy, please” I interrupted her. That shut her up for good. Amy went back to her books as I did mine, where was I up to?


Harry’s POV

“Have you heard from her?” Louis asked me while we sat in his and El’s flat playing Fifa. No, I haven’t, I haven’t even seen her at the apartment or passed Rubz in the hall.

“The closest I’ve gotten to even seeing her is from across the room when she was walking into class. There’s no hope Lou, I’ve lost her for good.” I whispered the last words under my breath. I’ve lost her. The words echoed in my brain over and over.

I’ve lost her

I. Have. Lost her.

For good.

“Fuck I can’t do this anymore.” I said chucking the controller onto the floor in front of me. Eleanor jumped from the floor where she was studying while Louis looked at me with his eyebrows raised waiting for me to reply.

“I have to talk to her! I have to make this right! I can’t just sit here for Christ sake! I have to get her back, SHES SUPPOSED TO BE MINE!” I yelled getting up from my seat. I stormed to the door grabbing my coat and car keys on my way.

“Harry-“ Louis started but I cut him off by slamming the door in his face. She’s fucking mine and I’m getting her back, I don’t care if she’s scared I’ll keep her safe.


Ruby’s POV

“Why don’t you just go back to see Taylor?” Amy asked over lunch. That is a good point I must admit, but Zayn is going back home as well. UGH all the decision making!

“I don’t know, yes I want to go see Taylor but-UGH, no! Zayn, no! James, no!” I said getting up and going to my room. This is not happening my lord.


Okay so I’m going to see Taylor, AND THAT’S IT! Just Taylor, no Zayn Just three nights that’s it.  Its 3pm now and I’m taking a bus in half an hour.

“Text me when you get there?” Amy asked as she got my suitcase out of the boot at the bus station.

“Dude I’ll be on a bus for hours I’ll be texting you through out the journey.” I replied, she laughed at me nodding her head in agreement.

I waved goodbye as she drove off down the road, 25 minutes left till my bus leaves…great; in my headphones go.




Harry’s POV

I drove to Amy’s, I knew that was where she was staying, and there’s nowhere else she’d go. Knocking on the door I couldn’t stand still overwhelmed with anticipation.

“Woah Harry what the hell.” Amy opened the door in her pyjamas, isn’t it only about quarter past three?

“Where’s Rubz?” My voice was frantic but I needed to see her, now!

“She’s about to catch a bus to Bradford why?” She asked slowly. WHAT?! NO! I need to talk to her before she leaves. No, why is this happening?

“What bus stop?” I asked quickly jumping down the steps towards my car.

“Uhh the one round the corner from the library.” She called to me, I waved a thanks and then set off to get Ruby.

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