Forbidden Love

Alana grew up in a military family in California. She finished high school early at 16 years old and went through schooling to be a body guard. She is one of few female body guards. When she aplies for a job as a body guard for a popular boy band that she has never heard of before, One Direction. She develops feelings for Louis that she doesn't want to adress. But is her will power strong enough to keep her feelings hidden from him and everyone else?


5. Deepest darkest secrets

Alana's P.O.V.

I knock on Louis' hotel room door. I hear him run inside his room and the door opens. He pulls me inside and shuts the door. "Hello, love.", he says. "Where's the rest of the guys?", I ask. "When you left I told them to come up in an hour. So that gives forty minutes of alone time." I smile.


He places his hand lightly on my cheek and pulls me in for a kiss. My hands tangle in his hair. His hands move to my waist. He pushes me towards the bed. I fall back and he falls with me. When I land on the bed and I gasp and break away from the kiss.


I walk up to the door and knock lightly on it. Mr. Johnson opens the door with a smile, but he looks a bit different today, looks sort of drunk honestly. "Ready to help with my math homework?", I ask. "Of course.", he says and steps aside and lets me in. As soon as I'm in he closes the door and locks it. 'What the hell?', I think before brushing it off thinking it was nothing. But it wasn't nothing. I only realized that when he slammed me up against the wall. I let out a small yelp in shock. Confusion and fear races through my mind as he forcefully kisses me and starts pulling at my clothes.  "Stop, please.", I beg. He slaps me across the face. "Shut up.", he hisses.  The rest after that is a terrifying and painful blur.

*End of Flashback*


"Whats wrong? Did I hurt you?", Louis asks worriedly. "No", I say and a tear falls down my face. "Then whats wrong?", he asks. I sit up on the bed and ask, "Do you know why I act so tough?" "Because you grew up in a military family.", he says with a confused look on his face. "That's only part of it. When I was thirteen I....", I take a deep breath and looked at Louis. "You what?", he asks. "I was raped.", I say. I have the hardest time getting these words out. I've never told anyone about this before. "What?", he whispers in disbelief. I take a deep breath before explaining, "There was a teacher at my school that was like a second father to me. One day I went to his house so he could help me with my homework like he had many times before. This time was different. As soon as I was inside he locked the door and raped me. He told me that if I ever told anyone he would kill me. I didn't know how to handle the mental and emotional scars so I started stealing alcohol from my father hoping to drown out my issues. It just made it worse. My father came home one day while I was drunk and crying. I refused to tell him exactly what happened but I told him that I wanted to be able to defend myself so I could never feel helpless again. From that day on I started building up my muscle and building walls around my mind to keep myself from getting hurt."


 I look up at Louis and he has tears falling down his face now. He says nothing so I say, "When you pushed me down on the bed I had a flashback to what my teacher had done to me." I sit in silence looking at Louis for a while. "I'm so sorry, Alana.", he says. "It's okay. I want to be able to be with you in every way someday but it will take a lot of work to get there. If you are patient with me I will be very much grateful, but if you aren't willing to take your time with me than I will understand if you want to leave me. I'm used to it, every guy I've ever kissed left after I got a flashback.", I say looking back down on the bed.


What is it about Louis that makes me comfortable to tell him my deepest darkest secrets. "I'm staying.", he says stubbornly. I lean forward and give him a quick peck on the lips. I pull away and he puts his hands on the sides of my face and wipes my tears with his thumbs. That makes me smile. I sigh and stand up from the bed. I walk to the bathroom and try to make it look like I haven't been crying. I do pretty well with that, my eyes are just a little bit red.


I hear the door open. I walk out of the bathroom to see all of the boys standing just inside the door. "Hello.", I say. "Hey!", Zayn, Liam, Niall, and Harry say in unison. I sit on the bed next to Louis, but make sure to keep my distance from him. "So we were thinking of watching a movie tonight. Would you like to watch a movie or do something else, Alana?", asks Liam. "A movie would work, as long as it's not a sad one.", I say. "Well than that eliminated a few movies. Now we have Hangover part 2, Blaire Witch Project, The Shining, and Paranormal activity. Which one would you like?", asks Harry. 


"Um, Hangover is not my type of movie, Paranormal activity isn't that scary, and I have seen The Shining, so I'm gonna go with Blaire Witch Project.", I say. I'm not a fan of horror films but I'm not going to watch Hangover movies, not my type of movie at all. "Is everyone okay with that?", asks Liam. Everyone agrees with it.


Niall, Zayn, Harry, and Liam sit on the couch and I sit on the bed with Louis. As the movie is starting I whisper to Louis, "You should know that I'm terrible with horror films. I always end up screaming during the movie or hiding my face so I can't see the movie." "Don't worry, love. If you get scared you can cuddle against me.", he says with a smirk on his face. I elbow him in the arm and lay on my stomach on the bed so I can see the movie better. Louis lays down next to me.


Just as the movie is beginning I get freaked out by the introduction noise and scream. All of the guys jump and look at me. "Sorry, I'm not very good with horror films.", I say. They all brush that off and return their eyes to the film. I feel Louis slide a little bit closer to me. Every time something scares me  Louis moves slightly closer to me. Eventually I have my back pressed against his stomach and his arms are wrapped around my waist.


After the movie is done and the lights come back on I move a safe distance away from Louis. "How about we play truth or dare?", suggests Harry. "I'm fine with it.", I say and all of the boys agree. We all sit down in a circle on Louis' bed. "I'll go first. Alana, truth or dare?", Harry asks. "Truth.", I pick. He gets a cheeky grin on his face and I think 'oh shit'. "Why were you and Louis cuddled together during the movie?", he asks. "Because I hate scary movies and he was trying to comfort me.", I say. "Sure.", he says. "It's true.", I say. "I think you two fancy each other.", he says. "No, I don't feel that way about him.", I say. "Are you sure?", he asks. "Yes, Harry. Now drop the subject before I knock that cheeky smile off of your face.", I say jokingly.


"Alright. Zayn, your turn to ask somebody.", says Harry. "Louis, truth or dare?", Zayn asks Louis. "Dare!", says Louis proudly. "I dare you to.... uh... kiss Alana for a minute straight.", Zayn says. "No! I can lose my job for kissing him!", I say. "It's just a dare, we wont tell anyone about it.", says Zayn. Should I trust them to keeping a kiss between us? I don't really have time to think about it before Louis turns my face and kisses me. I let him kiss me and decide to kiss him back. I want to bury my hands in his hair, but I refrain from doing so and grab onto the blanket beneath me instead. I hear a few whistles from the guys around us and I feel Louis smile on my lips.


"Your minute's done.", says Zayn. Louis pulls away and smiles at me. Damn it, there is something about his smile that makes me want to kiss him again. "Well it seems like you enjoyed that after all.", teases Harry. "Shut up. You guys better not tell anyone, I could lose my job for doing that.", I say and blush. "We promise.", they all say. After our hilarious game of truth or dare I decide to head back to my room for the night. 

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