Homeless.

The moment his emerald green eyes captured mine I couldn’t believe that I was staring at such beauty. The way the warm England breeze blew threw his wild curls instantly made him look like a model. But, I could only imagine what he thought of me. A girl with dirt stains on her pants and shirt, uncombed hair, and holey shoes. I was just the homeless girl.

His world was obviously so different than mine.

Just for a second I swore I could have seen deep dimples on the side of his cheeks as a small smile appeared on his face. “Uh did you not hear me? Get out of here!” the security guard asked. I regrettably tore my eyes away from the boy and nodded “Okay. Sorry again” I whispered.

“Mina…is dat boy got lotsa money?” she asked.

I chuckled and whispered “Yea. I think so” I said and continued down the long path exiting the wealthy neighborhood. “Mina and Izzy don’t got money wite?” she said.

She was right...we had nothing. We were homeless.

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13. Panic Attack

I laughed feeling my body relax as I realized it was just the boys and placed the guitar down beside me. “You out of all people should know I’m not an angel” I said seriously noticing that he had walked a lot closer to me. I looked up into those green eyes instantly blushing at how close he was “Well you’re my angel” he whispered. I almost didn’t catch what he said but once it registered in my head what he said I felt his lips come into contact with mine. I wish I could say that I smiled and kissed him back but I didn’t. The second his lips were on mine memories of when my father kissed me fled my mind which caused me to flinch away and step back. “W-why did you do that?” I questioned him.

 

His green orbs flicked with hurt and sadness before he composed himself and sighed. “Because…nevermind I’m sorry” he said quickly. I couldn’t let him think this was his fault because it wasn’t, he began to turn away but I reached out to grab his hand. “Harry don’t apologize, it’s just the only time guys have kissed me is when….” I began. Realization crossed his face instantly “Don’t finish that sentence” he said. I just nodded sadly and let his hand go, “Come on guys Simon says we need to be at the airport in 30 minutes” Liam called interrupting the silence between Harry and I.

 

As we walked out of the church I couldn’t help but feel absolutely terrible. I wanted to kiss Harry, I mean I kind of already did but it wasn’t anything serious, but I wanted to really kiss him. I wanted to know what it felt like not to be forced to show affection to someone. “1 hour my ass” Zayn said to me as he wrapped his arm around my shoulder. “Why did you have to tell him! I was going to be home soon once I finished” I said. “Or you would have kept singing with that beautiful voice of yours. Did you forget we were leaving the country in less than like 5 hours when you left?” he asked me. “I know what time I had to be back. Don’t get your panties in a wad Malik” I smiled playfully slapping him.

 

I smiled at Harry as he held the door open for me as I jumped into the car beside Zayn, I could tell Harry wasn’t happy and now I realized things were going to get weird between us because I didn’t kiss him back. He probably thinks I don’t like him or something. I’m going to have to find a way to fix this. “Why didn’t you tell us you freaking sing?!” Niall said from the seat behind us. “I was just messing around it wasn’t anything serious” I said to him. “Oh shut up Mina! Your voice is so stunning don’t give us that crap!” Louis said turning in the passenger seat to glare at me. I shrunk under his gaze which lead me to curling into Harry’s body. He always made me feel safe. “I’ve never sung in front of anyone so I’ve never been told if I was good or not” I admitted shyly.

 

“Well let us be the first. YOUR BLOODY BRILLANT!” Liam screamed from the front seat as everyone around me nodded. “Just wait till Simon hears you” Zayn said from beside me. “What! No! I don’t want anyone else to hear me. It was a mistake that you guys heard me. Please don’t tell anyone!” I freaked. “But why wouldn’t you want people to know that you have an amazing talent?” Louis asked. “Because I don’t now can we please drop it?” I begged. They all sighed and remained quiet, I looked up at Harry to find him glancing out the window as things speed by.

 

I let my head nudge into the crook of his neck, kind of like how a puppy would nudge you if it wanted attention.  He still didn’t look at me and I noticed the way his eyebrows furrowed indicating he was upset. I placed my hand on his cheek and turned him so he was now looking at me. “Don’t be mad at me” I whispered. “I’m not mad at you, Mina. I could never be mad at you” he said in a hushed whisper. “Well then what’s wrong?” I asked. “I’m mad at <i>them</i>, all the people who have hurt you” he said placing his hand over my small one that was placed on his cheek. “Let it go” I whimpered beginning to question if I should have told him everything, it seemed like it was eating him up. “I can’t” he said simply and sighed while wrapping his arm around my shoulder will letting our hands drop into my lap.

 

 I guess I had dozed off from staying up practically all night and I woke up to someone’s soft lips on my forehead. “Mina, wake up. We are at the airport love” Harry’s deep voice said, I could hear in his voice that he was tired due to the raspy sound of his voice. “5 more minutesss” I whined earning a laugh as I felt my body being lifted and into someone’s arms. “Well maybe if someone wouldn’t have snuck off in the middle of the night that person wouldn’t be so tired” Harry teased. I opened my eyes and stuck my tongue out at him.

 

I expected to see crowds of people in the airport but we were mostly alone. “Where is everyone?” I asked. “Security blocked off the area where our flight is so we wouldn’t be disturbed” Niall answered as I watched him walk beside me holding a bag for the plane. “Where is Mina?” I asked noticing that she wasn’t getting out of the car with us. “She is with Simon. You’ll meet him inside” he said grabbing a bag from the bag and balancing me in his arms. I struggled to get out of his grip so that he didn’t have to hold me but his grip only tightened. “Stop wiggling around!” He laughed at me. “Let me down. I can walk!” I argued. “I like carrying you” he admitted shyly. “I like walking so that I don’t feel helpless all the time” I shot back with a smirk. He shrugged his shoulders and continued to carry me as I pouted the whole way into the airport.

 

I heard my sisters laughing before I actually saw her, and once we rounded a corner I saw her holding a bag of gummy bears talking to a man in maybe his middle 40’s, he was very clean cut and looked important but not to intimidating. “Dis wons Gweeeen!” she squealed as she popped it in her mouth. “That means it’s probably apple flavored. What does it taste like love?” he said to her. “APPLESSS!” she shouted causing him to laugh.  He noticed us approaching and lifted his eyes towards the boys and I. “Ah you must be the Mina, I’m Simon” he said. I intended to be released from Harry’s arms so that I could shake Simon’s hand but nope…Harry is so stubburn.

 

I moved once and Harry just smirked down at me like he had won or something but I was not having that. I leaned into his neck and bit him, not hard but not soft either earning a gasp from Harry as his arms released from underneath me so I could land on my feet. I laughed and stuck my hand out towards Simon. “Hi, nice to meet you” I smiled sweetly. “Did you just bite me!?” Harry said in awe. “Yup” I smiled looking back at him. “He glared playfully and said “Hm…kinda liked it” causing the boys to howl with laughter as I rolled my eyes. “haha girls got spunk. I like you already” Simon said gripping my hand with his and shaking it. “Also this little princess is adorable” he said as Izzy hugged my legs.

 

“When she wants to be…” I smiled grabbing a few gummies from her bag. “HEYYYYY Uncle Wimon buy dem for me!” she said pulling the bag away. I gave her a funny face which caused her to laugh and stick her tongue out at me and continue eating her snack. “Flight to New York City is now boarding” someone said over an intercom.

 

“That’s us boys! Ready for a great adventure!” Louis shouted slapping Zayn on the back. “Hell yes! This is going to be amazing! And right when we get there we get to make a video. This is going t be wicked” Niall smiled. Simon led all of us towards the gate and I was so clueless as they checked our tickets and we walked down this long corridor towards a huge airplane door. That’s when I began to freak out. I guess Harry noticed that I wasn’t by his side anymore and quickly turned to find me a few feet back with my feet planted to the ground. 

 

“Mina, What’s wrong?” he asked. Just the image of being a thousand feet off of the ground in an unsafe airplane caused my breathing to quicken. Oh god, what if we died? What if the plan crashed? I was freaking out, no I was having a panic attack. I couldn’t breathe and Harry and the other boys ahead of him knew something was wrong. “Mina!” Zayn shouted. I was surrounded by the boys clutching my chest trying to get myself to calm down. “What’s happening?” Liam asked. “She’s having a panic attack. Like how I used to before a big show” Harry said quickly pulling me to him and trying to calm me by whispering calm words but it wasn’t helping.

 

“Shit.” He muttered to himself. Everything got blurry and I knew that I was about to pass out from how scared I was until I felt Harry grab my hand and put it on his chest and then he placed his over my heart. “Mina, feel me breathing, you have got to breathe” he said slowly. I felt his chest fall up and down slowly and began to mimic his slow breath. After a minute everything cleared around me and the boys and Simons worried faces came into view. “I kind of have a fear of airplanes…” I said softly feeling heat flow to my face.

 

“It’s okay, I am too. Sit next to me on the airplane” Zayn said with a small smile as he reached for my hand. I looked up at Harry to find him glaring softly at Zayn but when his eyes locked with mine his face softened and he looked relieved. “You okay?” he asked. I nodded and thanked him softly following close behind Zayn as we entered the plane. Surprisingly it wasn’t small and cramped like I had thought, but then again I guess the boys all flied first class. “I’ll sit by the window” Zayn offered. Harry sat with Liam on the other side of us, Niall sat with Louis behind us and Simon sat with Mina who seemed so calm and collected. “How the hell is she so calm!?” I asked looking at her cozy her way into Simons arm. “cause she’s young and doesn’t grasp the idea of being hundreds of feet up in the sky” Zayn answered. “How did you get over your fear?” I asked. “After the first few flights you get used to it, I actually kind of like it now” he smiled looking out the window.

 

I’m pretty sure I cut of the circulation of Zayns arm as we left the ground and ascended into the sky, My eyes were shut closed and I was trying not to freak out again. But I was not succeeding as Zayn kissed my forehead and tried to talk me through it. “Zayn let me see her” Harry said over the roaring sound. “Are you crazy, she’s not supposed to be out of her seat Harry!” Zayn said. “I can help her. Just unbuckle her seatbelt” I heard him say. HELL NO! When I heard my seatbelt unsnap I didn’t really have a second to scream because I was in Harry’s arms in less than .5 seconds. “I swear to God Harry If I die on this plane because I don’t have a seatbelt on I will come back and haunt you!” I said angrily. I heard something unsnap and then something wrap around my waist and then snap again.

 

I peeked one of my eyes open to see Harry looking at me, I noticed I was straddling his waist and my arms were wrapped around his neck. “Your not going to die, I wouldn’t let that happen” he said seriously. I was about to say something until the plan dropped just a tiny bit and I knew I could not do this. I shouldn’t have come with the boys. I should have stayed in London and dealt with my shitty life. Harry’s hands slid up my back comfortingly and surprisingly I felt my body relax a little more as he continued to run his hands over me. It was like he had some sort of magic powers. I could feel his curls against my face since my head was tucked between his shoulder and neck as I breathed in and out softly like Harry had instructed me to do.

 

After about 20 minutes the plane was silent and everything was calm. “Love open your eyes” Harry said. “No” I said. He ran his fingers into my hair pulling my face back softly and eventually my eyes opened to reveal his beautiful face. “Look” he said nodding towards the window. “Are you crazy! You want a person who is scared of airplanes to look out of a window?!” I said in awe. “Just loookkkkk” he whined. I groaned and slowly, and I mean insanely slowly let my eyes creep past Liam drowsy face and out the circular window beside him.

 

I didn’t expect what I saw. The clouds were underneath us, white and fluffy and the bright blue sky was freckled with little white clouds as we drifted passed them. “That one looks like a lollipop” Harry said. As I looked closer at the cloud that drifted by the image came into view. “Oh my gosh! It does!” I said with a genuine smile. Another cloud drifted by and it looked like a duck. “That one looks like a duck! Look!” I pointed feeling like a little kid as I pointed to the cloud. I don’t know how long we played this game for but it really took my mind off of the whole plane thing.

 

Liam had now passed out and as I looked to everyone else, they had all seen to be either sleeping or listening to music. “Harry, you’re the best” I said simply as I smiled at him. “How so?” he asked as his dimple appeared on the side of his cheek. “You made me not scared anymore. You always can calm me, and it seems like you really care about me” I said honestly. He placed his hand on my cheek and smiled. “That’s because I do care about you Mina, a lot more than you think” he admitted. It was silent for a moment as my mind flashed back to when he kissed me.

 

“Umm c-can we try again?” I asked suddenly. “Try what again?” he asked curiously. I smiled at him softly feeling actually kind of brave and happy as I leaned in and let my lips come in contact with his for the second time. He seemed surprised but applied a small soft pressure to my lips in which I returned back. It felt so different, but good at the same time to kiss someone without it being against my will. Harry’s lips were so soft as they caressed mine and although I had no idea what I was doing I noticed how my stomach flutter and my heart skipped a beat. I pulled back a little bit so that I was looking directly into his emerald green eyes while our foreheads pressed together.

 

“That” I said simply.

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