It's Gotta Be You

Five years ago Abby got her heart crushed by Harry Styles and now he's back and he's after one thing, her heart. Will their love stand the test of time of will former lovers, and most importaintly their past keep them from eachother? You can't have everything you eant, but will they both get what they want most, love or will it be ripped from them forever? Only time will tell, read to find out.

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29. Heartache Doesn’t Last Forever

Authors Note

Hello my wonderful readers! heres your new and imporved chapter 29 tell me what you think! Please play these songs when i mention them, U.N.I by Ed Sheeran, Almost Lover by a Fine Frenzy and after these two songs please play Till I See You Again by Carrie Underwood! Once again KARMA WILL GET SUMMER JUST WAIT AND SEE!

 

Chapter 29 Heartache Doesn’t Last Forever

*Abby’s Point of View*

I woke up the next morning on my couch, my head on top of a damp pillow. Yesterdays memories came flashing back, I trusted him with my heart I gave him all my love, was that not enough? I looked around the room and saw a note sitting on the edge of my coffee table, I picked it up it read: Abby, I want you to take the day off today, I’ll take all of your classes just take a few days off to recover and forget about the idiot, he doesn’t deserve you. Don’t do anything stupid. Love Abigail, P.S there’s Ben and Jerry’s in the freezer your welcome<3 I sighed and went to take a shower. I decided to have a pity party by myself today; I changed into a pair of low hanging grey sweat pants and a white v neck top, and put my hair into a messy bun and went off in the search of ice cream. Three romance movies and five pints of ice cream later I was done crying over him and I decided it was time for a little me time. I ran a hot bath, put in a bath bomb added bubbles and decided to soak all my worries away, I plugged in my white iphone and put it on shuffle, U.N.I by Ed Sheeran came on

I found your hair band on my bedroom floor,
The only evidence that you'd been here before
And I don't get waves of missing you anymore,
They're more like tsunami tides in my eyes
Never getting dry, so I get high, smoke in the days then I sleep with the light on
Weeks pass in the blink of an eye,
And I'm still drunk at the end of the night
I don't drink like everybody else,
I do it to forget things about myself,
Stumble and fall with the head spin I got
My minds with you but my hearts just not

So am I close to you anymore, if it's over
And there's no chance that we'll work it out
That's why you and I ended over U N I
And I said that's fine, but you're the only one that knows I lied
You and I ended over U N I
And I said that's fine, but you're the only one that knows I lied

Everybody said we'll be together forever but I know that,
I never wanna settle down, come around, break up the love like lego now,
Never wanna turn into another like you,
Sleep with my thoughts dance with my views,
Everything’s great not everything's sure,
But you live in your halls and I live in a tour bus,
Now I'm in position to be another stalker like everything I say makes it all sound awkward,
Like our last kiss it was perfect, but we were nervous,
On the surface,
And I'm always saying every day that it was worth it,
Pain is only relevant if it still hurts,
I forget like an elephant, or we can use a sedative and go back to the day we fell in love on first kiss

So am I close to you anymore, it's over
And there's no chance that we'll work it out
Oh you and I ended over U N I
And I said that's fine, but you're the only one that knows I lied
You and I ended over U N I
And I said that's fine, but you're the only one that knows I lied

Because, if I was gunna go somewhere, I'd be there by now,
And maybe I can let myself down, ohh
And thinking that I'm unaware, I keep my feet on the ground, keep looking around, to make sure I'm not, the only one to feel low,
Because if you want, I'll take you in my arms and keep you sheltered, from all that I've done wrong
And I know you'll say, that I'm the only one
But I know that God made another one of me to love you better than I ever will,” tears fell from my eyes once more, I know that I will never find anyone that I love more than Harry. I heard the first part of Almost Lover coming out of the phones speakers,

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Shoulda known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me


Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Shoulda known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I'll bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy to walk
Right in and out of my life

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Shoulda known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
,” I swear my phone is out to get me, more tears stream down my cheeks, What did I ever do to deserve this? Why did Harry kiss her again? Was he playing me all along? I can’t believe I fell for him again, I trusted him so fully and so completely. I love him, and I always will but I can’t afford to linger on him, I was for everyone’s good. Abigail would get tired of me dwelling on him and so would all of my other friends. I don’t think I can go over to Harry’s anymore to hang with the boys, I can’t bear to see him, maybe someday I will but I can’t right now and I might not ever be able to.   

I spotted my razor on the edge of my bathtub, and for the first time in almost nine years I considered something I promised Harry that I would never do again, without hesitation I picked up the razor and made a cut on the inside of my wrist, right on top of my old one, I gasped in pain but I felt some relief from that cut, I felt like I had released some of the pain radiating off of my soul. Pain that only Harry could bring. I made ten more cuts each just millimeters from the last but I still couldn’t stop I made more and more cuts until I felt sick and dizzy. I felt satisfaction coming from the blood oozing from the cuts, I felt some sort of happiness from the cuts turning the water red, this is how I coped back then this is how I’m copping now. I know that this is wrong but I can’t help it, it makes me feel better I feel if I can make myself hurt physically that it’ll release some of my pain.  I know that I promised that I would never do it again but promises were made to be broken, Harry obviously broke his so I broke mine. I cleaned up the cuts and put the razor back in its place on the corner of the tub and got out.

I walked into my room and took out a box that I kept in my drawer, it was filled with photos of Harry and I from the first day we met to the day we got back together, I took out a photo of us kissing when we were five in my back yard, I smiled at that picture, it was of a time when it wasn’t complicated, we could just go around being ourselves. I missed those days… I took out another photo this one was of Harry and I at the park when we were kids, it was of Harry pushing me we looked so innocent back then we didn’t have a single care in the world, but now look at us. I found my favourite photo of us, it was the picture of us the first day we met, my mum decided to snap the photo when Harry was giving me a goodbye hug, the day that would change my life forever the day that Harry Edward Styles walking to my life. They say time heals all pain but I don’t know how long it’ll take for my heart to heal…

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