Love Me Like You Do 15+

What happens when two girls meet five of the most famous guys? When they go off to tour what happens?

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33. FUCK THIS SHIT!

Hannah's POV
I run upstairs to get my phone. I called the doctors and they told me to just leave now and they will take me right away. As I walk out of my room, I thought it would be nice of me to text Niall and at least tell him I'm going to the doctors to get the baby checked out. But then when I reached the bottom of the stairs I heard his phone go off? What? I look up and see him standing there, with his arm around the hoe... Why is he doing this to me? I thought we could get through anything. I just turned around and went to the kitchen and sat at the table. I needed to think, even if they were all right in the next room. I got a text from Harry, "Come on out love." He just doesn't understand. Then I lock my phone but I click the circle button on the bottom and the picture of Niall and I appears, our first family picture. I thought that actually meant something. When you told someone you loved them, you had to mean it. When you made someone believe everything that happened, would never happen again, I thought that was the end. When you told someone you would treat them better than anyone else, you were supposed to make them believe it. When you told someone to forget about their insecurities, you weren't supposed to bring it up. When you promised something, it was meant to be kept a promise. When you had someones trust, you were supposed to treasure it, not treat it like a toy. And as I was thinking about all this fucked up shit that was happening, I didn't think of my ex's once! I only thought of the one person that made me feel like complete shit, and worthless. Niall. How could I love someone that made me think that I was nothing, and then they show up, with another girl, when your pregnant? Oh shit, forgot. Not everyone had the same fucked up problems that I have.

 

Niall's POV

I met up with Holly. I knew I was making a mistake, but I couldn't stop. Hannah believed I could be the most amazing father, and I wished I could. But when I started hanging out with Holly again, she introduced me to my old demons. I know this sounds pretty pathetic, no one knows, but I like to smoke weed and drink. Well, I used to, or so I thought. I started again. I know I've been a complete dick and everyone can probably tell somethings up, but it just feels so good. Being a father is scary. Mostly when the mother of the child wants nothing to do with you. But I put that on myself. I understand that she hates me, but I still have faith that we can make everything work out, and that we will be the most perfect couple ever. But I know that will never happen. I need to get my shit together and actually think about someone other than myself. When I left Hannah this morning, I thought I could go over to Holly's and tell her that I was done not being myself and that I was done pretending to be someone I'm not, just for her, again. But when I got there, I found myself just walking over and getting the joint. Then I thought about everything Hannah said to me and about the shit I said to her. I lit the joint. Everything seems to go away when the joint has its effect on my body. I thought I could stop at any moment, like I did before. But I let all the pressure boil up and cause me to go back to my old ways. I realized then, that I was in fact, a prisoner in my own body. I don't fit right in this life. I don't deserve Hannah. I don't deserve our baby, or her and Harry's baby. I didn't realize, I've been smoking this whole time, and Holly was ALL over me. I need this to stop, but I can't make it stop. At least when I'm with Hannah I feel guilty about the fact that I'm an ass, but when I'm with this slut, I don't really give two shits. At all. But I need to get the old me back, I need it, the boys need it, but most importantly, Hannah and our baby need it! I'm done, right after this joint. I am going to walk my ass home and tell Hannah everything and beg for her to take me back, and ask her to help me. But as you can see, that didn't work and went home with Holly. If you ask why, I honestly couldn't give you  a logical explanation. But when I saw Harry, I didn't feel guilty anymore, like his face was just a reminder of what I'm not and what Hannah needs... But I keep thinking, "That should be me." But then I finally notice, "That can be me, I need to grow the fuck up." So I walk Holly out and tell her I couldn't do this anymore. I was going to have a family and needed to get my shit together. She just left, laughing. I walked back in and Hannah wasn't in the kitchen anymore. She wasn't in the living room. When I walked upstairs she was on the phone so I decided to listen a little.

"But, I don't know what to do. I love him... Yes! I do love him. But he has been really weird lately! No!.. You don't understand... He has been a complete dick! ... No!..... I do love him... But I think I should really love the one that's almost begging for my attention...... It's obvious I don't pick the right guys hun... But he promised he wouldn't be like him. He fucking promised!... I can't let him get the best of me.... I need this baby to be safe...... Yeah, I am keeping the baby!... I can't just give it up! .... I need him or her! I feel like it can help me through everything..... It's obvious he isn't going to be there. He is too busy with these sluts to even notice that I am doing everything in my power to make things right!.... No! Niall will never open up to me about anything anymore. No matter how many times I ask him to, he shrugs it off and stops listening.... Then he will look into space and daydream...... I'm starting to get scared of him... I don't know... Maybe one day he's going to come home drunk and hurt me.... No! He has NEVER done anything like that before... No! I don't think he could hurt me on purpose.... I'm saying that maybe he will come home drunk and do something stupid. I don't know. Well I am going to go. I have to cancel this doctors appointment and reschedule. I'm going to go downstairs and act like nothing happened.... Alright. Bye babes. Love you!" Then she shut up and I knocked on the door.. She opens the door.

"What the fuck do you want? Another sob story to get my to get back with you?!"-Hannah. This should be fun....
 

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