Dreaming With Secrets

Harry has an odd, reoccurring dream about some mystery girl. When he finds out that Zayn knows who this girl is, Harry wants to get to know her. Zayn however, doesn't approve of Harry getting to know her. Even against Zayn's will, they get together. No matter how hard Zayn tries, they both push to be together. But when Zayn tries to pull them apart and Bethany ends up right back in her past, can Harry save her and get Zayn to approve of them, or will Bethany's past kill her first?
Includes self harm references/actions, sex, drugs, alcohol, and cursing


39. Moving Out

The next couple months were the same as when I first arrived. Zayn was being an asshole, I had gotten back into my cutting habits, and it was to the point where I stopped eating and if I did, I would puke it back up. I honestly didn’t want to live anymore.

The other thing that had changed was I had gotten a job just to be given an excuse to be as far away from Zayn as I possibly could. I didn’t want to be near him any longer. I just couldn’t physically, mentally, and emotionally handle it. And because I had gotten a job, I was saving up for my own place because I didn’t want to live with Zayn anymore. However, I kept that a secret from everyone but Liam. Liam was the only one I could trust to not tell Harry because I knew he understood.

Another thing that changed was Zee and Louis broke up. The distance was too much for them so they just cut it off and decided to stay friends. I knew they were both hurting but they knew what was best for them. Niall and Bradie on the other hand; they were still together. They were able to push through the distance.

All in all, everything seemed so different than a few months ago. Part of me just wanted to go back to America, rewind all the way back to when I almost ran over Niall and Harry and not even get out of the car when I saw them. I couldn’t handle Zayn anymore…I couldn’t do it.

“Bethany?” I looked up and saw Liam standing in front of me.

“Hey Li; what’s up?”

“Are you alright? You seem very down today.”

“I just…I’m having my thoughts again.” Liam took me in his arms and held me close to him.

“Don’t let Zayn win.” Liam whispered to me. I started to cry but I knew Liam wouldn’t say anything about it.

“When is the meeting over with Zayn and Harry?”

“They’re still inside the office. They dismissed Niall, Lou, and I about ten minutes ago.” I nodded and sighed. Zayn has been trying for as long as I can remember to break Harry and I up and since Harry has had a visible change in character and personality, Harry may or may not be forced to break up with me according to management. Liam, Niall, and Louis wee all asked to come to this meeting so management could get their opinion on Harry and I. But that wasn’t the only factor in this whole debate. We had to do these every month or so just because Zayn was such a pain in the ass to management about us.

“You know what kills me…” I whispered.

“What’s that?”

“The fact that at any moment, Harry will walk out of there and I could be single…”

“I don’t think Harry would give up that easily. He loves you.”

“I love him too…” I whispered. Liam took me into another hug and held me close to him.

About ten minutes later, we heard voices, doors open, and people walking. I sucked in my breath as I watched Simon, Zayn, and Harry walk out. Zayn looked furious, which meant that I still had Harry…he was still mine. I got up and went running to him. He took me in his arms and held me close to him.

“I love you.” Harry whispered.

“I love you too.”

“See you boys in a month.” Simon said. Zayn huffed and stormed out without a word to anyone. I pulled away from Harry and he took my hand, leading us to the car.

“How did the meeting go?” I whispered.

“It’s getting harder and harder to convince Simon because he just wants Zayn to shut up.” I felt tears prick my eyes knowing that any moment that Zayn would have his way. I didn’t want to lose Harry because Zayn was still so set on breaking us up.

When we got home, I had to start getting ready for work, thankful for more time away from Zayn. It was honestly more painful to be at home than at work which is saying a lot. I kissed Harry goodbye before leaving. I hugged the rest of the guys, and Zayn and I ignored each other, as we always did.

“Hey love!” Chelsea called to me as I walked inside the office building I worked in. I had gotten a job as an assistant to a fashion stylist, Andrea Cole.

“Hey Chels.” I called to her. She was Andrea’s other assistant so Chelsea and I were always together.

“How are you?”


“No luck with Zayn?” I shook my head. Chelsea was one of my very few friends here in London, and the only one I would open up to. I didn’t need our business getting to the press even though Zayn put some of it there himself.

“He still wants to break Harry and me up, and he’s almost there…”

“How?! You can’t let him win!”

“Harry said it’s getting harder to convince Simon because Simon just wants Zayn to shut up.”

“Are you two just going to give up?”

“We don’t want to, but if Simon breaks us up, what choice do we have other than to suffer alone? Harry already is suffering. You can see in his eyes that he’s always tired. He’s tired of dealing with me and my problems plus Zayn.”

“He loves you.”

“Liam said the same thing…”

“We know what we’re talking about.” I rolled my eyes and walked over to my desk to start the paper work and answering phones while Chels did the same thing at the desk opposite of me.

After work, since it was Friday, I got my paycheck. When I ran it to the bank, I realized I had enough to start paying rent for the flat I had been looking at. It wasn’t too fancy, but it was enough for just me to live in. instead of going home after work, I ran to the landlord to see if it was still available.

“Ah, Bethany…nice to see you.”

“Hello Mrs. Gale.”

“Please, call me Dorothy.”

“Alright; hello Dorothy. I was wondering if the flat was still available for rent.”

“Oh dear, for you…of course it is. Do you have three months in advance?”

“I can write you a check.”

“Oh darling, fabulous. When do you want to move in?”

“Within the next week.”

“Of course dear; it’s ready now so…here’s the keys; you just come and go as you please. You can either…”

“Here’s the check.” I said, cutting her off. She smiled and took the check.

“You really are a doll. I’ll see you more often soon.” I smiled and walked back to my car after I said goodbye. Now all I had to do was explain to Harry that I was moving out…       

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