Intoxicated Love

Bethany has had her fair share of bad relationships in the past to the point where all she wants to do is party and have her one night stands that she doesn't even remember. But when she moves to England after she graduates, and meets Harry Styles, will that all change?

*Includes mentions of self harm, sex scenes, alcohol, drugs, and cursing.*


19. Ever Loved



It has been a week since Bethany left me…for the second time. I was like a girl going through a bad breakup. I would spend my days in bed, watching ice cream, and watching her favorite movies. I was in horrible condition and I knew it too. I had made a really bad mistake, but I had no idea what to do. All she did was push me away.

“Harry?” I looked up and saw Louis standing in the doorway. I nodded, allowing him to come sit with me. “How are you feeling?”

“Like shit.” I whispered as Louis cuddled up under the blankets next to me.

“You could just go talk to her. You don’t know how she feels right now.”

“She probably feels so happy on the inside knowing she got someone to fall for her and she’s going to do shit about it.” I said, feeling angry.

“Harry, don’t be angry at her. You knew from the beginning she was always emotionally fucked up.”

“I know…but I don’t know why she’s like that.”

“She never told you?” Louis sounded surprised.

“I know everything but why she’s emotionally fucked up. I don’t know what happened to her, or who happened to her…but…I don’t know what to do about it. I truly do love her.”

“Then show her; there’s no better way to show a girl you love her than a romantic gesture.”

“Says the boy who’s been with the same girl for over a year now?” I asked. Louis smiled and shrugged.

“I got lucky- but mate, if you can get Bethany back to you, you’ll have the perfect girl. You two are so perfect for each other, words can’t even describe it. The minute I saw you two lock eyes on each other when she crashed Cher’s party; I knew you two would hit it off. You just have to save that before it’s too late.”

“It already is too late…” I whispered. “I’ve lost her officially…she gave me a second chance and I threw it away because of Jennifer.”

“Harry…you can’t just let her slip through your fingers like this.” Louis begged of me.

“You don’t understand. You won’t understand. You have the perfect relationship with a great girl! I’m just here, waiting for a totally emotionally fucked girl to love me back because I fell in love with her when I first saw her! I was drunk- we were both drunk when we first met! I never thought we would grow to be much more, and clearly she didn’t either because now she won’t even acknowledge my existence!”

“Maybe that’s why she’s acting the way she is; she’s scared.”

“I’m not scared.” I demanded.

“Then why won’t you go to her?” I was silent, unsure of how to answer. “Exactly.” Louis got up at this point and walked out, closing the door behind him. I rolled over, digging my face into my pillow, allowing myself to cry even more. Why couldn’t I just have the balls to talk to her? Why did I have to be so afraid of her? I knew the answer to that- because she’s the first girl, and the only girl I have ever loved.

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