Broken and Confused (One Direction Fan Fiction)

Belle is just a normal girl. She had boy drama and she has memories that will never go away. Memories that scared her life. But what happens when Belle meets two boys that makes her forget about her past? What happens if she starts falling for one?


1. Chapter 1


Belle's P.O.V.

"What the hell are you talking about?" I yelled into my phone.

"I'm saw you all over him Bel. I knew I shouldn't of trusted you! Your just a slut like all your little fake friends."

As I heard Jake say those words, a tear started to roll down my cheek. Jake has been a real dick. I thought I loved him until what he did to me. I don't even know what I was crying about. I should be relieved that this is happening.

"Can you just stop. STOP! It's over between us! Stop crying like I'm the bad guy when your the one who did this."

OMG! I'm so happy I'm crying! I am free again!

"Oh and Belle, do us all a favor and leave. Run away and never come back. If I ever see you again... I will-"

I hung up. If we weren't still 'going out' than he wouldn't be able to do anything. I smiled at my actions.

I have been with Jake for 8 months. Those were the longest 8 months of my life! I don't even know what he was talking about. I'm just too happy! But then looking at the scars, he will always be apart of my life.

I lifted up my shirt till I saw them. There they were. Sitting there in my hip and never leaving.

As I stared, I started to cry because I didn't want them there. People are gonna judge and stare and I hated it. It's still summer an I have 2 more months to be able to still conquer my fear and getting into my swim suit in public. But I can't! Nobody knows about them! Not even Madison. And she's my best friend!

I just wanted to turn the world off and go to bed. Tomorrow's my birthday. Also the same day 'dad' gets out of jail. I'm so scared that he's gonna come back and abuse us again.

I laid on my bed staring at the wall with tears coming down my face like a waterfall. He will never put a hand on me or Mum again. Would he?

With that question flowing in my head searching for an answer, I cried myself to sleep. 


I woke up to somebody mowing their lawn. I keep forgetting to close my window.

I still had my eyes closed deciding whether to be happy, sad, or frighten. Happy because I'm single, sad because of my scars, or frighten because of 'dad'.

I opened one eye peeking around my room. The sunlight was just peeking in hitting my room with light and heat. I tired to smile. It worked for about 3 seconds. I decided the best decision was to get out of bed and move on with life. It would be best for me, Alex, and mum. Maybe if they see me smile, they would think I wasn't worried, so why should they?

I finally got out of bed. I went straight into my bathroom. I did the basics, toilet, teeth, face. After I was finished, I stared in the mirror. I practiced my smile for when I go downstairs to find my mum and sister.

I turned off the bathroom light and jogged downstairs with the smile still on my face.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!" my mum and Alex screamed into my face with a plate of pancakes in their hands. I love pancakes!! But hate it when it's my birthday.

"Haha. Thanks mum. Thanks Lex."  

My life is a mess but over this smile, my life seems perfect. 


After breakfast, I got a text from Madison.

From: Your Bffffffffff(:

Hey beautiful! Happy 18th birthday!!! If you don't have any plans with your family, meet me at the mall in an hour! Love you:)

She's is the reason I wake up everyday. We have known each other for 9 years. Best friends ever since.

To: Your Bffffffffff(:

Thanks gorgeous! And no plans today! And I need to talk to you so I'll be there!:)

Maybe today was the day to tell her about my scars. She already knew about my 'dad'. But her and Jake are close friends! Plus Jake told me not to tell anybody or else he will look for Alex and mum next. Madison could keep a secret but this is a 'big' secret.

"Mum, can I go to the mall for 3 or 4 hours then come back and hang out with you and Lex?"

"Sure! But I need to talk to you." 

I had a feeling that was coming.

"Come here." She said reaching for my wrist and pulling me into the back room.

"So. You probably know what I'm here to talk to you about." 

I nodded biting my lip to hold back the tears.

"Belle, you don't need to worry. He's not coming near us again. I just wanted to tell you to not think about it too much and don't be scared. Promise me you won't be scared?" I wasn't scared. I was terrified! I just looked into my mum in the eyes with tears leaking from my eyes. I couldn't see anything. My tears are getting in the way of my sight.

My mum came over to my and hugged me tight. No doubt she was crying too.

"I promise." I hardly whispered though my cracking voice.

She left go of me and kissed my forehead.

"Go have fun." She said whipping the tears from under her eyes.  

Just as she was about to walk away, I grabbed her arm and she swung her head to look at me again.

"Mum, I need to tell you something..." I was going to tell her about Jake and the scars. All those months of lying to her and crying myself to sleep, I need to tell her.

" Just look." I told her through tears at I lifted up my shirt.

I closed my eyes right was I heard a gasp. I knew it belonged to my very own mum.

"W-what happened..." She said coming closer. I opened my eyes to see a very pale and shaking mum.

"J-jake." I ended up telling her. And it felt like a thousand weights have lifted upon my shoulders.

"Oh hunny..." Was all she said while pulling me in the most tightest hug ever. I wrapped my arms around my mums neck. We sat there for about 5 minutes because I pulled back.

"We will get through this." She told me. Yes, she has told me this before, but something about the way she said it made me believe her this time. 


It felt perfect to tell somebody my secret. I was on my way to the mall while listening to music when 'Beautiful Soul' came on by Jesse McCartney. This is the song me and my mom sand to Alex when she was a baby. I remember that day like it was yesterday. I was holding her in my arms and singing to her while my mom was behind me with her hand under Alex obviously not trusting me with Alex.  

I pulled into the mall entrance just as the song ended. I noticed I smiled through the whole song. I was 8 and now I'm 18! Wow. Time flys by so fast!

To: Your Bffffffffff(:

I'm here(: where are you?

I sent the text to Madison while turing off my car. I got out and walked to the doors till my phone rang.

From: Your Bffffffffff(:

Look behind you;)

As I read the text message, I smiled and turned around to see a familiar person staring back at me. She walked up to me and hugged me.

"Happy birthday beautiful." She said in the middle of the hug.

I pulled away and smiled. 


We walked for 2 hours now and I was getting a bit hungry. We were walking around with bags full of clothes and accessories.

"Let's get something to eat." I said fixing my grip with my bags.

"Okay, but I'm paying." Madison said bumping into me a little bit to make me smile. I'm so blessed to have a friend like her.

Madison P.O.V.

We sat at the table we always sit at. I was to eager to hear what she had to tell me! We talked about everything and nothing for the last 2 hours!

I guess if I don't ask, I would ask when I surprise her tonight by showing up at her house with 2 tickets to Ireland. Belle has always wanted to go to Ireland. Anyways, I don't think I can wait for her to tell me. Nope. I couldn't.

"So...what was it you wanted to tell me?" I asked hopping to get an answer. But all I got was a sad look on her face.

"Um..." Was all she said. She looked down at her lap. What was she hiding from me?

I reached over and put my hand in her shoulder to reassure her that everything is alright.

"Come here." She said standing up and grabbing her bags. I followed and she lead me outside behind the mall so we weren't in public anymore. What is wrong? I'm getting impatient.

"Okay. So you may know that me and J-jake- she stopped. No. They can't be over! There too cute!

That's when she lifted up her shirt and showed something I most certainty did not suspect. Scars. What the hell?

"What the hell?" I whispered moving forward. That's when he started to cry. She just stared at me while I moved over to her. She didn't even blink.

"Who did that Belle?" I asked in the verge of tears as well.

"J-jake." oh my god... What the hell was his problem! I didn't even know what to do, that I turned and speed walked away. She knew what I was doing.

"Madison! Please don't!" 

She pleaded. I turned around. She was about 10 feet away from me.

"Belle, what are you talking about! Look what he did to do!" I said with my hip popped out. I was mad.

"He said if I tell anybody then he will go after Alex and mum!" She practically screamed at me. I took a deep breath before walking back up to her and hugged her.

"I promise, he will pay." That was the last thing we said about the subject. We picked up my bags from the side walk and walked inside.

Belle's P.O.V.

"I think I'm going to to head home before it gets too dark." I said waking out if Wet Seal. I put my bagged down while hugging her with all my might.

"I love you." I said. "I love you more." She said.

I picked up my bags and headed out of the doors. As I approached my car, I noticed the music was still on from earlier.

"Shitt!" I mumbled under my breath as I started to walk faster towards my car. I dropped my bags and opened my door. I turned off the radio and tried to turn on the car. No luck. I guess I have to walk home in the dark.

I threw my bags in the trunk and grabbed my jumper before locking the doors. I put my hood up and started to walk. I have about a 20 minute walk home so I put head phones in and put on my music. Music is my drug!

I kept walking and walking. I was looking down at my feet. It's only 7 so everybody should be home eating dinner so I didn't bother looking up. Bad idea. Next thing I realise, I numbed into someone sending us falling on top of each other.

I just fell in somebody in the pitch black. Our faces inches apart. I could tell it was a boy. My heart pounded as I remembered about 'dad' getting out of jail today. What if it was him?

"Umm..." The person said.

"Shit. Sorry." I said getting off of him.

"It's quite alright, love." He said. No need to worry. That sounded nothing like 'dad'.

I took my hood off trying to get a glimpse if his face. When he took his hood off, I couldn't breath...

*************************************************************************************************************************************************Hey guys. sorry about my other story. That was kinda bad and useless. This one is going to be better. I already wrote 4 chapters! I promise Ill keep updating only if you say comment(:

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