Living the Dream

Fan Fiction: Justin Bieber.
My life seemed so perfect until, i found out my boyfriend was cheating on me again. On top of it he wouldn't say a word about it till brought it up. We were suppose to be going to a Justin Bieber concert together. That ended up not happening. My whole day was ruined... until i got to meet a special someone.


40. Find her...

Hi guys I don't usually put this till the end, but I wanted to know for sure. You guys ship the name #Jienna??? Let me know(: and please read my other fan fic and let me know what you guys think. I hope this chapter doesn't suck. I really had no clue what to write/: K bye. 




Justin's POV:



After dropping by a little convenient store to grab some stuff. I ended up getting held up by some people wanting pictures or autographs. I was trying to keep a low profile today, and not get noticed. But that ended up not happening. It only took me longer to get out of the store. I was walking to my car when I got a call. I started to search in my pockets, fumbling to find my phone some where. I finally pulled it out. It was a number I wasn't familiar with, it could Brienna maybe or her brother! I answered it not knowing who it could possibly be. 

"Hello" A female's voice said. 

"Hi" I said almost breathless wondering who the heck I am talking to. 

"I was calling back for someone named Justin Bieber." The lady said. I sighed because it wasn't Brienna, but who was it? I only gave my number to her brother not some lady?

"Yes this is Justin. May I ask who's calling?" I asked as the curiosity kept building up more.

"Oh sorry this is Kelly. I work for Jake Silversmith I'm his receptionist. He wanted me to call you to to tell you that he would like to meet up with you instead of talking over the phone. He said it's not something to be spoken over the phone with." She said.

I was a little happy to know that he got my message but I didn't understand why we couldn't talk about it over the phone. Could it be that bad where we have to talk about this in person? It started to worry me a little. 

"Oh ok. Did he say why where meeting instead?" I asked curious as my hands began to sweat. 

"No sir, he didn't say. But he did say that he would like to meet with you at 7 tonight at Pizzeria Mozza. Would that work for you?" She asked. 

"Oh. And sure that will be ok with me." I said to her. 

"Ok then he will see you then." She replied back. 

"Ok then, thanks." I said. 

"Your welcome." She said before she hung up the phone call. 

I put my phone back in my pocket and pulled out my keys. I got the car door open and placed everything I just got in the back of the car. I got in the car and turned the engine on and buckle myself in. I put my head back and close my eyes. Inhale. Exhale. I was worried. I couldn't help but think of what could of happen to Brienna. The more I thought of bad scenarios, the more I thought of what happened with my sister. How I saw her laying there looking almost dead. The visions flash through my mind. When the car hit us, to see all that blood. That horrible memory. I started to hyperventilate, my breathing got heavier. Tears forcing there way to my eyes, pleading to exit my eyes. It was to late they were starting to come down my face. I gripped my hands on the seat. Trying to calm myself down it wasn't working. I open to door fast and pull off my seat belt. I jump out and start to walk back and forth, running my hands through my hair. I couldn't slow down my breathing. I realized I was having a panic attack. My hands were trembling so much. I slid down to the ground. Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale. I get back up and sit in the car with the door wide open. I  grab onto the seat and squeeze it to assure myself that it's not happening. That it's all in my head. Relax Bieber. I calm my breathing down. Like how my therapist showed me. It's not real. It's not real. It's just a memory, not real. I close the car door and put my seat belt back on. Let's just go get something to eat. I take the car out of park and began to drive towards the restaurant. 

I haven't had a panic attack in a while. It was worst the month that accident happened. I had to take breaks more often. I couldn't focus as much. My parents worried about me. They made me go to a therapist. And when I told the lady what happened I had a panic attack right in front of her. She told me what I had to do to calm myself down. It would take many years of therapy for me to stop having these panic attacks. I can't help myself except hate myself more for having them. I tell myself to get a grip but it isn't that easy as I thought. I can't think about this anymore or I'll have another one in the car. I don't need the paparazzi to find out what's wrong with me and blab it to the whole world. I don't even want my beliebers to know...

I pull up to the restaurant and park my car. I turn off the engine. I close my eyes and breath in and out. Pull yourself together Bieber. I open my eyes and get out of the car and walk into the restaurant. I probably looked like shit right now, but it didn't matter because all I cared for right now was Brienna. When I don't have enough sleep I can never think right. All my thoughts are jumbled and what not. 

I didn't feel hungry really, but I need to eat something. I found the same spot that me and Brienna sat at when I was last here. The only part is I was by myself this time, and not with that special someone. I looked through the menu and came across the same order I made when I was with her. I chuckle at the thought of how I ate all our food because I was hungry. Now I feel like I don't want to eat anything. This place was packed for a small restaurant. The waitress came and asked me for my order. I decided I should order the same thing I got the last time I came here. 

"Will that be all for you today?" The waitress asked. 

"Yes it will be." I replied to her. I hear something fall down making a loud noise in the small restaurant. My gaze fell to whatever just happened by the front door. Someone had tripped over a sign.

"Are you interested in buying a raffle ticket? You could win prizes if you enter." She asked me but my attention was now focused on what was happening. that's when I could finally see her. The girl I need in my life. Our eyes met for a brief moment before she picked herself up and ran for the door. I shouted her name in hope for her to stop for me. But that didn't work. 

"Sir?' The waitress snapped me out of my thoughts. I didn't want to lose her again. "Sir would you still like your food?" The waitress asked. 

"Here." I say putting a twenty dollar bill on the table. "Keep the change!" I yell before leaving the restaurant. 

I came out to the front of the places and look both ways. Which way should I go? I better choose fast. Left or Right? Fuck it I'm going right! I sprint to see if maybe she went down this way. My choice was right. I see her starting her car. I sprint faster hoping to catch up to her. She pulls out into traffic quickly. I yell her name and tell her to stop as I'm trying to chase her. It didn't work of course. I think of another idea. I start to sprint to were my car is. I pull out my keys, unlock the car and hop in. I rev the engine and it purrs to life. I pull out of my spot and enter into traffic quickly. I speed up to see if I can find her car through this traffic. My car races through the traffic, changing lanes every other second to get further ahead. 

I finally spot her car up ahead and speed up. I hope I don't get a fucking ticket, I can't lose her. I pull up right behind her and honk my horn hoping it would get her attention. I wait for the cars in the left lane to move so I can pull up beside her. When I get my opportunity I pull up quickly next to her and stay at even pace as her car. I roll down my window and yell to her to roll down the window. That wasn't working of course because her window was closed. I motion for her to roll down the window. She finally rolls it down. I see her in tears and her favorite type of muffin in her hand. I couldn't stand to see her like that. She was a mess like me. 

"Brienna pull over! We need to talk. I need you so much right now." I yell in attempt for her to hear me. She nods her head and begins to roll her window back up. "Brienna stop!" I yell but it was to late. I was frustrated and confused. I speed up to get in front of her. I begin to slow down. Maybe this will work if I try to slow her down or stop her. But that plan didn't work . She speed up and switches lanes getting further and further away. Your not going to get away from me again. I speed up and pursuit after her. I catch up to her. She goes some route and we end up pulling up into the Hilton hotel parking lot. She finds a parking spot and parks right away. Damn it! There was no spots near her. I speed up and go look for a spot and quickly park. I get out and slam the door and begin to sprint towards her. She already started running from me. She must have a room here since she's running towards the hotel. So this is where she was staying...

Brienna please stop running away from me! I just want to talk to you!" I yelled to her, trying to hold my shorts up while I was running. She just kept running.

"No please just leave me alone.." She said almost a plead to me. I come up behind her and wrap my arms around her stomach to stop her from running from me again. She tries to push herself out of my grip but gives up. She slides down to the ground and sobs louder and louder. I cradle her in my arms. I've missed this so much, having her in my arms.

"Shhh..." I say trying to calm her down, rocking her back and fourth. I kissed the top of her head. "I've missed my baby so much..." I managed to choke out. "I love you so much..." I said as tears threaten my eyes. I hug her tighter. She sobs louder. Please stop crying. I hate to hear her cry. I pick her body up and carry her to the hotel as she begins to sob into my shirt. I go through the back exit so we don't get to much attention. I go straight to the elevator. I was afraid of being elevators they were so small. But I had to suck it up and take Brienna up to her room.

"What floor are you on? And what's the room number?" I ask quietly hoping to get a answer. 

"Floor 5, room 118b" She whispered softly from her lips. I pressed five for the floor and the elevator ascended to the top. My body tenses as we move up, worrying about the fact where in this small elevator. I heard the familiar ding to get off. Finally we were off and begin to look at the room numbers searching for her room. I come across her room finally 118b. She pulls out her card that was in her pockets, and hands it to me so I can open the door. I put the card in and the door buzzes meaning the door was unlocked. I walked in and closed the door. I walk over to the bed and place her on the bed. She curls up into a ball as tears rush down her face. I sit next to her and rub her back trying to sooth her. I frown seeing her there like that crying and a mess. I lay down next her and wrap my arms around her. She doesn't hesitate. She just's lays there still not saying a word. We lay there for a couple minutes without saying anything. I nuzzled my head into the crook of her neck and give her a little squeeze while I hug her. She finally stopped her crying and now she just layed there in my arms. I kissed her cheek and move my hands down slow and intertwine my hands with hers so I'm holding her hands. She gives my hand a little squeeze. I notice her smile but it quickly fades. That's when she breaks the silence between us. 

"Justin..." She said softly. 

"Yes baby?" I asked quietly. She lets go of my hand and turns around to face me. She looks me in the eyes. Her eyes were so beautiful I could just swim in them.

"Why did you follow me here...?" She asked.

"Because I love you, and I can't stand to be without you." I said. 

"Is that really why? Or is it something else..." She asked sounding a little worried and looks down.

"Yes it is. I worry about you too much to let you go." I said. She shifts in the bed a little. "Brienna how many times do I have to tell you I love you so that you get it through your head?" I whispered softly to her. 

"...lots. I've been through a lot Justin... more than you could ever imagine." She said softly then looks up into my eyes.

"So I have..." I say quietly. "Do you want to talk about it?" I ask. 

"Not really..." She whispers then ducks her head near my chest, hiding herself.

"Well it must have affected you deeply, because you ran away from me when I saw those cuts..." I said hugging her.

"It's complicated Justin..." She said quietly. 

"I have some time." I said. 

"I just... I just don't know if I can talk about it right now." She says.

"Well I'm suppose to be meeting your brother at 7." I tell her. She brings her head up right away and looks stunned at me. 

"Why?" She asked worried. 

"Well... when you disappeared with no word. I had to find a way to find you.  I sent your brother a message asking if I could talk to him. I gave my number to him so I could maybe find out where you were at. And his receptionist told me he didn't want to talk about you over the phone..." I said. She frowns, then lets go of me and sits up in the bed. I sit up with her. She starts to mumble stuff under her breath. She tucks her hands under her legs.

"Why..." She says barely audible. 

"I was too worried for you Brienna..." I said. 

"You'll think I'm a loser after he tells you, and you'll probably hate me too..." She says trailing off. 

"And why would I think that. I will never hate you, I love you remember?" I said.

"I'm not worth it Justin... And I know you won't want to be with me after you hear it from my brother." She said as tears began to invade her beautiful face. I lift her chin up, and look into her beautiful eyes that mesmerize me. 

"I hate to see you cry. And your worth more than everything in the world. I'll never leave you. I promise." I said giving my pinky finger to her to promise.

"You promise..." She said trying to overcome the tears. 

"Yes." I said smiling. She wraps her pinky around mine. "I promise." I tell her. She nods. "Do you want to come with me when I go to see your brother?" I ask. 

"No..." She says shaking her head.

"Are you sure?" I ask. She nods to assure me she doesn't want to go. We both look down at the floor and the room goes silent. "Oh! I almost forgot." I said then reach for my pocket to pull out her phone. "You left this." I said handing it to her. She looked up then grabbed it from hand.

"Thanks." She says quietly and puts it away. The room goes silent again. 

"Did you mean to leave your phone at my house?" I ask curious. She nodded her head. "Why did you do that?" I asked. 

"So you couldn't contact me... I wanted you to forget about me, but that didn't work." She said.

"I could never forget about you..." I whispered softly. "You mean too much to me." I tell her.

"You make it hard for me to forget about you. I just didn't want you to see me like this. All cut up and damaged." She said looking down at her wrist. I moved my hand to her wrist and look at her scars. It tore me up inside to see those on her. I rubbed my thumb across her scars, they were still pretty fresh. They hadn't healed yet. I could see old scars that where there from probably the past.

She moved closer to me. She surprised me a little with her hug. I enjoyed it and embraced he. I kiss the top of her head. Her scent was so heavenly, I missed it so much. 

"You should probably get going." She said quietly. I didn't want to leave her. Especially since I just found her. She probably has her reasons for why she wants me to leave. At least I can contact her now and know where she is.

"Yeah I probably should..." I say quietly. I stand up and walk to the door. "I just want you to know Brienna that even after I talk to your brother, I'll still love you the same way. I just don't want you to leave me. That's what I'm afraid of... I love you." I say before I open the door.

"I hope so..." She says quietly looking down.

"Goodbye." I say. 

"Goodbye Justin." She says then looks up. Tears threaten her eyes. I take my hand off the door handle and walk back to her. I wrap my arms around her waist and smash my lips on hers. It feels like sparks fly when we kiss. I needed her in my life. She was my other half. She was the princess in my fairy tale. I break the kiss. 

"Don't cry princess." I say wiping her tears away from her face. "I love you Brienna." I say one last time then let go of her and walk out of the room. I push the button for the elevator and wait a couple minutes till the doors open. It dings signaling the doors to open. I get inside the small elevators. I hate small spaces. I was going to find out soon about Brienna. The thing I was more scared of was what if Brienna was right. What if I won't like the outcome after I do find out? It runs through my head repeatedly, like a song stuck on replay.What if she finds out about me? The daunting memories hurt to much to talk about. I can't face the darkness that consumes me as a person. Tearing me apart, inside and out. I can never overcome the past...







Wow I feel like this chapter really did suck. I'm sorry guys if it does. I had no clue what to write. I've been stuck on how this chapter was going to turn out. I'm so sorry for the wait and hope it doesn't suck!





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