My love

There was only two things that I was totally sure of. One, Harry loved me. And two, I was deeply and utterly in love with him. I want to be with him for a very long time. And I'm starting with forever...
Harry Styles is my only love. For now and forever. I never thought it was possible to fall for someone this hard... but I did.


15. Everything's gonna be alright...

I finnaly fell asleep this morning after crying so hard. I woke up to the sound of someone walk in. When I looked over my shoulder to see who it was, I saw him. "Bella, Liam told me what happened this morning. Whats wrong?" Harry asked. I looked down. "Nothing." I said bluntly. "Don't you dare lie to me, Bella." "You really wanna know?" I asked making sure he really cared, i already knew he did though. "Of course I do." I sighed.

"Have you ever had so many bad things in your head that you felt like it is going to make your whole world come crashing down in flames?" He looked down, I'll take that as a yes. "It's about my dad. Harry, I think he died in a plane crash... Why else would my mom be so worried? It hurts so much to think about it... I kept picturing my dad and everybody on the plane being killed in a flying mettal death trap that was then on the ground engulfed in flames!" Tears started to escape my eyes even though I desperatly drying to blink them away. "Thats not it though, I keep thinking of my mom, how hurt she was, the scared look on her face... It tore a little part away from my heart. And then, there's you." Tears formed in his eyes and he opened his mouth to speak, I stopped him before he could. "Harry, Harry, calm down, I didn't mean it like that. I love you! Thats why it hurts so much." I looked at me confused. "Remember that conversation we had the other day, about what you would do if you lost me? If I left you...?" He flinched at my last words, but then nodded. "It got me thinking what I would do if I lost you... It started to kill me inside. It ripped my heart out all together. I kept thinking about you saying that I wasn't good for you. That I wasn't good enough for you. I kept thinking about you telling me that you don't love me, that you never did, or telling me that you did love me, but now you feel nothing because you realized how big of a mistake I was. That you found someone new." My words started to tear me apart. I felt more tears falling down my face.

Harry sat there in shock for a few seconds, but then pulled me close. "Bella, I love you...I would never leave you. I want to be with you more than anything I have ever wanted. And about your mom and dad, we are going to fix that...together. But Bella, I love you..." I looked up at him, "You swear you're always gonna stay." "Just try and stop me." I smiled and he kissed me. Our kiss was interupted when I heard my phone ring, and then I remembered. "Crap!" I screamed, picking up my phone. 
 "Hello?" I said urgently.

"Bella!" My mom sounded like she was crying.

"Mom, i'm fine, I fell asleep, I'm so sorry..."

"I'm just glad your okay. I love you."

"I love you too." There was a breif pause, I know it's time to ask her. I looked over at Harry, he nodded me on. "Mom? Can I ask you a question?" My voice was shaky. "You aren't pregnant are you?"  I laughed quietly to myself at my mother's accusation... "No, mum I'm not pregnant..." I looked over at Harry, his face was a shade of red. It sounded like she sighed of relief over the phone, but I couldn't be sure. "What is it then, Bells? I took a deep breath and swallowed the big lump that had formed in my throat. "Did dad die in a plane crash..." I heard her gasp over the phone. "Honey..." She took a deep breath, "Your father died of cancer."

"Mom you always told me that he went on a trip then got into some sort of crash... was that all a lie?" My voice was more shaky than ever. "I wanted to protect you, you were so young, you wouldn't have understood... He went on a trip, but it was to a hospital far away, not a business trip." I felt a tear fall from my face. "Honey?" I swallowed hard again and spoke. "I understand mum, its alot better to know that instead of picturing him dying in a plane that was on fire..." I shuddered. "Bella, I love you so much, and I don't want you to keep thinking of this okay? I know your dad wouldn't want you to either. I don't want you to worry about anything, have fun in New York." I smiled. "Thanks mum, I love you too. Bye." When I hung up the phone Harry walked over to me and grabbed my hand, sitting down on the bed. "Are you okay?" He seemed causious. I looked up at him, "Actually, I'm surpisingly fine. It's a relief that my dad didn't die in a plane crash... It puts me more at ease." He smiled at me. "I love you, you are so strong." I laughed. "I love you, too."

Suddenly his phone rang. I never like it when he gets called, not for the reasons that you would think. The last time he got called, I thought he was going to leave me to go to New York. I nearly broke apart, then he told me that I was comming with him... It made me sure that he loved me. He picked it up. "Hello? Oh hi! Can you give us a few minutes? When do we have to be there? Noon? Okay that works. See you then. Times Square right? Okay, thank you. Good bye."

He looked over at me and smiled. "How would you like to go to our rehersal?" I smiled back. "I would love it!" "Well, come on then, lets get the guys, we have to be there in about 20 minutes." He finnished his sentence as he was walking over to their room. I can't believe I'm going to watch a real live rehersal of the New Years eve show in Times Square! I cannot imagine if that were me up on that stage, now that would be a dream come true!



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