Hi, I'm Valerie. I'm only 16 but it seems like i lived a thousand years. Since my best friend found out my secret, she treats me differently, my parents think I'm some kind of a devil, people at school laugh at me for no apparent reason, don't worry I'm used to that. Wanna know my secret? well here it goes..


13. you took it too far

I ran, as fast as I could, to get away from everything, from everyone.  I wanted to leave this world right now. I ran to the bathroom, opened up my bag, checked for my suicide letter, it was there. It always was. I carried it with me every single day because I knew I was gonna give up one day, and I guess today is the day. I checked for my razors and my pills, they were there. I mean why wouldn't they be there, I wouldn't leave my house without them. 

I took the pills. About 70 of them. All at once. My head started to get dizzy. But still I cut. The cuts were so deep that I couldn't help but scream. My eyes were watering, not because of the pain, or the fact that I'm dying, but because of how happy I was that I was finally leaving this world, and all the people in it. I finally wouldn't be called any nasty names every single second of the day, I wouldn't feel worthless anymore, I wouldn't be in pain. 

I cut deeper and deeper, each of my screams were loud, my head dizzy, my eyes blurry, my arms and legs covered in blood, and as I cut for the last time, making sure it's a deep one, I scream so loud that I think I can see someone standing in front of me, that person ran to me and kissed me on my forehead saying everything is going to be alright, but before I could say anything, I felt light headed and all i could see was black... 

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