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Hi, I'm Valerie. I'm only 16 but it seems like i lived a thousand years. Since my best friend found out my secret, she treats me differently, my parents think I'm some kind of a devil, people at school laugh at me for no apparent reason, don't worry I'm used to that. Wanna know my secret? well here it goes..

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12. morning.

I wake up and realize it's time for school. I look at my phone and notice that I'm already late, so there is no need for me to hurry up. I slowly move around the house so that my "dad" can't hear me. All he does nowadays is just sit there and drink alcohol until he passes out or until I get home. I slowly start putting my clothes on, then my makeup, i brush my teeth and I'm ready to go.

The weather today is not so bad today, so I decide to walk. At the end of the day, I don't want to be at school, I don't want to hurry up, I just want to stay outside. I'm already nearly 2 hours late, but oh well, no one will care. I finally get to school, and realize that it's hotter there, than outside, which must mean only one thing. The heating is on. This is not gonna be a good day.

 I get to my first class and  guess what, the teacher shouts at me. Yeah I was late, but so what, I could of done something worse like actually shoot everyone in this school because I hate all of them so much. But I guess I'll just have to live with it. I quickly sit down in my seat, and get on with the day. 

The day wasn't that bad at all, that was until one of the popular girls noticed my cuts. And she laughed, really hard, really loud, so that everyone could hear.

"Look, she cuts herself!" she shouted, my whole world just felt apart, everyone knows my secret now. I didn't know what to say at all, I just stood there, ashamed of myself, of who I've became. 

 "Stop cutting you attention seeking little bitch and just die already, no one would care if you killed yourself!" everyone burst out in laughter including her. All the attention was on us, even the teachers stopped eating their lunch. It was my time to shine now and tell everyone exactly how I was feeling. 

"If I were to kill myself. Don't you dare fucking cry, don't come to my fucking funeral, don't lie and say you miss me, don't tell everyone how beautiful i was, don't tell everyone you would've tried to help, because you were a cunt to me, you laughed at me, made me feel worthless, like i don't belong here, YOU don't know how it feels to be, YOU wouldn't be even able to walk in my shoes for an hour, never mind a day. YOU CAN'T JUST TELL SOMEONE TO KILL THEMSELVES because what if they do?! it would be your fault!! YOU WOULD BE THE ONES TO BLAME. words hurt, think twice before you speak!!!" I shouted with tears in my eyes, I felt embarrassed, I had to run, that's the least I could do.  

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