Suicide to Heaven.

I was tired of it. I've finally had enough. This was it. Lindsy and I were going to end it all. One jump and it could all be over. Tears streaming down from our eyes and landing into puddles below us. We held hands. I gave her a tight hug and nodded. "one...." I said as we stepped closer to the edge of the bridge, "two..." Lindsy said as we got closer. One more step. "thr--" we both started to say but someone yelled "STOP!" and yanked me back. I looked over seeing a guy holding back Lindsy. I couldn't tell who they were, all I know is that they had just saved our lives...


1. 3 years ago


"I HATE YOU!!!! YOUR SO STUPID! GO DIE!" my brother shouted to me as I walked to my room. I sighed as I sat down. I pulled out the small little box that contained my most prized possessions, my blades. I gently took them out and grabbed out a random one. I put it against my wrist and pulled it across. I winced slightly as I watched the blood. "ICA (i cut again)" I text to Lindsy. "Same" she replied. I sighed and leaned back against the wall of my bedroom.  I decided to turn on the radio as i fiddled with the blade in my hand. "Up next is One Direction with their new single, Over Again." I squealed slightly and called Lindsy. "TURN ON 99.5 NOW!" and hung up. "OMGEE!!!! AHHH!" she sent to me over a text. I smiled at her reply and turned the volume up. Niall's solo. As he sung the lyrics it gave me butterflies. He sounded so perfect and like an angel. I knew I was smiling like an idiot, but I didn't care. The only thing that seemed to matter in that moment was Niall's perfect voice. As his solo ended I felt myself come back to reality. Once the song ended Lindsy called me. "Harry's voice" she said. "Niall's voice." I repeated back, changing the name. We talked about random things for a while. Then I heard yelling the background of the phone. "OKAY!" Lindsy shouted. I heard my mum coming towards my room. "I gotta go..." Lindsy mumbled into the phone. "Same.." I sighed and hung up. I jumped into my bed and acted as if I was asleep. I guess my mum fell for it, because she just left. Probably trying to get me for dinner. I don't eat much now-a-days. I'm too fat. I looked at my 1D calendar and rolled my eyes. Back to that hell whole they call school tomorrow. I slipped under my sheets and drifted off.


"GO DOWNSTAIRS AND EAT NOW!" shouted my dad. "I'M NOT HUNGRY!" I shouted back for the fifth time. "FINE THEN! DON'T EAT!" he yelled and with that I closed my door. I went and climbed into my bed and sighed. Why god? Why did you have to give me this life? I questioned. I knew I wasn't going to get an answer. I reached under my pillow feeling for that familiar little box. Found it. I opened it up and pulled out a blade and sliced my arm with it. I felt a million times better. Ugh. It's getting late. I might as well go to sleep. I slid the box back in its place and fell asleep.

"LINDSY WAKE UP!" shouted my dad through the house. "Back to hell." I mumbled under my breath as I grabbed my clothes for the day. I hopped into the shower then went down stairs. I did what I had to do and went to the bus stop.


I waited outside my house with my headphones in my ears and my phone in my hands. "DREAMMMMMMM!???????" I sent to Lindsy. "Ugh. It was the usual. About me and Haz. The nyou and Nialler!" She replied and I smiled at that. It was true, these were out everyday dreams. The bus came around the corner and I sighed. I sigh to much. I need to stop that. I walked onto the bus and sat down. I knew people were whispering about me. I knew they were thinking rude things about me. Ugly. Stupid. Slut. Whore. Ew. Fat. Pig. and so much more had to be running through their minds. I know it was in my mind about myself. We got to school and I met up with Lindsy. "HEY BAYBAY!" I shouted to her and gave her a hug. "Watch the cuts." I whispered into her ear. I had cuts on my waist/stomach and she was squeezing me. "Sorry hun." she said and let go. "NO HUGGING!! GO TO CLASS!" shouted the teachers. I sighed and told Lindsy I'd see her in a little..


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