Letting Go

After being brutally abused by her father and outcasted by her classmates, seventeen year old Keller Alvidas is glad and even relieved to spend her last year at Edge-of-The-World, the sleepy small town she grew up in. Everything changes when the Gabriels, a group of orphaned teenage boys arrives. They break all her rules about meeting new people but they too have secrets and when the truth comes out Keller has to decide wether to let go and save herself or to continue to be dragged through everything she wanted to run away from, all for one chance she might never get.


13. Dear Diary

Keller's P.O.V

Febuary 3rd

Dear Diary,

I've decided to remember these few months in this small town, afterall these are my last months in this town and now I have a reason to remember them. I spend most of my time with the Gabriels and I'm really enjoying myself. Will makes me laugh, Ian walks me to math class, I play cards with Al when we can't sleep. I mostly tease Ed but he seems to enjoy the banter and he teases me right back. I haven't figured out James yet but I still have plenty of time, four months to be exact. I still have my alone time when the guys go to parties and hang out with their other friends and it's fine, everyone needs their own space once in a while. I'm new to this diary thing so don't judge me.

Signed, Keller.

Feb 14th

Dear Diary,

Today was Valentine's Day. Just another day to remind you that you're single and all that rubbish. Will seemed to take a liking to Ellis, the brunette in my chemistry class and Ian looks like he fancies Lorena, one of the girls in the drama departement. I asked them about it later and they blushed and denied everything. Of course the rest of us saw through it all and we made them regret lying to us. Just joking, we did get them admit it though and no one got hurt so it's all in good fun. As for James, he's still one big puzzle piece to me. I just can't shake that boy. And Ed, half the girls in our class practically begged him to take them out while I quietly threw up in my mouth. Don't they have  any diginity? That sounded mean but it's true, no use in begging anyone.

Signed, Keller.

Mar. 5th

Dear Diary,

Nothing majorly important has happened except for Will and Ellis and Ian and Lorena going out. They're all on a date right now while I'm hanging out with Al and James. Ed's at the mall and Al is flipping through a scrapbook. I'm not sure what James' up too though I suspect he's peaking over my shoulder. Nevermind, he is  peaking over my shoulder. I'll continue later.

Signed, Keller.

"James, what are you doing?" I ask swiping away my book before he can see my entries.

"Nothing," he says holding his hands up in mock innocence . I'm sitting cross legged on Al bed with James right beside me, I take a pillow and hit James over the head with it.

"What was that for?" he asks with a pout.

"That's for lying," I say with a smirk.

"Calm yourselves over there. World peace remember," warns Al. We both laugh and I continue writing my entries.

"Hey Al! A little help here!" yells Ed from the front door. Al bursts out of the room and goes to help Ed. How many bags could he have brought? James grabs the chair near the computer and siwvels it in front of me.

"So, I'm one big puzzle piece am I?" he says with held back laughter. My face reddens, goodness he saw that?

"Goodness, how much did you read?" I almost scream. All I get as a response is James running of the room laughing. He better not tell the guys what I wrote, that'd be embarassing. I chase James down the hall and up the stairs. The stairs get higher and higher until James pushes open a heavy metal door and escapes inside. I realize how high up we are and slowly push the door open. The winter wind chills me only slightly even though I'm only in a light sweater but the view makes up for that.

The view takes my breath away and I wonder how I never thought to come up here before.

"It's gorgeous up here," breathes James and I nod silently in agreement. From up here the streetlight looks like a hundred little stars as night wraps around Edge-of-the-World. The surrounding trees look willowly and mystical and it gives the illusion of protecting the town from the outside world. The roaring ocean is calming as it comes from the east. It's just stunning.

I walk towards the edge of the roof and a few pebbles fall over. I take a seat there with my feet dangling over the edge, it's probably not the safest place for sitting but it seems right. James takes a seat next to me and I suddenly feel faint. James must feel the same way because he visibly shakes. I grab him from the shoulders to keep him from falling over and he seems grateful for the protection. We switch positons and James holds me by the waist keeping me steady. We stay like that for a while, my arms twined around his neck and his arm around my waist. I can hear his heart thumping to the beat of my own and for the first time in ages I feel alright.  All to soon he lets go and my heart sinks a little, his warm hands are comforting.

"You didn't have to sit here if you don't want to," I say when he starts to shake again.

"It's fine, I'm just cold. I like open spaces," he says. We sit in silence as the night get darker around us.

"So what was that all about?" he asks suddenly.

"What are you talking about?" I respond.

"The whole diary thing, You didn't come across the diary keeping type," he shrugs.

"Well, there are plenty of things you don't know about me," I smile.

"Like what?" he asks, my own smile mirroring his own.

"Well, I'm huge slob, writing is my oxygen, and I can't sing," I laugh.

"Good to know."

"It's your turn now. I said three things nobody's known about me so you have to do the same," I challenge.

We take turns saying something about ourseleves and it's like we've become friends just now, laughing at things about ourselves best kept hidden on a rooftop of a place best not lived in.

"You're serious?" I ask. We now sit cross legged facing each other and laughing so hard I could pee.

"Yeah, Will pantsed me in Burger King. Everyone saw," James says while laughing, "It's your turn, what's the absolutely worst thing you've ever done?" It takes me a long time to think about that.

"Probably, getting into a fight at school," I say remembering my fight with Sonia, I don't feel bad. She got what she deserved.

"That's it? Oh, well it doesn't matter as long as you stick with us you'll get in as much trouble as possible," he says putting his arm around me. Our laughter dies down and I realize that I'm still in James' arms. I wiggle out of the position and face him again.

"Your turn," I exclaim,"tell me something no one in the world knows yet about James Gabriel!" The overall happiness I'm feeling fills my voice with bravado. The pause is long and afterwards I think he won't answer. My smile falters.

"The one thing no one in the world knows about me yet is that I'd never have guessed that I'd have so much fun here," he replies. My face falls.

"That's it? I was hoping for something more... unexpected,"I say with a slight frown on my face.

"Like what?" he asks. He has a devious smile playing on his lips that contrasts his angel face.

"I don't know. Why don't you tell me a lie?" I ask. James leans in so close that I can feel his warm breath on my face. I tip my ear close enough to hear is barely audible whisper.

"I think I'm falling in love," he whispers as his lips tickle my ear. I pull back immediately and see James rolling around on the ground laughing. I try to be thankful that it's just a joke but my spirits refuse to lift. It's not like you like him, I think. James' face is turning red from his laughing and I can't help but smile at the adorableness of it. Or maybe you do, I think back.

"Very funny," I say sarcastically. After a couple more questions we decide to head back down to the rest of the guys.

"Here they are!" screams Will in his usual bravado. I smile and talk with the rest of the guys before heading back to my room. I open my book and put pen to paper.

Dear Diary,

I hope I'm not falling in love.

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