Back For You

Ava had a relationship with Harry Styles all through the X factor and three years previous to that. But, when his career skyrocketed, they fell apart. The only way for her to deal with the pain of letting go , was to paint a bad picture of Harry in her mind and try and forget. When One Direction comes to Ava's mall for a signing she discoveres that fame can really change a person, but some old feelings are rising back up. Can Ava be what Harry needs to come back down to Earth?


3. Emotional Overload

I didn't even have a chance to respond and Harry was gone. Only for about twenty seconds though, and he returned with Paul, who pulled me behind the curtain to the boys' dressing room.

"Ummm.. Ava. Harry wants you to stay back here until the signing is over," Paul said to me with a sad look in his eye.

I wondered why Paul seemed so upset, but I figured it was because of whatever Harry said.

“Okay, thanks Paul. I’m really sorry for all of this I never should’ve even come,” I stuttered out .

Holy crap I thought to myself. What have I gotten myself into. Ava you should’ve just accepted that you were never going to get closure and let it be. Now not only does Harry hate me, but I was starting to also. I can’t ever just let anything go.

I peeked out of the curtain to see that there were only about ten girls left in line, and I accepted that I was going to have to man up and talk to Harry shortly. The fact that I was wrong here, and had to admit that to him made me quiver; he would probably just rub it in my face. But, I deserved it this time, I really really messed up.

Being in this dressing room gave me an odd sense of home.


“You’re really lucky to have Harry in your life sweetie,” Lou whispered to me as she was putting finishing touches on Zayn’s quaff.

That thought brought a huge smile to my face and I nodded to Lou. I didn’t have to say anything, the smile I beared said enough about how I felt.
Harry was in my life, and always would be. He was about to go on stage right now and perform for thousands of girls, but he will always come off stage and act like I am the only girl in the world.

The boys had finished getting into their stage outfits and one by one pulled back the curtain to enter the stage. But, before Harry disappeared from my sight, he turned around and gave me one of his huge bear hugs. That gave me assurance that no matter what happened, he would always be with me.


I snapped out of it when I heard the distinct accents of five boys entering the room. They each came in one by one through the curtain, Harry being the last one. The similar sight pained me a little more than it should’ve. The thought of losing the way he looked at me with those eyes again, made me realize that I couldn’t let him go, but I wasn’t ready to bring him back into my life again either. I had to find a way to buy myself time, time to think. There was no way I was going to decide my whole future with this guy in the twenty seconds I had before he would start speaking to me.

Harry walked to the opposite side of the room and looked at me with his jade green eyes, signaling he wanted me to join him.  My heart skipped a beat and I walked over to where he stood.

“What are you doing here?” Harry mumbled in a tone I couldn’t figure out.
Quick Ava think of something. I got a bit distracted studying his face, his changed face. He seemed older, his features were more distinct and manly now. No more of the baby faced Harry.

I hadn’t seen him since he left, and it was a good thing I didn’t. The pain would have never been numbed if I saw those jade eyes boring into mine the way only Harry's did. All of these thoughts raced through my head, and then I realized I had to answer him.

“Well..,” I stammered “ This morning, the reason I came here was because I needed closure. I spent the last three years of my life trying to understand why you let me go. You just left me in the airport... and it didn’t even seem hard for you. “ I said with a bit of sadness in my voice. This was how I was going to buy time, if Harry thought I still loved him, maybe he wouldn’t get rid of me right away. I bit my cheek and thought of what Rachel McAdams said to Noah in The Notebook. Somewhere down inside me I found the tears to scream out.

“Ava, you know that-,” Harry tried to cut in.

“NO STOP! DON’T SAY ANYTHING YOU HAVE TO LET ME TALK,” I screamed while tears streamed down my face from all the emotion coming at 1000 miles per hour. I had to get this all out now or I would never say it.

“THREE YEARS HARRY. Three years. I came to the conclusion that I just wasn’t good enough for you and I hated you... I HATED you. I initially came to hear you tell me yourself that that was the reason you left me.” I spat out all with one long breath. “But, when Paul came to get me, and I saw you and the boys, and you made me come back to your dressing room...” I said, meaning it a bit more than I had planned, and I collapsed to the ground.


Never in my life would I ever think that the sight before me was even possible. Throughout our entire relationship, Ava was a rock. And now, in front of me sobbing like a newborn, was a totally different person than who I left in the airport three years ago. She didn't realize that I was completely different too. I'd always have a soft spot for Ava since we've known each other since we were toddlers, but I wasn't going to change my whole life for her.

I had rehearsed what I was going to say during the last part of the signing, but when i saw this new vulnerable side I’d never witnessed, I figured it would be a bit too harsh. After all I did spend a good three years of my life with her girl, I actually did have feelings for her.
I couldn't just let her lie at my feet sobbing, so I sat down cross cross apple sauce to be at her level. It wasn't possible to just bring back some person in my life that had been missing for so long. She didn't know about Courtney... Shit. This whole ordeal isn't going to look good to Courtney.

Come on Harry... How do you deal with this situation. You can't just say yes Ava I love you too let's go get married and live happily ever after. But a voice in the back of my mind was telling me not to let her go. I've learned to trust that creepy voice in my head, it actually helps out sometimes.

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