Fangirl: The Story Of After

Dies from fangirling and can't be brought back, even after the struggles of the Spirits.


6. Within the killing

He was suppose to pick me up that day, except, he knew I was mad at him. He was the first person that I haunted. The moment he learned he killed me, he wanted to kill himself but that's what led the car to hitting me.  I remember his words


'If I'm going to live in a world where she isn't my best friend, why live at all?'


With those words, he was hoping to crash his car, killing himself. The car ended up unscratched, but it took away my soul. Maybe that's why he won't leave. This is where the guilt began and he doens't want it following him everywhere. I remember being in his room the first time he cut. He's so depressed now though. It's really hurting me. He would turn on my favorite music and just lay in bed crying. It breaks me seeing him like that. Maybe this is the reason I follow those celebrities around and pull pranks on them. It makes me happy seeing them laugh or freaked out after all the pain I see him in. I know he didn't mean to hurt me. He didn't see me sitting on the curb. I was always on the short side.

He was my friend for ages. It was my fault for overreacting and being mad. If I was never crazy like that and too emotional, we could've still been the best of friends. He wouldn't be in therapy. I wouldn't be scaring the famous ones. Everything would be normal. The problem is, everyone is happier with me gone, everyone but him. 

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