It Hurts To Know.

It hurts to know that you'll never remember something I'll never forget.

Alexandria has never been more excited for anything. Finally after going through so much struggles and pain, she can FINALLY meet her idols. This was the one night she could get away. Away from all the hatred and pain at home. Away from all the abuse and hurt. But what she and her best friend Chloe thought was going to be an average concert- turned into the best night of their lives. What happens after Chloe leaves? Is Chloe really a TRUE friend? Who will Alex chose? And more importantly... who is hurting them? Will someone finally tell her she's worth it, that she's beautiful... and will somebody finally care for her?


17. The Day Our Forever Started.




I said I was fine, but I never was. All the lies I’ve told- all people I’ve hurt. I know I shouldn’t listen- listen to what they say, but I do anyway. Because- if you compliment a girl she’ll believe it for a second- but if you insult her, she’ll remember it for a lifetime.



I plastered a fake smile on my face as I looked towards Harry, I didn’t want to ruin the mood because some people started hating me. I started thinking about about how this had happened.


“You seem deep in thought, what’s up love?” Harry said as he kept driving, we were almost there.


“I just… I can’t believe I met you guys. A few days ago I had DREAMS of meeting you- but now…” I paused, “I’m going to Wonderland with Harry FUCKING Styles!” I just let that sink in, slowly.


“Well just shows that you’re special,” he winked, as he was smirking- knowing that this meant so much to me. I saw a bluish rollercoaster come into view and tense up- I wanted to get over my fear so badly- but- I just can’t. “You afraid of rollercoasters too?”


“Yeah, they freak me OUT!” I was so nervous but- “wait… you’re afraid of rollercoasters too?” and I thought I was a real directioner.


“DUH!” he exclaimed as if everybody HAD to be scared of them. “It’s just so high up- and I keep telling myself everyday I’ll go on, but I never do.” He kinda seemed sad- but a plan started forming in my head.


“HARRY!” I looked over to him, “how ‘bout we get over our fear together? We could just do that first- the BIGGEST ONE! And then when the boys come they’ll be all surprised…” I realized that he might not have wanted to, so I looked down. “I mean… only if you w-“


“Of course I will.” He looked back at the road- but I had seen a twinkle of fear in his eyes. He puffed up his chest and started trying to look all manly- so I burst out laughing. A part of me was so scared I didn’t know what to do- and another part of me just felt like exploding. I looked around the empty parking lot as Harry parked the car. It had looked so empty- and felt so abnormal. I tried to think why- and then I realized that Harry had rented the park. I felt so stupid- a sudden vibration started in my pocket, so I reached in and got my phone. I looked at the caller ID and realized that Louis had entered himself as ‘Sass Masta’ and chuckled while answering the phone.


“Why hello ‘Sass Masta’,” I sarcastically said.


“Why hello sass apprentice,” he replied. His voice seemed a little off- as if something had shook him; he seemed worried.


“Lou-Lou are you okay?”


“Yes love, just a bit stressed because there aren’t any carrots I can eat.” He sounded like he was lying- but I didn’t want to start accusing him.


“Okay. When do you guys think the recording will be over?”


“About in an hour?” he paused. “We’ll eat lunch at Nandos and meet up with you guys, okay?”


“Mkaiiii girl.” I wanted to make a mood a bit brighter; also- I didn’t know what to say. Would it be too fast to say I love you? I didn’t want to say it over the phone- so I decided on something better. “Take care Boobear.”


“Okay Love, see you soon”


“Bye Lou.” I locked my phone and looked over to Harry. He seemed sad for second, and when he realized I was looking he seemed a bit happy, but a fake happy. “Are you okay Harry?”


“Yeah, just nervous,” now I knew he was lying. “ya know, for the rides?”


“Oh okay.” What wasn’t he telling me? I felt the warm air hit me, and I had realized that Harry had opened the door for me. “Why thank you Harry,” I tried to use my best british accent- but I knew I was failing.


“No problem princess, afta you.” He did a little bow and led me out of the car. I giggled as he wrapped his arm over my shoulder. His touch had sent little butterflies through my stoma- NO! I’m with Louis now… I can’t feel this way towards anybody else! Not Harry, Liam or Ni… Niall. Thinking about him made my hard ache- and made it hard to breath. It was weird how a person I met a few days ago could have such an affect on me. My eyes rapidly shut as there were flashes everywhere. I could feel Harry breath in and tense up, and I opened my eyes to be mobbed my the paparazzi and questions.


“Oh shit…” Harry whispered. He started walking faster dragging me along, but the reporters kept up anyways.


“Hey Harry! Who’s the fat ass?” the words had stung as he had said it, and I could feel Harrys tighten his grip around my shoulders.


“HARRY! Is this your new girl-toy!”





“Harry! Do you realize you could do so much better?” I could feel the tears rolling down my cheeks as each word hit me; I felt as if someone kept stabbing me with a knife. I guess that it was also enough for Harry, so he had stopped and turned around- his whole face red.


“Now YOU listen to me.” He paused as he let go of my shoulders. “SHE” he pointed at me, “Is an AMAZING GIRL. SHE is worth more than ANY of you will ever be.” He walked up to a pap and started yelling at him. “She is BEAUTIFUL, and the most amazing girl you will ever meet. Now, leave. Us. The. Fuck. Alone.” He turned around and came back, this time wrapping his arm around my waist. I could sense the flashes still going off but I didn’t care.


“You didn’t have to do that,” I slowly whispered. He turned and faced me as we reached the park- security had made the paparazzi leave.

“Yes I did Alex, you need to realize that every I did say IS true, and these stupid people shouldn’t mean anything.” He slowly wiped the tears off my cheek and looked into my eyes, and I into his. They were the most dazzling eyes I had ever seen- and they were saying so much. The light had been reflecting off the green, making them even more stunning. There was a sign of pain, as if he was holding something back, and a twinkle of mischief. I realized that I had been leaning in- so I quickly leaned back and cleared my throat.


“Thanks Harry,” he seemed a little bit disappointed, but then seemed happy. “Catch me if you can,” I loudly yelled while running. The adrenaline was rushing through my viens making it easier to run, and I ran as fast as I could. I turned my head to see him quickly gaining on me- so I suddenly stopped and turned around, running in circles. I eventually say him getting dizzy, so I ran towards the gates of the amusement park, hoping he wouldn’t catch me. I looked at the lady waiting and nodded towards the now running harry, and she opened the door to let me in. When Harry had gotten at the door I could see that the lady had stalled him for me- asking for his identification and making sure he was the real Harry. I sat down on a bench in front of the waterfall and waited for him to come sit beside me. I felt a warm body sit beside me and start chuckling, so I started laughing too. I turned around expecting to look into green eyes- but I saw blue.


“A…Aaron?” I was scared, so I looked around trying to find Harry. I mouthed him “help,” and I could see him worry as he fastened his pace.


“Hello Alexandria.” His voice sent goosebumps down my back, and a shiver through my body. “I see I still have the same affect on you don’t I? It seems as if you’ve forgotten that I ALWAYS have your location,” he slowly said as his smile turned into a smirk, and more aggressive. I felt him put his arm around my waist and lean in- so I started leaning in back. “What. Are. You. Doing.” His grip tightened to a point where I knew it would leave bruises.

“Aaron leave me alone.” He stood up face turning red.


“Oh so you don’t want me now?” he was yelling now, “Alexandria no one else will ever want a piece of shit like you- you might as well just listen to me.” I saw Harry tap on Aaron’s shoulder, and Aaron turning around confused.


“Hullo, I’m Harry” he smiled, and then- punch him in the face. I jumped up and ran over to Harry. I let out a loud gasp, looking down to Aaron’s body that had passed out from the punch. No one had ever done something like this for me. But I knew I had to leave. I dragged Harry from his wrist, trying to forget about Aaron, pushing myself towards the biggest rollercoaster.

“Are you sure you’re up to this?”

“What you think I’m not man enough?” he smirked, and I knew where he was going with this. I raised my hands in defeat as we walked up to the “Leviathan”.

“Oh no! You and the boys have PLENNNTTTYYY of muchoness, it’s just lil’ old me who can’t take it.” Harry got down on one knee and took my hand, kissing it like a knight. I felt the sparks rush up my hand, leaving me stunned.

“Well my lady, let sir Harold lead you through.” He put his arm around my shoulder and led me to the entrance. I could feel both of us shaking now, as we were both afraid. I gulped as we passed through the door, and got into the seats. I grabbed his hand as we locked in, afraid that something was going to happen. I looked up to see him smirking, and decided to go with it. I leaned in his shoulder and closed my eyes, pretending that I was scared- even though I really was. I opened my eyes to see the rollercoaster going up the hill, and slowly by slowly. None of us spoke, too afraid to say anything. I took in the scenery as we reached the top- and fastly went down. Harry and I started screaming loudly, but after a second of the wind rushing through my hair, my screams turned into cheers.


“WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!” We both yelled as the ride came to an end, and started laughing.


“Well that was fun.”





The air got knocked out of my chest as I starred at Niall and Chloe all over eachother.


“What the hell?” I yelled, ready to punch someone. Niall looked up at me, and Chloe also, both faces red. Niall had put on a smug face,


“What do you want Louis?” He had spit out my name as if it disgusted him.


“Yeah Louis, whadaya want?” Chloe had rudely replied. I stepped back shocked- what had happened to Chloe? Why was she acting so rude?


“Well some people woke up on the wrong side of the bed today…” I muttered.


“What can I not kiss my GIRLFRIEND now?” Niall said, mocking Alex. My mouth had dropped open, and I looked over to see Chloe smirking


“G…girlfriend?” I didn’t know why I was alarmed by this- and then it hit me. Alex likes or LIKED Niall… and Chloe’s her best friend. Niall had hurt her this morning and… holy shit- this would mess her up. I started walking out of Niall’s room, not knowing what to do. I had slammed the door and ran into my room, sitting against my wall. I decided to check Harry’s twitter, and saw his last two posts. What the girls were saying had broken my heart- and I started scrolling down. My eyes had immediately diverted to one certain post- from El. My heart ached as I saw what she had said, and immediately unfollowed her. I went ahead and followed Alex, and tweeted two of my own messages.


@Louis_Tomlinson: Hating her won’t make me love you.

@Louis_Tomlinson: Missing you! @a13aha xo:)

I had immediately gotten a reply from her-

@a13aha: Missing you too babe! :* @Louis_Tomlinson

I smiled at how unafraid she was to say that- and I started scrolling down through my second posts. I laughed at some of the comments.

@Louisfuturewifeduh: GASPPP! ARE YOU CHEATING ON ME!?

@Hesmineandnotyours: OMG. LOUIS WHAT HAPPENED.

@Breakhisheartibreaku: YOU CHEATIN ON ME?

I chuckled and realized how much of an affect my fans had on me- they could make me smile and yet sometimes they just broke me heart. I quickly locked my phone and thought about today- and what had happened. I opened my phone and quickly tweeted something else,

@Louis_Tomlinson: 01.02.13

That day- the day our forever started.

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