I Don't Know What To Do With You

Shannen and Megan have been friends since they can remember. the thing is... after a sleepover, Shannen realised she has feelings for Megan's twin brother, Arthur-- BUT THEY HATE EACH OTHER. Arthur was starting to feel the same way... would they ever realise their feelings for each other?

Megan has like her guy bestfriend Jesse, since she first laid eyes on him. The problem is that he goes to her for advice on His Girlfriend Massy. Will she be able to build up the courage to tell him how she really feels?? Will Jesse feel the same way?


3. Past

Megan's P.O.V

I woke up with his arms wrapped tightly around me. He felt so warm. I felt protected. Butterflies flew like crazy. I wanted to stay like this forever in his arms. But that isn't my position. He is with Massy, I'm just the supporting friend. I continued to look up at him sleeping peacefully. I know i loved him. I always had. When we were younger he liked me on and off. My feelings would never go away. No matter how hard i tried to push them away. It hopeless. Back then he was On and Off dating with Massey  She was always in the way. I didn't understand. What she had against me. I have always been funnier, smarter and prettier than her. But Jesse never seemed to see that. But even though i love him. I know he will never feel the same. But Im also mad at him and myself. Because i have so much feelings for him. I can't ever feel the same way with others. I have had boyfriends. But things went wrong because im to insecure to trust anyone with my damaged heart. Jesse really hurt me when i was younger. We were fools. He filled my head with things. I believed him. Then i found out he was pretending and that he never meant the things he had told me. I had gotten so mad and my heart completely shattered. After awhile my ex so called friend Amy had been hanging out with him and trying to make me jealous. Then i gave up and i actually didn't like him for awhile. But when i didnt, i wasn't happy and it hurt every time i saw him in class or walked by him. I wasn't the same. Then i found out from an old friend, Nicole that he was pressured to do what he had done and he was upset that he hurt me and that he really did like me. Then we started to talk again. Not as much but then we became best friends again. Now here we are. Lying in my bed side by side and sleeping. How it should and how i always imagined it would be. But there was one problem... Massy. 


I woke up slightly and found I was... spooning with Arthur? I laughed at the thought of us. I changed our positions. I layed my head on his shoulder and cuddled more. I felt him wrap his arm around me, trying to pull me closer to his body. He was still sleeping. He was drooling. I laughed a little. I played with his light brown hair through my fingers. They were soft. I can't believe we hated each other. 

At Grade 5, we were the best of friends. He had so much fucking swag. No one wanted to be his friend, but we were friends. I don't know what made him like me as his friend but it happened. He would also hang and chill at my house to play videogames. I don't think I had a crush on him though. It happened till Grade 8 came. He gained more friends, guy AND girl friends. Slowly and slowly, we both started to grow apart. That's when I realized... I loved Arthur. He was my bestest friend, and now it's like we are strangers in each other's eyes.

Sooner or later, he started to hang with some guy friends and whenever he's with them, he'd call me some shitty names. He would tell me soo much shit. One time I left afterschool crying, crying because I loved him and he hurt my feelings. In that moment, I was saying to myself "I miss my bestfriend." That's when I met Megan. Megan was kind of in the same situation, but Jesse and her became bestfriends again. While I, am still trying to get over Arthur.

Then the day finally came. At Grade 9, I came up to him and I literally punched him hard. We were both sent to the principal's office. We both got detention for it, alone. I was forced to say sorry to him. But that day, I was just... I was finally done. Feelings gone, everything gone. All those memories-- fuck him. He had a black eye through out the whole week.

And now... this. The feelings are coming back. I don't even know if I'm happy or sad. I'll get back to that once I solve out this day. I don't want to have feelings for him because it's soo obvious he doesn't want me back in his life like that. As his best friend.

You may ask, why would you be best friends with a boy? Uhuh, well he just... he likes to stay outta drama-- girls are lotsa drama btw. He likes sprots-- girls are to... idk, somehow 'girly' for sports? There's lots more but I feel like I'm making some kind of battle of the sexes and I feel like I'm going against my own sex. I can say I'm a pretty bad tomboy. But you know, I have a buncha gurrrlfriends. < Not like that, because I am not a lesbian, guys. I had a couple of boyfriends... and I dated Jesse at Grade 5. But that was nothing, cause Grade 5, we were like all young and we didn't know shit what love was. Megan was okay with that, cause I knew that she liked Jesse. 

"I miss you Arthur..." I slowly whispered to him. I kissed his forehead and walked outta the room.


She thought I was sleeping the whole time she woke up. It gave me the excuse to pull her closer to me. The feeling of her touching my hair like that was relaxing. I loved Shannen, I always have. I mean, she was my best friend right, so I loved her. I made her hate me though. It was the only way. Only way for what, you ask?

At grade 7, I got scared. I was scared of her. Not in that way. I was scared of what I felt. I didn't understand why every time I saw her, butterflies in my stomach would form. I didn't get why I felt I should always try to look nice for her, smell nice for her. I didn't understand why sometimes I just want to go out with her more on the weekends. I didn't understand anything. 

At grade 8, I wanted her to hate me. I wanted her to have nothing to do with me, and for I to have nothing to do with her. I started to call her mean names and shit, starting to tell her I hate her and that's she's a loser. One time, afterschool she went crying home because I told her that I wish I never met her and that she'd jump off a bridge. That night I cried myself to sleep. I knew I went too far with that one, and that I hurt her big time. I never saw her cry before, ESPECIALLY IF I WAS THE REASON WHY. I couldn't even bring myself to say sorry to her.

At grade 9, that's when I realized it. The thing that I kept feeling inside. It was love. But not that. I was falling inlove with her. It was too late to tell her now, and why should I. I don't think she'd feel the same way anyways. When she punched me in the face, I realized it was the end of things. I still loved her after that. Always have, and always will. Because no one can ever replace her. She, was my true bestfriend.

"I miss you Arthur..." She whispered and kissed my forehead. She walked out of the room. 

"I miss you too Shannen..." I whispered. 

Jesse's P.O.V 

I woke up to nothing beside me. Where had she gone? WAIT Why do i care? stop it, you have always cared. I sat up in the bed and looked around her room. One Direction... everywhere. I couldn't help but smile at the fact. Me and Megan were always there when we needed someone. Shes so fragile and i try not to break her by saying the wrong thing. Shes not bipolar or anything, just emotional. Back in grade 7, we used to always fool around. We would always joke in the halls. Chill at recess. We had a handshake too.  She wasn't shy. But hyper around me, i was hyper around her. Its like we were two bursts of energy waiting to explode. And it exploded when we were together. She always hugged me and everyone around her. Then the summer came. I had feelings for her. I realized that i missed her. I always asked her to meet me at a park. She was never aloud to go cause it was to far.  You see my mom lived far from the area of the school. So we talked on kik one night and started asking questions. Stupid questions. We answered them truthfully and we promised we would talk all night. I had a friend over that night.We were playing around with her by asking her those questions. I knew it was wrong but my friend Andrew got a kick out of it. Then we hung out in the summer once. With her friends.  I didn't like them. They were annoying, The girls where younger than her too. She and Kelsi are complete enemy's now. Then came grade 8 year. When i got a phone. We chilled all the time. We talked on the phone once. And we text-ed. Then i decided to play a game. So i did exactly what i did in grade 7. Played with her feelings. I was such an ASS-WHOLE  I secretly did like her. But Andrew thought i didn't  After all of that one time i told her to go swimming and she brought a friend. I told her i didn't like her anymore because i had hit puberty. She tripped and fell with a scraped on her knee. Pissed as fuck. But even how hard she tried to hide it. I could see i hurt her. I could see it in her eyes. Andrew was laughing and joking saying stuff like 'Oh you gonna cry, cause he dosen't like you?' shit like that. It made her feel worse so we decided to go. Her and her friend stayed. She just sat there. That night she was texting me. Telling me how much she was pissed off. I told her everything i said was i lie threw texting. And thats when things changed. I started hanging with this girl Amy. She was annoying and me and Megan were getting along then too. Every time Megan came around Amy would talk to me. But when highschool started things were back to normal. But she didn't know that i felt horrible about what me and Andrew did. It was his idea. I liked her alot then too. But i never really told her that...

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