Why is love so complicated??

A teenage girl goes through the discovery of Love and why it is the way it is for her. She tries to see the changes that happen in boys and her everyday life as a teenager.


5. My History

I had never thought of Isaiah as a friend. I mean he's my neighbor. I never found him as anything special. He was just a dude that I would be dancing with. That was until my parents decided to get involved.

They told me they saw the way that he looked at me. That he supposedly had a crush on me. I didn't really want to make much out of it because I wasn't really into him that way and i surely didn't want him into me that way either.He was just someone I had to dance with. I had never ever danced with a boy before, so of course I was kind of nervous. I didn't want to be nervous because I knew that I would become a total mess. But I wasn't nervous for the reasons the other girls were. I was nervous because I didn't know how Lennaie would react to me dancing with her crush. I was afraid that she would give me the stink eye all of practice. How could she do that though, you may ask. I know I said that she's my Best Friend, but no one know her the way I do. She can be a complete B!tch when it comes to boys. I don't know if i would react the way she does because unlike her, i have never had a boyfriend. Strange you may say especially given the fact that I'm 17 years old.

I dont know, I just never thought of experimenting with a person and seeing if it would work out. Partly because I know that teenage relationships don't really last, and also because i feel that there is no one that can meet my "standards". "Standards" that I happen to take very seriously. 

These standards got made in my brain at about the age of 12. I wanted a guy who was tall, with green eyes, and who was smart. I had found a guy like this. And I thought he liked me. Well I thought this after Lennaie told me that he was planning on asking me out. The funny thing is that, when I was in 6th grade I totally hated this dude. I thought he was so full of himself and that he thought he was so smart. And I had to endure this for about 3 years. He was in my classes all in middle school. And unfortunately teacher thought it would be quite swell to seat him right beside me. I thought it was a total pain though. I didnt like him at all because he always tried to do his work faster than me. I would always try my hardest to finish first, yet I would never beat him. And that just made me even more angry.That was until one day in science class in 6th grade I got an A on a test and he got an A-. I was so happy with myself. I had finally beat him. 

So, when Lennaie gave me this piece of information I was completely appauled by the whole thing. I didn't want to be dating a boy that I completely detested. Then as i was going to math I thought about what it would be like if he actually did ask me out. I didn't know what I would say. But he never asked me and from then on I NEVER believed Lennaie EVER.

But because of him I had these "Standards" that a guy had to be exactly like him. So that obviously left me with not alot of choices. I never looked out at all the other guys that were around. I never thought of giving them an opportunity. i just thought of the perfect green eyed Italian guy. Which was a big mistake.

So, when I was partnered up with Isaiah, I just thought about how he wasn't an Italian with green eyes and about how he wasnt' really worth my time. 

Join MovellasFind out what all the buzz is about. Join now to start sharing your creativity and passion
Loading ...