Normal is Overrated


We have to learn to be our own best friends because we fall too easily into the trap of being our own worst enemies. ~Roderick Thorp, Rainbow Drive

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2. You don't know you're beautiful

 The alarm goes off, blaring in my ear. I sigh and punch it so it will turn off. I dig my head in my pillow. Here we go again! I get up, dragging my feet to my closet. I open it and grab my brother, Dylan's ear (because he is always hiding in there trying to scare me) and throw him out. Then, I close my bedroom door and walk towards my bathroom door. I hear my phone, on my nightstand buzz so I roll over my bed and pick it up. I clicked on the "send" button to read the text.

K- If you believe it, you can dream it - D Darling. This is for you. Get off your ass and stop being insecure. You're beautiful. Shaden believes it.

"Ugh!" I moan into my phone.

S- I don't really care. And I'm not insecure, I just don't trust myself to be real.

I am so annoyed of the people who say I'm insecure. I'm not. I just think differently about myself. As if I control how I act. Or feel. That is just natural. Like how I think, differently. Even though everyone says I'm beautiful, and unique. But I don't think that way. And I don't like how people try to prove me wrong. I choose what to be like. I choose what to think of me as. An outcast, no. I'm normal. But..am I? I was thinking to hard and distracting me from my routine. I heard my phone buzz again and prepared myself to tell Kelly to shut her face but it wasn't her.

S- Hey 'lil love. Hope you're not mad but Kelly told me everything. I agree. Same with the quote.

I nearly cried. Why can't they tell I'm perfectly fine with being inesc- not trustful of myself? Why do they push it to "help" me? I friken help myself. Not them. Or anyone. And now thanks to Kelly, Shaden is becoming a major part of this now. Screw you, Kelly, Screw you. I moaned at the thought of going to school today. I couldn't bare to see those two. Does that make me a bad person? That I don't want to face my best friend and my boyfriend? 

"Ugh!" I sigh.

"Just don't think about it. Just don't think about. You're not insecure. You're Be-au-ti-ful. Yeah." I thought out loud to myself. I rolled over again to fall off my bed. I pushed up off the ground and scrambled over to my bathroom. I stared into the mirror and frowned at the young girl staring back at me. She had straight, dirty blonde hair all tangled in a ball. She had deep brown eyes. She had rosy pink lips. And her body was unbearable. Her stomach was slouched out more than she hoped. Her thighs were way too big to be connected to her body. And, her arms were meatier than they were supposed to be. I sighed as I usually do and stepped into the shower, after getting undressed and turning the water on. I let the warm water glide down my unwanted figure.

"Too bad life isn't as the way you want to look at it rather then the way you look by yourself." I groaned as I massaged the top of my head with shampoo. After I was finished getting cleaned, I slowly stepped out of the shower and dried myself. I put on my choice of appropriate clothing and mopped all the way downstairs. I found myself sitting at the table with a piece of toast in front of me.

"Yuck mom! You know how many carbs is in toast?" I asked. My mom stopped from cleaning the counter top.

"God damn it Skylar! If you say you're fat, fine! Whatever! Do something about it, don't just sit around all day feeling sorry for yourself!" My my yelled which really startled me.

"Fine! I will! I thought you would be supportive of your daughter! I'll eat the toast! Who knows, maybe I'll explode! I bet you wouldn't mind! I hate you!" I screamed and grab my book bag to race out the door. Ever since the divorce, my mom has had so many attitudes and hasn't been happy once. I didn't care. I hated Paul. He was always drinking or on drugs. He was very rude and the house reaked  of cigarettes. I already missed the bus and I wasn't prepared to go ask my mom to drive me so I took the shortcut through the woods. That might have been a mistake seeing how at 6:00 in the morning when it is pitch black, it can be quite creepy. I threw my toast behind me hoping a rabbit or something would eat it. I seriously felt like little red riding hood running through the woods. I wanted to get my mind oft all the weird sounds so I started singing.

" Don't pay no mind to the demons, they fill you with fear. Troubles, they might drag you down. If you get lost, you will always be found. Just know you're not alone. Cause I'm gonna make this place your home." I sang to myself to try to occupy myself. I heard footsteps and panting coming nearer to me. I saw a figure running towards me inside the fog. I squinted my eyes trying to see better to find out if I knew the person. I couldn't tell how close the person really was to me so they ended up running into me and we both collapsed onto the forest floor. I looked at the person who landed on top of me and it turned out to be a mildly curly haired teenage boy.

"You going somewhere?" I asked him. He looked up to me and I could tell he looked frightened. I looked deep into his hazel eyes. 

"Are-are you okay?" I asked him.

"P-please don't scream?" He said while his warm breath hit my neck.

"Wha?" I said confused. We heard more footsteps but the were much faster.

"Liam! Liam?!" Some voices that belonged to a group of girls screamed. The boy's eyes widened and he pulled me up. Still holding my hand, he dragged me behind a bush and slouched down. We waited for the girls to run by.

"Who...are you?" I asked him. He looked at me confused.

"You don't know?" He asked, still confused. I squinted my eyes, trying to think.

"I'm Liam Payne." The boy told me. I still looked confused.

"From One Direction." He told me. One Direction? I think I've heard of them from Kelly. My mom doesn't let me listen to much music. She says it damages the brain.

" One-"

"Direction." Liam finished the sentence.

"Nope. Never heard of you." I joked.

"Wow! Funny and beautiful." Liam said. I blushed and looked embarrassed. I looked behind me and Liam turned me face towards his.

"Don't be insecure. You're amazing and beautiful." He tried to convince me. He then slowly leaned in and touched my lips with his. I was expecting more but I shouldn't. He slowly pulled away, releasing my face and I stood up.

"I'm not insecure." I started.

"I'm just not trustful of myself." I stated. I started to walk towards the direction to school.

"Wait! Where are you going?" Liam said as he stood in front of me.

"School." I said.

"I know. Weird right?" I said sarcastically.

"Can I walk you?" Liam asked.

"Okay." I whispered and Liam interlocked his fingers with mine. I was about to release but I didn't know why I didn't.

"I shouldn't be doing this. I have a boy-" I tried to say but Liam interrupted me.

"You have a beautiful voice." He pronounced. I only stared at him.

"Your signing." He continued.

"Since when have you heard me sing?" I wondered.

"Yes. I have." Liam gloated.

"When?" I asked sternly.

"Today." He said obvious.

"What song then?" I asked.

"Home by Philip Philips need I say more?" He said and he smiled an evil smile. I slapped him in the face and he held it pretending like it hurt.

"Shut up!" I yelled at him.

"You are like the perfect girl. You have insecurities so you don't know you're beautiful, you are beautiful, you are funny, and, I don't know. You're not like most girls." He said while holding my hands and staring into my eyes.

"I get that a lot." I said ashamed.

"I meant in a good way silly." He laughed and pecked my nose. I shivered.

"Sorry." He said and looked away.

"It's okay. I like you too, Liam. I just..." I stopped myself.

"What?" Liam asked.

"Uhh...uhh..." I started but I heard the school bell ring in the distance. 

"I have to go." I said and started running towards the school house.

"Wait!" Liam yelled racing after me.

"Wait!" He said while grabbing my arm while I was trying to get up the steps.

"I never got your name." He said.

"Skylar." I smiled at his beautiful face. Her mouthed my name and grinned. I just rolled my eyes and started up the stairs.

"Hey, Skylar!" Liam startled me.

"What?!" I said annoyed and pointed towards the door trying to tell him I'll be late.

"What's your number?" he asked.

"Why?" I wondered.

"Want to go out sometimes?" He asked. I had to think really hard because, I really did like Liam, he is amazing, but, I'm with Shaden. Although, this will be one date, and, Liam is famous so I will never see him again.

"It's 555-283-7948." I told him trustfully.

"So, do you want to go out?" He asked again.

"Uhh..." I started and Liam was getting more anxious.

"Yes." I smiled and walked up the stairs. I looked back to see Liam fist bump the air and I laughed inside my head.

"Boys." I mumbled under my breath. I tried to open the door, hoping it wasn't locked and lucky for me, it wasn't. I tried to sneak upstairs to my locker and thought I was safe until I heard the principal.

"Miss Blue! Come and meet me in my office after you are finished unpacking." She hissed.

"Yes Ms. Chang." I groaned.

"Don't slouch!" She began.

"It will give you a hump." Maybe I want a hump. I thought. Of course, I really didn't. I moaned all the way to my locker, while dragging my feet. Finally, what felt like ages, due to the way I was walking, I got there and threw all my stuff in and grabbed the materials I needed for english. I whipped around to head bump some one in my way.

"Hey watch it bi-" I started, only to notice it was Shaden.

"Oh, thanks "girlfriend."" He asked while doing air quotes.

"Aw! Shaden, I'm sowwy!" I said like a three year old while wrapping my arm around his hips. He hugged my neck and kissed the top of my head. Once we pulled apart, he asked me,

"So, why are you late?" I looked at him like it was obvious.

"Wait! Let me guess. Okay, you were texting Kelly for God knows how long, you took too long in the shower, you argued with your mom, you missed the bus, and you had to walk to school." He stated. I smiled at him to show he did a good job.

"You know me so well." I said kissing his cheek.

"Hey! You're my girlfriend. I care about you. Hey, speaking of girlfriend...what's happening in three days on saturday?" He asked. I pretended to not know and he looked annoyed.

"Our two year anniversary!" I said happily and poked his stomach. He playfully slapped my hand and we laughed until we were intterupted.

"Miss Blue!" Ms. Chang yelled abrubtly which startled me. I nervously looked at Shaden and he mouthed,

"detention?" I nodded my head slowly and whispered,

"Probably." I slowly turned around and started to walk towards Ms. Chang but Shaden grabbed my wrist and whispered in my ear,

"See you there!" I turned my head and he was smirking and winked at me. I gave him a look that said, "No!" but he just kissed my cheek and started down the hall. I started to skip towards Ms. Chang.

"You know..." I said.

"I actually missed you. I haven't seen you since this morning and I was writing in my planner note to self: go to the office to get some catch up girl time with my bff." I pretended and nudged her shoulder.

"Don't touch me." She snapped and I jumped back. I shook myself off inside and got back into character.

"Is that a new haircut? It's just gorg. Oh my gosh! I saw those same shoes in forever 64- 21 and I knew, I just had to have them." I joked.

"So where are they?" She asked while looking down at my wore out Nike sneakers.

"Um...um..." I tried to think.

"Nice try. Now, in my office!" She yelled and I literally sprinted through the door.

"Now, Skylar..." She began acting sweet while sitting on her desk.

"Is it your mother again?" She asked.

"Okay, that's personal information that I can not provide with the particular presence whom is questioning and, thanks, but I'm not looking for therapy." I told her and went to pick up my back pack but she grabbed it and placed it down again.

"Okay, if you do not wish to provide me with the information I am seeking, you may speak all you can't in Mr. Mike's classroom today at 3:00 for detention. Choose your pick." She said sort of rudely.

"Hmmm....tricky tricky. I would be satifised with either I guess." I said while tapping my finger on my chin and Ms. Chang's evil grin dissapeared.

"Fine." She said.

"I will get you a pink slip and write out a detention form for you." She said, not even giving me a choice. I moaned but inside I didn't care becausue 1, Shaden would be alone and 2, I do NOT want to go home to see my mom.

"I was going to choose that anyway." I mumbled under my breath and Ms. Chang glared at me.

"Do you want me to make it 2?" She asked.

"No ma'am." I replied annoyed.

"I thought so." She said. Everytime she turned around, I scolded at her and stuck my tongue out. (I know right, real mature!)

"Okay." She finally said.

"Take this to Mr. Mike's class at 2:45 and tell him you are his 3:00 okay? After detention, you will then record your name on the detention list and put ANOTHER dash on the chart 'kay?" She asked.

"Yer." I answered while rolling my eyes.

"I would play nice if I were you. You put yourself in this position." She reminded me while I walked out.

"Yeah, yeah, yeah." I mumbled and sped out. After english, math, and art, it was finally time for lunch and I was looking foward to avoiding Kelly for previous reasons. I walked to my locker to get my lunch money when suddenly, two warm hands covered my eyes.

"Guess who?" The male voice whispered in my ear making me shiver.

"Could it be...Harry Potter?" I asked giggling. The hands retrieved my eyes and spun me around revealing, Shaden of course. He grabbed my chin and his warm lips pressed up against mine.

"Guess what I have beautiful? Oh wait...you don't like being called beautiful. Guess what I have....hidious?" He pretended.

"Haha very funny. And, I don't care if you call me beautiful. I just won't believe you." I said.

"Stop it. Can I show you now?" He asked and I nodded my head. He pulled out of his pockets, two tickets to " The Haunted House."

"EEP!" I screamed.

"How did you get these? I heard they were all sold out since opening night?!" I wondered.

"You know..." He started while scratching the back of his neck. I crossed my arms and stared at him.

"Okay! I got them from my cousin and they only cost...." He trailed of. I kept staring at him.

"Fine! Triple price each." He mumbled. My eyes widened.

"You spent 60 dollars on movie tickets?! Give them back. We can see a different movie." I exclaimed.

"No. No! Money doesn't matter. You've been wanted to see this movie since November!" He explained.

"Uh! I, don't know what to say except I love you and I want to loan you some money." I said while wraping my arms around his neck.

"Don't. My parents paid for it." He replied.

"Your rich parents?" I asked.

"Mhhhm." He concluded.

"Well you just ruined the moment!" I yelled. Shaden looked confused and I just playfully slapped his cheeck and took his hand to walk to lunch. 

"Oh yeah!" I said to Shaden.

 "When's the movie?"

 "9:00 P.M. on saturday." He responded. I nodded my head showing him I was okay with then and went to walk to the lunch line. While I was about to get there, I walked passed Kelly's table. I sneered at her and kept walking. She got up and grabbed my shoulder.

"Hey!" She yelled as I turned around and crossed my arms.

"You've been ignoring me all day. I waved at you in the hallway and all you did was "hiss" at me. What's up with that?!" She yelled.

"What's up with you?!" I screamed in her face and turned around but she spun me around again.

"What the hell are you talking about?!" She raised her voice.

"I told you I'm NOT insecure! Even if I am, you just won't shut up about it! Just leave me alone, some things are meant to be kept private! And, telling someone else's boyfriend?! You have NO right to do that! I do that if I want. Not you!" I strictly spoke my mind.

"Okay!" Kelly began.

"I am your BEST friend! I know you are insecure and I know you know you're insecure! I am trying to help you STOP being insecure! You still complain and it is stupid so I want YOU to shut up! And, Shaden? He is your boyfriend! He has the right to know because he loves you and he will protect you! Why would you be mad if he knew? Unless, you didn't really love him back. Do you?" She yelled in my face.

 I looked around to see the whole lunch room staring at us. Even Shaden. I could feel my cheeks getting warm and I ran to the bathroom. 

"Sky! Wait!" I could hear her and Shaden yelling behind me. I ran into the girls bathrrom and cried in a stall. I could hear footsteps come nearer to me.

"Um...you should wait...." Kelly said.

"Yeah. Oustide...good luck." Shaden replied and I heard him walk out. Kelly knocked on the stall door.

"Sky."

"Go away." I sniffled.

"Sky. Stop. I want to talk about this."

"Talk about what?" I asked walking out.

"Embarassing me in front of the whole junior class where as, you don't seem to mind at all?" I wondered.

"Of course I care. I just am better at hiding my emotions. Therefore, I'm not insecure." She responded.

"I'm not either." I demanded.

"Yes you are!" She yelled back. I walked to the sink and wiped my tears away. I heard a knock on the door and turned my head around. It was Shaden.

"Please go away. I don't need more drama." I said heading towards the door but  Shaden closed it.

"Shaden! Open the door, it's not funny." I yelled. Shaden took my arms and slammed me against the wall.

"Ow." I whispered. Shaden took a strand of my hair and put it behind my ear. Then, he slowly pushed his lips against mine.

"You know I love you right?" He asked me.

"Of course." I tried to speak while tearing up.

"Do you love me?" He asked.

"Shaden I-"

"Do you love me?" He said sternly.

"Shaden, I would die for you. I love you more than my mom."

"Don't say that." He said.

"It's true." I said and he shook his head and motioned for Kelly to come over. She slowly walked over to me and wrapped her arms around me and I did the same.

"I'm so sorry." Kelly said.

"I had no right to keep nagging you over that."

"No." I began.

"You are a good friend. You did what was right. I didn't. But don't call me beautiful unless it's true."

"Okay." She said.

"Come on. Let's get some lunch."

"No. I'll wait. Just go, I'd like some time to myself please." I told her.

" 'Kay." She said and started to walk out.

"Bye, bye, beautiful!" She laughed and skipped out. I smiled to myself and felt my phone buzz. I looked at my phone and it was from an unknown number. I was so confused until I read the text.

 

555-483-3930- Hey Skylar! It's Liam. I got us a date.

S- Oh hey Liam. I'm going to put you in my contacts. Oh! What and when is the date?

L- It is at The Raupeng the number one recomended resturant in Califorina. Five stars.

S- Ooh, that sounds fancy. And expensive!

L- It is but I have plenty of money.

S- It still counts. When is it?

L- Saturday

S- Oh. Um...What time?

L- The reservation is at 7:00 why is that a problem?

S- No it's just I don't know if I have something else to do.

L- Oh well, I'm leaving on sunday and I know you have school tomorrow and Friday.

S-  Oh, um...no that's perfect. I'm free.

L- Oh good! Pick you up at 6:30. xx

Oh God! Oh lord! Oh Jesus! This is going to be the worst saturday ever!

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