I was going to go to a hotel for a couple of days, I needed to cool off. I can't believe what I said to Harry, but I couldn't believe what he said to me. I was crying the entire car ride there. When I pulled into the hotel parking lot, I parked my car, grabbed my bag and purse and headed inside.
"Room for one please?" I sniffled.
"Sure sweetie." The nice lady said. She handed me a key and I headed up the room. I closed the door behind me. I slowly slid down the door and started crying. I don't think Harry and I were ever going to be able to repair our relationship. We just keep fighting. Everyday. And I can't just keep leaving and coming back. That would cause too much stress and it's not healthy. I figured all the girls were with their boyfriends, So I'd just go to sleep. It was late anyways. I laid down on the bed and I felt lonely without Harrys arms wrapped around me, But I was going to have to get used to it. I couldn't sleep at all. I was tossing and turning all night. Finally at about 5 I fell asleep. I opened my eyes and I had a terrible headache. I dipped my hand in my purse and pulled out some aspirin. I walked over to the ini fridge that was in the room and I pulled out a water bottle. I popped the pills in my mouth then washed them down with the water. I sat back down on the bed and put my head in my hands. Re-playing everything that happened last night. I loved Harry so much, But I couldn't keep letting him treat me like this. We needed to talk. And we needed to do it soon. So I decidede to give Harry a ring.
Conversation with Harry.
Harry: Where are you?
Me: At a hotel.
Harry: I'm sorry-
Me: Don't waste your time Harry. We need to talk, but not over the phone. In person. Can you meet me somewhere?
Harry: Yeah, sure. Where at?
Me: At Panera Bread. 30 Minutes.
With that I hung up. I really needed to make up my mind. Were Harry and I going to get a divorce? Or was I going to keep putting up with the way he treats me? I thought he was going to anger management classes and getting help. I really hope he wasn't lying to me about that. But I guess we would find out today.
I arrived at Panera Bread and Harry was sitting in a table in the corner. I sat down and threw my purse to the floor. He broke the silence and asked why I needed to talk to him. Why did he think?
"Harry, I'm just... I can't keep letting you treat me like this. I'm not happy anymore. I love you with everything I have, but I can't hold this relationship up on my own."
He looked into my eyes, like he was about to cry. He shifted in his seat. He opened his mouth but nothing came out. I bit my lip.
"Then I guess we're done here." I grabbed my purse and got up to leave. I heard Harry call from behind me.
I turned and looked Harry in the eyes. I was about to cry and he knew it.
"What is it, Harry?"
He took a deep breath. "Aly." His voice was shakey. "I'm so sorry." He put his head in his hands and was shaking his head 'no'. "I love you, I really do." He ran his fingers through his hair. "I don't think, anything I say, could get you to change your mind. But I want you to know, that if you give me just one more chance. Just one, I will really try, With everything I have. I don't think, you would know how heart-broken I would be, if you left. I don't think I would be able to live with myself anymore, Knowing that I let our love go."
"Harry. I...I want to be happy. But if you keep acting like this, I don't know how long we'll last. I want to give you another chance, I do, honestly. But only if you're actually going to try. I don't want to feel alone in this relationship. We're supposed to hold eachother up. But I feel like I'm holding you up more then anything. I can't do it on my own." I looked up at him, to find him already intently gazing at me.
"I want you to be happy too, babe. I'm sorry, I don't realize when I get like that. Please, give me another chance. I will change. I'm sorry that you felt alone in our relationship, you should've talked to me about it. You won't be on your own. I'm here for you. I always will be."
"Harry, you really need some help. I'm trusting you'll do it for me. If you love me, you will. Harry, I'm really serious. I'll get back with you, if you get help. I didn't want to talk to you about it, because you wouldn't understand."
"I know I do. I will, I will just for you." He grabbed my hand.and led me back to the table. We took our previous places, across from eachother. I looked at my hand while Harry entwined his fingers with mine. He never failed to give me goosebumps everytime we touched.
"So are you coming home?" He said rubbing my knunkles with his thumb.
"I don't really have a choice, do I?" I laughed.
"Nope." He smiled at me.
We went our seperate ways as we got into our cars. I drove back to the house and pulled into our driveway. I walked into the house and Harry was standing in front of my holding a cake that said 'I'm sorry' on it.
I looked up at him. "Did you make this?"
He nodded and gave me a weak smile. I walked closer to him and puckered my lips, signaling for him to kiss me. He leaned down and kissed me passionately. Butterflies started fluttering in my stomach. He put the cake on the table next to the front door and placed his hand on the small of my back and pulled me closer to him. I broke the kiss and layed my head on his chest. I inhaled deeply, taking in Harrys heavy scent. I closed my eyes and felt Harry rest his head on mine.
"I love you so much." He whispered.
"I love you too." I whispered back.
"I have to go to the studio today. You can come if you want too." He said.
"Okay." I smiled at him and walked into the kitchen. I grabbed a apple and a water bottle and headed into the living room. I sat down next to Harry and bit into my apple. Harry wrapped his arm around me and I leaned my head onto his shoulder. I was still tired, due to my 2 hours of sleep. I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep.
I heard light breathing. I loked over at Aly and she was fast asleep. She looked so beautiful and peacful while she slept. I had to leave in 2o minutes. I wonder if she was still coming with me. I gently rubbed her shoulder and her eyes fluttered open.
"You still coming to the studio with me?" I whispered into her ear.
She nodded her head and mumbled 'mhm'. She wiped her eyes and went into the bathroom. She came out and looked refreshed.
"Ready?" I held my hand out to her. She took it and I led her out the house. We got into the car and headed into the city. We reached the studio and walked in the recording room. Aly sat on the couch with with the rest of the girls. Simon was talking to us and I glanced at Aly behind him. The girls looked like they were talking about something serious. But I couldn't worry about that we had to get started.
We got a new song called 'Kiss You'.
Zayn started : "Oh, I just wanna take you anywhere that you would like..."
We hit the chorus and the girls faces lit up.
"So, tell me girl if everytime we touch, you get this kinda rush, baby say yeah a yeah a yeah yeah yeah a yeah and let me kiss you"
After we finished recording the girls were clapping and nodding their heads.
"THAT'S THE ONE!" Aly and El yelled together.
Simon looked at them and laughed. He nodded his head. We still had some work to do on it.
"From the second hook boys." Simon said.
We started singing and Simon the girls something, they all nodded and left.
Simon wanted us to get some coffee for the boys. We all hopped in Harrys Range Rover and found the nearest Starbucks and drove to it. We ordered the boys usual and got ourselves something too. When we got back to the studio all the boys were were talking and laughing. We handed them their coffee and grabbed ours. Harry snaked his arms around my lower waist and kissed me on the cheek. I giggled and Simon was smiling and shaking his head at us.
"You guys are done for today." Simon said walking out of the recording room. Harry grabbed my hand and we left too. Louis was calling from behind us.
"Hey, guys. We're all going out for dinner tonight, it'd be nice if you guys came. But don't fight, please. Its gunna be a special night. I'm going to propose to El." He smiled at us and walked away. We got in the car and Harry grabbed my hand again.
"I'm so excited for El. Little Javen is going to be the ring bearer. I hope she asked me to be her Maid Of Honor."
"Me too." Harry smiled at me.
I turned the radio on and started singing to Harry. Even though my voice was like nails on a chalk board. He joined in. His voice was angelic. I shut up and let him sing to me. He's never really sung to me, just around me. We pulled into the driveway of our house and Harry told me that I had to dress up. I quickly got in the shower and then it was time to decide what to wear. I grabbed my black mesh tube dress. I slid on some black platform pumps and my silver dangley earrings. I walked into the bathroom and out my make up on. Because It was colder out I grabbed a white blazer and headed to meet Harry downstairs. I smiled came to his face when he saw me.
"You look great." He grabbed my hand.
"As do you babe." I smiled at him and we walked out of the house. He got in the car and Harry started it up. He put in the navigation the name of the resturant. I had never heard of it. When we got there, It was nothing like I expected. It was huge and had big letters on the front of the building that I couldn't pronounce. I saved myself the embarrassment and didn't try. The line was hella long. I didn't really want to wait. Then I cought a glimpse of Linda's long black hair inside the resturant and told Harry we should go up to the front. Harry led me over to him and the guy looked really up-tight.
"Reservations sir?" He said in a posh accent.
"Erm." Harry panicked.
Just then Linda saved us.
"They're with me." She smiled at him and motioned us to come with her. We walked past him and he made a huffing noise. We followed Linda to the table and took our seats. Then everyone came over and sat down.
"Louis, this place is really nice. How did you get reservations here? Have you seen the line?"
"I know someone." He looked at Josh, who then looked at Linda.
"Let me guess, Linda, your parents own the joint and Louis told Josh about it, and Josh told you, and you hooked us all up." I ran my fingers through my hair.
"Wow, you're good at guessing." She looked shocked.
The night went on and we were all talking and having a good time, then the moment of truth came. Louis stood up and clanged his spoon with his wine glass. Liam winced at the sight of the spoon. I silently laughed at him.
"Tonight, is a very special night." He looked at El and she smiled. "Eleanor, I have been in love with you since I first layed my eyes on you. You mean the world to me and I would do anything for you. We have a beautiful son together." He looked at Javen, sitting in the high-chair and smiled. I laughed at Javen's little suit. "And I'm ready to start my life with you." He got down on his knee and we all gaped at the sight. "Eleanor, would you take this ring, and become Mrs.Tomilson?" She nodded vigorously and let 3 yes's escape her mouth. Louis smiled and jumped back on his two feet. El jumped on him and hugged and kissed him. They were so cute together.