I woke up in a white place. Where was I?
"Hello?" I called out and recieved no answer. I didn't see anyone. The last thing I remember was me going to the hospital after getting hit by a semi-truck. I left the bed I was in ald started walking around. Where was Aly? I saw another person and walked over to them.
"Where are we?" I asked
"Heaven." She turned around. She looked alot like Little Baby Styles, just older.
"Do I know you from somewhere?" I asked slowly.
"Yeah, I'm Baby Styles. Your daughter." She smiled at me.
"So, we're both dead?" I asked.
"We sure are."
"How do you think mommy is handling this?" She hugged me.
"Not very well."
"Why don't you see? Just close your eyes and imagine her. When your vision is clear, you'll be able to step into the world. But don't talk to mommy, don't touch her either. You could mess up the real world. You'll be able to see and hear everything she does, you'll be able to hear her thoughts too. But I can't do that because, I don't know what mommy looks like."
I closed my eyes and imagined Aly. She was at a funeral. I stepped into the realy world and saw a casket in front of the room. I walked over to it and peered in. My lifeless body lay in front of me. I looked around at all the faces and they were red and puffy. Especially Alys. I walked over and stood by her. I could hear what she was thinking.
I miss Harry so much. I wish he was still here. Then she switched topics and was thinking about this 'Trent' guy. I just died, was she getting over me that fast? Should I tell Trent I think he's cute too? Or is it too soon? Regaurdless of what she does I will still love her, I know I can't keep her tied down for the rest of her life. I'm dead.
"Now, we would like to hear some words from family and close friends." My uncle said into the microphone. "Can we have Aly come up here?"
She stood up and pulled a piece of paper from her purse. He unfolded it and started reading:
"I fell in love with Harry in a very short time. He was my savior. If he hadn't of found me on the street that one lonely night, I would've never known what true love actually was. We have been through so much in the past 2 years and I'm thankful for getting to him, not only as a person, but a lover." She sniffled and a tear fell down her cheek. "We have one beautiful child, but she rests in heaven. I hope one day they meet, and when I join them, they tell me all about their experiences they've had together.Yes, I'll miss him, but I have to accept that. And eventually I'll have to move on, but I want Harry to know that he will always have a huge part in my heart. He's played a major role in my life. And I will always love him. Reguardless of what's going on in my life."
I had to accept that Aly and this Trent guy were probably going to get together. He was going to give her the one thing I never did. A child. I only took life from her. We would always be married in my mind. I would never come back like this, I can't do it. It would only make me sad. I opened my eyes and I was back with Baby Styles.
"How was it?" She asked anxiously
"It was great, but I'm never going to do it again. They were at my funeral."
"Oh, dad." She smiled. I like the sound of that. Dad.
After the funeral Trent drove me home. He walked me up to my door. I opened my door and stepped in. I turned to face Trent.
"Thank you for coming." I smiled at him.
"Maybe, when you're ready, we could go on a actual date. You know, one where everyone isn't crying." He said.
I laughed. "Maybe Trent."
"I'll text you when I get home."
"Okay." And I closed my door. Well, today was an eventful day. I went to a funeral with I guy I could possible like for the guy that I really loved. Moving on from Harry wasn't going to be easy. But if I ever want to be happy again, I'm going to need to.
I went into my room and fell asleep. I didn't even remember that Trent said he was going to text me until I heard my phone ringing.
"Hello?" I said sleepily into the phone.
"Hey, are you okay? You didn't respond to any of my texts." Trent said.
"No, hold on, let me tell my murderer I need to text someone back." I laughed.
"Okay, I'll wait."
"You're funny." I said.
"Okay, well I just wanted to make sure you were okay, night."
"Night." And I hung up.
I slid out of my annoying funeral clothes and into one of Harrys t-shirts and some shorts. I got under the duvet and went to bed. Falling asleep was easier than it as last night.
I woke up the next morning and decided to make some eggs and french toast. When I was done making it I suddenly wasn't that hungry anymore. I wasn't going to eat all this food, so I threw it away. I started to walk around my flat, looking at all the pictures of Harry and I. Then Trent snapped into my mind. I couldn't do this, I couldn't move on from Harry. He was my one true love. Regaurdless of all the shit we'd been through, I still loved him.
I got a funny feeling and I imagined myself back down with Aly. She was crying. I started to read her thoughs.
"I can't move on from Harry. I love him too much. He will always be mine. I will always be Aly Styles."
I hate that I had to leave the world and she would have nothing to remind her of me. Then I saw something. I saw something inside of Aly. A fetus? A baby! Then I remembered the night before my concert. We had sex. My baby. She was going to have another baby. I pray, I pray, please don't take this baby away from her.
I hated how fast Harry was taken away from me, but what are you gunna do? Shit happens. I got in the shower and washed up. I started to think of how Harry would probabl be touching me right now. I was getting worked up with the thought of him. I reached down and touched myself, imagining Harry doing it.
"Harry." I groaned.
The hot water running down my body only furthered the orgasm approaching my body. I screamed Harry's name once more before I let go. I had never touched myself, so that was an....experience.
I dressed and made myself look decent. My eyes looked terrible from all the crying I had been doing. I put sunglasses on and grabbed my phone. I wanted to see someone. Having no human contact made me feel like a alien. I called Eleanor to see if she wanted to go somewhere with me.
El: Hey! It's nice to hear from you. How are you?
Me: I'm better. How are you and Lou?
El: That's great to hear, and great. He proposed!
Me: That's great El! I'm so happy for you.
El: Would you want to be my maid of honor?
Me: Of course I would babes!
Me: So, do you wanna hang out today? I need some human contact.
El: Hahah! Well of course silly.
Me: Okay, meet me at the mall in say, 40 minutes?
El: Sounds like a plan!
I hung up and looked around the flat again. I really wish I had a baby. Something to remind me of Harry. He ment so much to me, and now he's gone. No! I need to stop moping around. Harry was still alive in my thoughts and memories. I drove to the mall and sat in the food court. I was gulping down a smoothie and two girls came up to me and hugged me.
"I'm so sorry for your loss." One of them said.
"Don't be sorry." I said dully.
"If it's any condolence, you guys were beautiful together."
"Thanks." I smiled at them. She placed a picture of Harry and I together down on the table and handed me a pen.
"Please sign it?" She smiled weakly.
I took the pen and signed:
'Thanks for being here xoxo Aly Styles'
She took it and smiled. Her and her friend walked off giggling and smiling. Eleanor ran up to me and sat down.
"Let me see that rock Lou gave you." I giggled as she placed her hand on the table.
"HOLY CRAP! That's huge!" My mouth dropped, I was in awe. After fan girling over her ring we decidede to get some shopping done. We shopped for like 4 hours until El got a call, It was Louis complaining about there being no carrots in the house.
"I've got to go, I need to buy Prince Louis some carrots." She giggled.
"Alright love. See you later." I hugged her and she walked off. I grabbed my bags and walked out to Harry's audi. There was a bunch of girls by it.
"Excuse me?" I said brushing past them and opening the back seat, tossing my bags inside.
"How are you feeling without Hazza?" One of the girls asked.
"I'm sad, but I'm getting there." I replied before sliding in the car. I started it up and they made a path. I drove out of the parking lot and back to my flat. I got in and put away all my new clothes. I fell asleep on the couch while watching Doctor Who. God, I missed Harry.