10. A piece of her died in London
What I feared happened. The question I was ignoring came up and I didn't want to talk about it but I felt like I could trust them. In this room I had my best friend ever, I had the guy I love, I had my best girl friend, I had my ladies and I had my boys. I could see Louis wasn't very sure about me being able to tell them but I knew that if it was to much I could stop. I was sitting on his lap shivering and Harry intertwined his fingers with mine. Then I started. "About 2 years ago, I think 6months before you guys went on the X factor and when I was 15 I fell in love with a guy who then became my boyfriend. In the beginning he was very sweet, then one day he asked me to not see Louis anymore cause he felt that Louis was smarter than him for a lot of things and so he wouldn't be able to do what he wanted with me if Louis was there what I didn't know at the moment. So when I said no he slapped me, I thought that was surprising but he thought it was normal. I don't know why but I didn't leave. Then one day he talked to me like I was garbage and I started talking back and so he..." I stopped I couldn't talk anymore my eyes were burning and tears were falling down like I was a fountain. "Can you continue for me ?" I whispered in Louis' ear. "I can't talk about it like I thought I would be able to, I'll be on the roof for some fresh air." I ran out as fast as possible to get out of there.
She ran out. I knew it wasn't a good idea. "So what happened." El asked with her hand recovering her mouth. I could see she felt so bad for Lucy. "Well when she talked back he pulled her by her hair and ended up raping her." I myself had to stop. Tears were filling my eyes but I pulled them back. "She tried to ran away but he was so mad that he took a bottle of vodka he had just emptied and broke it on her head. The glass shattered in pieces and cut her cheek. After that she had to stay a couple of days in the hospital, and never told anyone what happened beside her mom, Antoine and myself. When she could get home from the hospital, he kept stalking her. She changed a few times her phone number and they moved, but he always ended up finding her. At the same period her mom got cancer but apparently she's fine now. At that time it was bad they said she wouldn't last very long. So with all that she started cutting herself and that's why she has cuts on her wrists. She never told me but I ended up seeing them myself. She would always smile and show the world how happy she was but she wasn't and I just left her when she needed me." The tears came out faster than I thought. El took me in her arms and hugged me. "I never knew how she got better but when I talk to her brother he told me that after moving away to Paris. Everything changed. She would never smile, never talk or show any emotion, but she never cut herself again. After a while she started smiling more but never like she used to... A piece of her died in London." That's when I stopped. Everyone's faces were expressing sadness, being confused, guilt and compassion. Harry was also mad. I think that if Jimmy was standing in front of him now, he would just kill him. He ran towards the door and I yelled. "Harry ?" He turned around. "ROOF." I said he looked at me and nodded then left.
When I came up I just needed some fresh air. I stayed there for half an hour and I knew they would be done any minute but I just couldn't go back down. What would they think about me ? And Harry would definitely feel disgusted now. I head a noise and turned around. Harry was standing there not moving when I saw him I started crying again. He ran towards me and pulled me into a hug. "Why didn't you tell me ? I'm so sorry, Lu! I am! You have been going thru awful things but I'll always be there for you. You can tell me everything." He said. I cried twice as hard and he lifted my head and kissed me. After a while of standing there we just went back to the hotel and I went to Harry's room. I was exhausted from crying and I didn't wanted to see anyone. Harry left me alone like I asked and went back to the living. The last thing I heard him say to them was "She doesn't want to see anyone, she's tired and just wants to sleep." Then I went to sleep.